another rainy day

Yuppers another rainy day, spent my whole saturday burn in the academy save guarding it. Damn eerie at night i would say, so chilling. Spend half of the day's duty at the rear gate of the police academy watching the horses galloping on the field and pickin my nose, the horses are all so beautiful really enjoyed looking at em they are so graceful when they are galloping, wish one day i would get a chance to ride on em. Well got home this morning at around 9.15, i actually went without sleep for 24hours. Till now i still find it so hard to believe that i actually lasted through the night without sleep, with all the patrols and everything. But well, i finally finish my weekend duty won't have it anymore. Haha won't want to complain, cause i was pretty fine with it. Well got my precious nap at home since i return this morning, and now got to prepare to go back again. Hahaha. Well really nothing much to blog about for today, jus all the plain boring shit like things that happen in camp. Guess won't want to write em out in details. : )

well now got to prepare all the stuff and iron the clothes for the week ahead, and darn didn even have time to buy my swimming goggles, and this week i think i am learning how to thread water. Hope i DON'T GET DROWN. haha

I feel had so much feeling for this song's lyrics, so well said of how i feel.
Do you ever feel like breaking down
do you ever feel out of place
like somehow you dun just dun belong
and no one understands you
do you lock yourself in the room
with the radio all turned up so loud
and no one hears you screaming
no you don't know what its like
with nothing feels alright
you dont know how its like
to be like me

to be hurt
to feel loved
to be left out in the dark
to be kicked when you are down
feel like you have been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down
and no ones there to save you
no you don't know what its like

welcome to my life

do you want to be somebody else
are you sick of feeling so left out
are you desperate to find something more before your life is over
are you stuck inside a world inside your head
are you sick of everyone aroud
with a big fake smile and stupid lies
no you don't know how its like
nothing feels alright
you don't know what its like to be like me

to be hurt
to feel loved
to be left out in the dark
to be kicked when you are down
feel like you have been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down
and no ones there to save you
no you don't know what its like

welcome to my life

no one will ever point you straight on the face
no one ever stab you in the back
you might think i am happy
but i am not gona be ok
everybody always get what you wanted
you never had to work but you are always there
you dont know what its like what its like

to be hurt to feel lovedto be left out in the dark to be kicked when you are down feel like you have been pushed around to be on the edge of breaking down and no ones there to save you no you don't know what its like
Now listening to Usher feat Alicia Keys-My Boo

woa i got back early!

Yes, i am back again. After one week in the academy, pretty relax week. Well had our first case study of law manual was pretty interesting, at the least it kept my eyes open through out the whole 3 hours lesson despite the morning heavy Physical Training Session. Hahaha. Well a lady by the name of Miss Winnie i think this thursday, she was asking if we would like to go for a tour at the home affair Head quarters, and she told us we could bring our loves ones along just for this time only. Cause usually that place is not open to the public, i am pretty much interested to go but knowing that most of my friends are brining their girlfriends along, i just felt a sudden lonliness and really felt so much to share it with someone........but well just got to give it a miss. tomorrow is guard duty at the police academy so very sian, so much wanted to go zouk tonite. Haha. Well hope i get a chance to put in another entry on sunday if i am not dead by then from the 24hour round house patrol. Its going to be a sleepless saturday night for me. Got to end this entry already. Having rather lots of mix feelings now. Maybe because of tomorrow's duty. Well feel rather lonely now. Gd nite.

Oh i couldn't get the pictures up on the blog site so i got it up an online web album. Hope you guys don't think i am a big farking poseur, i hope i am not cos i know don't look good at all. Keke.
the web album add: http://community.webshots.com/user/oakle102


Now listening Dashboard Confessional-Vindicated

Boring day

Well, Sunday again. Ermm the most boring day in the week, cos i am staying at home just anticipating to go back to camp. Won't be back on next saturday, due to guard duties in camp. I would very much want to come out but choice is not mine, since 12 sept i am officially own by the goverment for the next 2years. So its something I can't grumble alot or in fact i can't. So peeps who are now looking at my blog, you guys won't be able to see any entries next week. Erm uploaded some pics on friendster. Look rather posey, hope you peeps dun think i am a big poseur, and i know i don't really look good as a person or in pictures, don't puke. Do check em out. Haha i am not even sure if anyone is looking at all this entries. Hahaha. But well would end this entry quite soon, don't really have anything to say for today. Going to get tortured once again, maybe my morale wasnt as strong as the last time, i have nothing to motivate me anymore nor push me anymore.

Really had the feel for the lyrics of this song. Would really like to share em out with anyone who is reading the blog.

The cry of the city like a siren song
weiling over the rooftop the whole night long
saw shooting star like a diamond in the sky
must be someone soul passing by
this are the streets where we use to run with papa's friend
this are the days where you become what you become
this are the streets where the stories told the truth unfold
darkness settles in

shine your light down on me
lift me up so i can see
ermm shine your light
when your gone
give me the strength to carry on

dun want to be a hero
just an everyday man
try to do the job the very best i can
but now is like living off for old time
out on the rim
over the line
always attempting fate
like a game of chance
never want to stick around to the very last dance
sometimes it stumble and take a hard fall
lose hold your grip off the wall

shine your light down on me
lift me up so i can see
ermm shine your light
when your gone
give me the strength to carry on

i thought i saw you walking by the side of the road
then a child finding his way home
she is here but she not here
she is gone but not gone
just hope to know
if i get lost

Now listening to Mario Wayans - Let me love you

the promise post

Had the most wonderful evening, since many donkey months. Never felt so wonderful. Maybe its just me. Had a wonderful chinese cuisine tonite, with abalone, lobster and many wonderful cuisine. Went to play pool at ard 11 to around 12. Roam the streets and got some pics taken with my bros, before heading to cafe cartel at my old school (Nafa) till ard 2am. At cartel had egg sandwhich ice banana waffel and also blue coral haha sumptous rite? haha. Feeling rather tired now. Tried uploading it, but just feel so tired, taken my cough syrup and also flu pills, now i feel so broken down. Got to pat myself to bed. gd nite singapore. Hope i will feel better now.

Now listening to Robbie Robertson - Shine on me.

one of my favs days

woke up at 0830hrs, oh shuts am really into the Camps timing. Well couldnt get to sleep, with my flu and cough still bugging me. So I Went to see a doC at ard 9.15 with my mum, finishing my visit to the doC at ard 10.15. So after the seesion with the doC my mum and i decided to drop by causeway point, picked up some goodies that i was thinking of getting for the past few weeks( Not gona say what it is). Well, will be getting ready for my buddie's birthday party today at his club SRC. And if i know how i will post the pics of the party up here in this bloggy thingy. Will be back for the second part of today's journal.

Signing off for now.

Now listening to Robbie Robertson - Shine your light

a bookout day and my first post

Ermm, rather new to this blog thing. Well, just feel like having an online diary. To express and keep a record of what i am doing, due to the fact that i am sitting infront of the computer screen nowadays(but i am actually rather lazy to pick up my pen to write) : ) Well feeling rather tired, wish to start writing all my entries about my feelings and emotion and also my life in camp. Whether anyone reads it anot, it dosen't really matter. Well got to rest soon. Tiring day. And also still very sick, since last weekend. It sucks.

Currently listening to SIMPLE PLAN - Welcome to my life.