works of wonder

Well this week i presume would be a very smooth sailing week, with two public holidays clashing heads on this week. Last Friday finally got the results about my promotion to the rank of Sgt, which means heavier responsibilities in the office as I am third highest ranking officer in the office, well the thoughts of it just makes me shiver. Before getting the result I was carrying a very positive attitude, anticipating for my promotion, but when now i just have all those negative thoughts. Fuck humans are so hard to please, I am just one of those sinners I am not shy to say. Well had the hardest time to tell myself that taking on the role of the leader wasn't that bad, at least looking on the lighter side of things I am getting a $300 pay rise, though its little nonetheless its a raise, which as a NSF I should be very happy and I am.

Well everyone in the office was in a holiday mood, no one was working. My mdm says its because its the end of the year many people are already into the festive seasons mood, that was rather quite true. Today all the muslim officers in the station took half day, it became rather quiet when they all left, cause they really make up the no. in the station, espcially in my dept. I had to really work my balls out today without them, this was the time i rather miss em...haha to help me out in my work, i need them to share the workload with me.....

Well had a very sore ankle since last saturday, not sure what really happen its like one of those days when you wake up on the wrong side of the bed. Its been really plaguing me and it does affect my mood to party and work...that really sucks. Missed my chance to actually go zouk and get to know steven's friend Anthony and his art director CO. darn I practially blew my chance in knowing them and socialising with them...which i felt rather stupid not going that day to zouk.
If life is like a VCR i wish i could rewind and reuse the tape again, like so many of times i think i really create lots of my own blunder in life. I swear to god I would never miss any chances anymore, i would make start to savour every moment to my side.

Well saying that i am enjoying single life is rather a very hypocritical shit, why am i like that. I feel so fucked up now. Why issit that everyone has to go through this sort of thing in their life, all is my lyrics so messed up now. Well i tired embracing it, at times i find it hard to pick myself up. Well encouraging other and comforting others may seem easy but when it happen to urself its rather hard, trust me, been through and till now i can't seem to get pass this obstacle called 'EMOTION'. Maybe i am just another weakling struggling in this relam.

But well i can foresee that next week will be one hectic week in the office with tons of work, which are waiting for me to clear, which i think i have been basically too slack, going into the office and not work progressively, which I should be....*smack* *smack* wake up your fucking idea GORDON, its time to come back to reality.Well sometimes i am just induldging too much into this kind of spoon fed life, fuck i just have to change if not i don't see my future. Well days pass fast, and soon this weekend that i am enjoying would soon pass me by.