The days of eggy

Just had this feeling to write in an early entry today. I remembered when I was in primary school on this day we had the opportunity to actually bring empty egg shells, and we can actually do our paint works on the empty egg shell I really enjoyed every moment of it. I don’t know why all this thing suddenly flashed in my head, maybe it’s the happy moment that I have enjoyed too much. Life was so simple when I was still small and I enjoyed it, but as you grow older more things get complicated and you won’t know how to control yourself and salvage the problems that you encounter and you could only pick yourself up all alone.

How I wish time would cease for me, just for that one moment, maybe I didn’t really know how to treasure whatever I had in the past. Its such a pity, I swear that I will make it up for all and really try to put things down easily, maybe its easier said then done, but nonetheless I will try though it will be very difficult to do it alone but I will try. Well eggy or not, I will be going for my grandma’s birthday later and off to camp again for me. Well happy Esther everyone.

Now listening to Five For Fighting – Easy Tonight

a quiet christmas

Well got back from Jason’s house rested for awhile and before I know it I was on my way out to go shopping with my brother and my mum, we went down to orchard and hell there were many people shopping. Well we went to Adidas at pacific plaza, well a tee caught my eye it was in green, well I have always loved the color green, but I didn’t buy cause I am hesitation and there wasn’t any opinion on whether the tee will match me, cause I know I am not a person who could dress well, and the tee was at 79 bucks so I didn’t buy it, and my bro didn’t manage to get his shoes there either cause most of the shoe designs really suck this time round so we went off. We went down to e spirit and he got a tee there and I think he must have liked it, after that we dropped at Zara, caught my eyes on a pair of shoes but again like before this I didn’t buy it because I wasn’t really sure if I would wear em, so again I gave it a miss, buying stuff wasn’t like before, causes now I just couldn’t make up my mind, after all that dropped by the apple center in wheelocks and got something. Finally dropped by Wisma Atria again I caught my eyes on a tee by Paul Smith but again I din buy it, causes this time it was because of the price but I really love its design, but anyway those designer tees are not for me they are way out of my league, I just have to be contented with whatever I have right now. But at the end of the shopping trip my bro did manage to get his shoes which was a Diesel, which in my opinion was pretty cool looking. Well after all the shopping we went back to causeway point had Crystal Jade with my bro and mum as a Christmas treat, after the sumptuous dinner we went to get some facial wash and cleanser and believe it anot I bought about 50 bucks of those rubbish after the sales girls promoted and brag how good their product was I was like hypnotize, but the lady did gave me tons of other product’s freebies though. Hahaha. Well went home and played with my new toy that I bought and I spent my Christmas quietly at home, well have to sleep already.

I never want to spend my Christmas alone, but do I have a choice.
Merry Merry Christmas to everyone. And a happy new year to all.

Now listening to Faith Hill – Where are you Christmas

that eve

well just got back from my Jason's place. Woa yesterday was all about chilling man, met up with nic and went down to parkway parade together with him, met jason and Bc @ cold storage, well they got most of the stuff already the chips the ingridients it was pure craziness man. After buying the grocceries we went to get Strudels my favourite and you know what, we bought the mango flavoured one(my fav *grins*), then after all the buying we think the food my not be enough and we ordered two large pizzas(hawiian and pepperoni) from pizza hut and buffalo wings as well. After the ordering and buying we took a cab over to Jas's hse(marine Vista), woa upon stepping into his house nic and i were like WOA! It was super cosy, and immediately we told ourselves we got to stay back and chill there. Well after all the commotions, we got down to bussiness in the kitchen, i started cooking the egg beacon cabonara, well it was quite abit of trouble and also a hassle, but i guess all of em did enjoy the cooking together right guys? haha. We all were given task jas and i were frying the egg and beacon and shredding the block parmasen cheese(yum yum), nic and bc bought soft drinks and some prepared the plates. Had tons of fun wit them. We dig into the food, cause it was rather late already and everyone storm the food, and i am glad they said they liked it. haha. Cos i think it wasn't good enough. Thanks guys

Well after all the eating, we had some boozes. Abit of beer and liqour was to end the supposing quite christmas day, then came the seesha, it was my very first time, and it tasted rather nice the taste lingers around even after taking it, i could see nic was enjoying it, so was jason but well it was really nice and i too not denying was also enjoying the whole proccess, and accompanied with the cherry and strawberry i think we really pampered ourselves too much haha. Well watch abit of vcd and before i know it well it was 4 am already had some strudels yummy the strudels were fantastic and i think they all enjoyed the damn thingy. Thinking back now i think i have only slept for like 2 - 3hrs for the last 2 days. Well crazy i am haha. Well end my blog here. Will be back to continue though haha.


