finally back once again

Well this is one those very busy week in camp. Learn first aid, at first i thought my instructor was a big bastard full of shit and a of course a big bragger, but knowing that on the next class he won't be with us anymore i should be happy, but i felt abit of sadness. And yesterday after 4 hours of intensive drill by our fitness instructor, i would dare say that my squad is getting together, that something nice to jot down here. Felt real lonely at times in camp, but with some great buddies in camp like Nic, BC, Jason Kwek and Jason Gay it brought laughter and company. If i can i would like to thank them. Well had the craziest combo of drill and physical traning, but i guess it was all worth it. If I could push my limits i would really want to do it, i really want to know how much and how far my body can push me. There is nothing that pulls me back before doing anything. Got a schedule for my course, will be going on a field camp at pulau ubin on my 22nd Birthday, what a joke. Ermm so much things to do, well at the least its keeping me busy and try not to think of other matters, but i just can't help it at times. Damn it really sucks. Looking forward to meeting up with my buddy Steven and Long time old friend Darren soong has been Donkey months since we haven seen each other. Hope nothing crops up, really wish to see em. Too many things in mind to think of head bursting, just feel so quiet in my room now probably i should throw my mattress out now and drop on it now and cover my pillow on my head. And throw everything behind me, for this one day seen too much read too much don't know what to say , don't even know how to express how i feel i am jus so lost.
Just for one night, i wish to be able to rest in comfort.
Time pass so fast, i have another 4 hrs before the birth of a brand new day, telling me to face it with more confidence and hopefully more happy, cos being able to live for yourself again is a bless and to treasure it is a bliss.

Yea gona get a ipod mini soon, i am going to get the green one. I am real excited bout it. Keke! I hope i can get it soon.

Gd nite!

Now listening to Nick Carter - Do I have to cry for you