Some pics to view if anyone is interested just drop by to take a peek of what we had for our christmas eve dinner, sorry cant show you guys how the seesha instrument look like cos we were enjoying so much i forgot abt the camera haha.
the add for the pic is: http://community.webshots.com/album/157748149GWAiri

Now listening to Blink 182 - Damnit

christmas eve

well, got home after a relaxing week in the academy. My prayers were never anwsered, the things that i hope for never did came. But oh well have to be happy enough that i am able to be still celebrating this eve with my friends in camp, will be going over to do some grocceries shopping with my buds in camp, we having a little potluck some sort of a wine and dine thingy, so excited and a drop by denka's christmas day party. Well though things are not the same like last year, i hope i will enjoy this day. Well not asking for much, i just sincerely hope to get some wishes through sms. Will be doing the cooking today at Jason's hse, hope i dun get drunk again that feeling is rather sucky though feeling rather moody now. Hmm will blog more with pics i hope to be able to put up. Kekeke, some things made me feel so sucky now, some things that i seen, touched, felt. Well my parcel hasnt been delievered quite disappointed. Well peeps sorry for my rather dumb sentence structure in the blog. Well MERRY CHRISTMAS to all you dudes out there and whoever is reading my blog. Gd nite

Now Listening to JayZ fEAT Linkin Park - Numb

sundies

boring sunday again, well back to the same old words again, its yet another sunday where i need to book in. Well got to go back to camp today, well got to drag this pair of lazy feet of mine. Gona be a rather relax week, i think due to the festive weekend coming up, will be booking out early on friday. Might be having a potluck thingy happening at one of my camp dudes hse and maybe some boozing at my Denka's hse on the eve or maybe i would choose to stay at home to celebrate by myself. It just feels so sucky, i don't know what is wrong with me as the day draws closer the more i am feeling lousier and it just don't feel any better for me, I don't understand i really don't. I just feel so sick. Well got to get myself prepared to go back to camp now. Got to restrain myself from boozing too much man. I think i am at it again. Haha, i really wish to spend that day with that someone i treasure so much before, i would really want to try it one more time if God would give me just another chance. Pass by marina square last night on Ganwei's car, well it just brought back some painful memories, would really hope to be able to maybe go there and look around, haven been there for a very long time. Sorry to pour all this out. Fuck man.

Now listening to Zhuo Jie lun - An Jing

splendid sat

Well met up with my dudes in town, the usual suspects. Well went around to do some shopping, wanted to get my ipod mini. But it was soldout was rather disappointed, damn. But got something for my mum a Guess watch, wanted to pamper myself by getting a pair of shoes today, but i didn't maybe there wasn't anyone who would really give me a good opinion to whether i should buy it. And oh ya denka the rich kid, he bought two pink guess hand bags for his two sister Denise and Dephne which cost him round 200 bucks, and darren got somethings for his Gf Yuting as well, not gona say more. Well had a nice time shopping with my dudes, had afternoon tea with denka and darren at Yakun before the shopping and talk about soccer and some army life thingy. Met up with Ganwei for a dinner and a drink till around 12 at a small cafe which sells alchol outside the old selegie NAFA before he goes to Hong Kong again, i feel so much like following him, i regretted that i miss that chance the last time, i just feel so fucked up. So much wanted to make up, so much so much. Dun know hw to explain this feeling. Well feel abit sick, gona rest soon already.

Gd nite, got to rest.

Now listening to Selena - Dreaming Of You

dreaded week

this is the worst week, if i would describe i would describe it as a hell week for us. Well just dun really know to put it together, cause it started so fast just in a blink of a second. First it was tuesday, we were caught for going to the canteen despite knowing that we are not allowed to do so, it just suck so much when we were caught by our Fitness Instructor. We almost got our other dudes in camp into trouble, by getting them confine for this weekend, straight after this mishap another thing happen, someone was caught smoking in the company and we were made to do push up i guess that night we did at least 100 push up, i am not sure abt the figure but i am sure i did alot cause i can feel the strain on my triceps till now. It sucks. Then on thursday, i was made to be a criminal for a demostration thingy for our police unarm tactics module, and it further strain my muscles well i can feel the sore on my hands now. Well, almost forgot abt the good thing that happen this week, it also happen on tuesday. Yes, it was the drill demostration for the new enlistee's parents and friends well, we did a great job no cock ups or anything, it went perfectly fine, and we got other fitness instructors praises. But today it was rather sucky, it was suppose to be walk out day, but we got stuck in camp till around 8, because of some inconsiderate buggers in our company who smokes and threw their ciggratte butts behind the coy's toilet, and we were made to do the comapny's fatigue. Well we were all very shag, got home at around 9.30 pretty much damn tired and i just had to write this post. Some tired now, feel like chopping my arms and kness away the ease the cramps and also the pain.

Well good nite to myself.

Now listening to Nick Carter - Do I have to cry for you

rainy sunday

Woke up at 11am, ermm i guess its the latest since i got enlisted for national service. Even after clubbing during those times, i have never slept till so late, maybe i still got alot of things still troubling me i am not sure, even till now i am still so troubled. Troublematic child i am haha. Well learn how to cook pasta today, haha first time trying. Tried making the Spaghetti Carbonara, i am so hooked to pasta espcially when its so cheesy, the feeling melting in your mouth ermm mmm sumptous. Probably i am going to cook it for myself during christmas as a treat for myself this Christmas day alone. Ermm book in day today, just feel so blue its always this day. Hahaha. Ermm so cooling today, gona cuddle myself back to bed for a short nap again later, so sian have to polish my boots, to prepare myself for the Tuesday Drill presentation. And denka he invited me to go for the Star awards thingy as usual, as hes got 10 free tickets, i feel like going but i have to report back to camp. Hai, so sian wasted. Well got to prepare myself for another new week set aside for me already. Just have to have that lighten up heart again to walk back to the academy alone.

Well peeps dun laugh at my english if anyone is reading it, my grammer is really bad and its getting from bad to worse.

Smile gordon smile.

Now listening to lil flip feat lea - sunshine

sat fever

What a nice sat, dun know why. Crazy rite. Well today was rather a fun day, went out with my mum got some goodies with her, but didn't have someone to guide me on the clothes that i bought felt rather lost., keke. Then after a short but fulfilling shopping trip with my mum, well went down to meet my friends Denka and accompanied him to shop at Armani Exchange where he got a long sleeve orange colored tshirt, after that came Ian, and we walk down together to meet Darren and his Gf Yuting for a movie(Blade Trinity), after getting the tickets at lido we had dinner at Far East and met up with Kelvin for awhile, while on the way to Far East i bump into my Fitness instructor. After finishing dinner Denka went home first when we went for our movie, after the movie we parted with Darren and Yuting and at the same time i bump into my other camp mate Siyuan and his Gf haha, all of em were heading home, after bidding them goodbye i went down to meet my dudes from camp Bo Chun and also Jason Kwek with Ian before joining Chee Mun and Kat at coffee club express outside california gym, haha I was so surprise to see Ivan, haha who was Darren's elder brother. Singapore is just so small haha, had a coffee session with them, was rather cool chilling out with all of em. Then Denka came back again and we had a short shopping spree at HMV haha and i got myself a cd, so did Denka, cool, and then after the shopping spree we went cruising down Orchard in Denka convertable rather fun.

Did so much things today, had so much coincident things happening to me wonder is that what people call a bad omen, i hope its not, cause many shitty things happen to me already this week I hope there isn't anymore. I hope today is the starting of a better day and also a better week for me.

Well all good things just have to come to an end so soon, tomorrow is yet another day and also to remind myself its book in day again. Hahaha

well its already 1.15am already well got to tuck myself into bed already. Hehe. Pretty Tired from all the shopping.

Good Night!

Now listening to Jay Sean - Come With Me

freaking unlucky week

What a damn unlucky week for me this is, first i was so happy bringing my new goggles to camp thinking that i could get a chance to use it, but on that day it rained what the f**k and i injured my knee cap while learning the life saving exercise, i was suppose to save someone instead i got myself injured on the knees what a luck . Then comes the shitty part of the week, the whole squad was inform that we had to perform a drill demostration for the new trainee's parents, well what to do we are the more senior trainee there. Keke. So many things happening this week, well so much to share. Had my first CPR test, was pretty fun pumping the chest of the vitcim now i am able to save lifes with this new accquire skill. Next comes the police unarm tactics, well got a chance to practice this practically, was pretty fun and the instructors that taught us were good and it made us understand easier, well coming back to the drill thingy, pretty tired we did around 10hrs of drill, made everyone's legs so tired. All the drills we did were considered to be quite advance, though tired we were happy that we did it unitedly and also able to achieve that pleasent result, but well i think my leg really hurts alot the knee cap that i hurt that day was pretty much worsen and i got a sore eyes freaks man. Well overall it was pretty much a very tough and uneasy week for all of us, espcially today where we were late for our flag ceremony, almost got confine over it, the moment my dude Nic got the push up i was pretty emotional, it kind of woken me up from my fucking ideas, not to be that slack anymore. I don't wish to get any of my other squadmates in to trouble when they are in the ic position, cause i know being in that position is never easy, cause everyday is different and everyone has to face a different shit each day. I hope everyone in the squad will be more unify.

Good nite, got to rest my eyes and knee cap haven have any good rest because of all this nosesnes.

splendid

Wohooo, just reach hme. Went to have dinner and movie with my bros. Rather fun, i could feel fun and not the lonesome for just that moment. Watched the movie Alexandra, rather nice show in my opinion, but was rather long winded. It gave us a deep understanding of this mythical hero
of his conquest to the east all the way from greece. But felt rather wierd and being alienated i once ha some to accompany me but now to see other couples inside make me feel so bad so very uncomfortable in my heart, i just got to blame myself for losing all the opportunities that i once had but i got them slipped away right from my hands, what a big loser i am. To lose everything that i treasured so much. Erm well getting rather late now. Got to go bath and have a nice sleep. And embrace myself to a new new day.

Smiley Gd nite! Tml is book in day for me again.

Now listening to Zhang Dong Liang - Zhi Mo Bian Jie

throaty heat

yes another day gone. Had a jog and a short obstacale course all done under one morning. Its already another day, i would be booking in already tonight. Haha, so very hard to get by this days all the work in camp. When i reach camp tonite, i will be expecting a tougher week ahead of me, i could already feel so much things being put ahead of me and my squad mates, never felt so much pressure going back before. Felt abit of sore in my throat today, not sure why, well got to take more lozenges to try and soothen down my throat. I really hope i will not fall sick again, i hope my friend Steven can get by it as well cause he is now going through the same thing like me. I hope he is better now, everything is so sour, but i guess what comes now is actaully part of what god has installed for us. Never Speculated on why he did this maybe for a reason.

I work everyday in order sustain the essence that will keep me alife.
I sleep everynight to prepare me for the awakening of a new break of dawn.
I love to make my life feel more fulfilling.
I watch the sunset cause it lets me know that i have ended one splendid day.
I struggle to tell myself not to be the one in the end who will regret.
I motivate myself to press on in life to be more optimistic.

Everything we do has to have its own gains and also a reason of persistance to be there. Maybe i am wrong, but its how i feel. Maybe all is gone but always i feel that its something and a bless in disguise. Well all i wish for is a more pleasent week ahead of me. I feel slightly better, maybe i know what life probably means to me, or probably i am just concealing my feelings inside.

Well no more said for today, got to end this entry here now.
Astlavista. Hai got to sleep in the camp's bed again, so not comfy.

: )

Now listening to Babyface - Nobody knows its but me.

finally back once again

Well this is one those very busy week in camp. Learn first aid, at first i thought my instructor was a big bastard full of shit and a of course a big bragger, but knowing that on the next class he won't be with us anymore i should be happy, but i felt abit of sadness. And yesterday after 4 hours of intensive drill by our fitness instructor, i would dare say that my squad is getting together, that something nice to jot down here. Felt real lonely at times in camp, but with some great buddies in camp like Nic, BC, Jason Kwek and Jason Gay it brought laughter and company. If i can i would like to thank them. Well had the craziest combo of drill and physical traning, but i guess it was all worth it. If I could push my limits i would really want to do it, i really want to know how much and how far my body can push me. There is nothing that pulls me back before doing anything. Got a schedule for my course, will be going on a field camp at pulau ubin on my 22nd Birthday, what a joke. Ermm so much things to do, well at the least its keeping me busy and try not to think of other matters, but i just can't help it at times. Damn it really sucks. Looking forward to meeting up with my buddy Steven and Long time old friend Darren soong has been Donkey months since we haven seen each other. Hope nothing crops up, really wish to see em. Too many things in mind to think of head bursting, just feel so quiet in my room now probably i should throw my mattress out now and drop on it now and cover my pillow on my head. And throw everything behind me, for this one day seen too much read too much don't know what to say , don't even know how to express how i feel i am jus so lost.
Just for one night, i wish to be able to rest in comfort.
Time pass so fast, i have another 4 hrs before the birth of a brand new day, telling me to face it with more confidence and hopefully more happy, cos being able to live for yourself again is a bless and to treasure it is a bliss.

Yea gona get a ipod mini soon, i am going to get the green one. I am real excited bout it. Keke! I hope i can get it soon.

Gd nite!

Now listening to Nick Carter - Do I have to cry for you