The days of eggy

Just had this feeling to write in an early entry today. I remembered when I was in primary school on this day we had the opportunity to actually bring empty egg shells, and we can actually do our paint works on the empty egg shell I really enjoyed every moment of it. I don’t know why all this thing suddenly flashed in my head, maybe it’s the happy moment that I have enjoyed too much. Life was so simple when I was still small and I enjoyed it, but as you grow older more things get complicated and you won’t know how to control yourself and salvage the problems that you encounter and you could only pick yourself up all alone.

How I wish time would cease for me, just for that one moment, maybe I didn’t really know how to treasure whatever I had in the past. Its such a pity, I swear that I will make it up for all and really try to put things down easily, maybe its easier said then done, but nonetheless I will try though it will be very difficult to do it alone but I will try. Well eggy or not, I will be going for my grandma’s birthday later and off to camp again for me. Well happy Esther everyone.

Now listening to Five For Fighting – Easy Tonight

a quiet christmas

Well got back from Jason’s house rested for awhile and before I know it I was on my way out to go shopping with my brother and my mum, we went down to orchard and hell there were many people shopping. Well we went to Adidas at pacific plaza, well a tee caught my eye it was in green, well I have always loved the color green, but I didn’t buy cause I am hesitation and there wasn’t any opinion on whether the tee will match me, cause I know I am not a person who could dress well, and the tee was at 79 bucks so I didn’t buy it, and my bro didn’t manage to get his shoes there either cause most of the shoe designs really suck this time round so we went off. We went down to e spirit and he got a tee there and I think he must have liked it, after that we dropped at Zara, caught my eyes on a pair of shoes but again like before this I didn’t buy it because I wasn’t really sure if I would wear em, so again I gave it a miss, buying stuff wasn’t like before, causes now I just couldn’t make up my mind, after all that dropped by the apple center in wheelocks and got something. Finally dropped by Wisma Atria again I caught my eyes on a tee by Paul Smith but again I din buy it, causes this time it was because of the price but I really love its design, but anyway those designer tees are not for me they are way out of my league, I just have to be contented with whatever I have right now. But at the end of the shopping trip my bro did manage to get his shoes which was a Diesel, which in my opinion was pretty cool looking. Well after all the shopping we went back to causeway point had Crystal Jade with my bro and mum as a Christmas treat, after the sumptuous dinner we went to get some facial wash and cleanser and believe it anot I bought about 50 bucks of those rubbish after the sales girls promoted and brag how good their product was I was like hypnotize, but the lady did gave me tons of other product’s freebies though. Hahaha. Well went home and played with my new toy that I bought and I spent my Christmas quietly at home, well have to sleep already.

I never want to spend my Christmas alone, but do I have a choice.
Merry Merry Christmas to everyone. And a happy new year to all.

Now listening to Faith Hill – Where are you Christmas

that eve

well just got back from my Jason's place. Woa yesterday was all about chilling man, met up with nic and went down to parkway parade together with him, met jason and Bc @ cold storage, well they got most of the stuff already the chips the ingridients it was pure craziness man. After buying the grocceries we went to get Strudels my favourite and you know what, we bought the mango flavoured one(my fav *grins*), then after all the buying we think the food my not be enough and we ordered two large pizzas(hawiian and pepperoni) from pizza hut and buffalo wings as well. After the ordering and buying we took a cab over to Jas's hse(marine Vista), woa upon stepping into his house nic and i were like WOA! It was super cosy, and immediately we told ourselves we got to stay back and chill there. Well after all the commotions, we got down to bussiness in the kitchen, i started cooking the egg beacon cabonara, well it was quite abit of trouble and also a hassle, but i guess all of em did enjoy the cooking together right guys? haha. We all were given task jas and i were frying the egg and beacon and shredding the block parmasen cheese(yum yum), nic and bc bought soft drinks and some prepared the plates. Had tons of fun wit them. We dig into the food, cause it was rather late already and everyone storm the food, and i am glad they said they liked it. haha. Cos i think it wasn't good enough. Thanks guys

Well after all the eating, we had some boozes. Abit of beer and liqour was to end the supposing quite christmas day, then came the seesha, it was my very first time, and it tasted rather nice the taste lingers around even after taking it, i could see nic was enjoying it, so was jason but well it was really nice and i too not denying was also enjoying the whole proccess, and accompanied with the cherry and strawberry i think we really pampered ourselves too much haha. Well watch abit of vcd and before i know it well it was 4 am already had some strudels yummy the strudels were fantastic and i think they all enjoyed the damn thingy. Thinking back now i think i have only slept for like 2 - 3hrs for the last 2 days. Well crazy i am haha. Well end my blog here. Will be back to continue though haha.


Some pics to view if anyone is interested just drop by to take a peek of what we had for our christmas eve dinner, sorry cant show you guys how the seesha instrument look like cos we were enjoying so much i forgot abt the camera haha.
the add for the pic is: http://community.webshots.com/album/157748149GWAiri

Now listening to Blink 182 - Damnit

christmas eve

well, got home after a relaxing week in the academy. My prayers were never anwsered, the things that i hope for never did came. But oh well have to be happy enough that i am able to be still celebrating this eve with my friends in camp, will be going over to do some grocceries shopping with my buds in camp, we having a little potluck some sort of a wine and dine thingy, so excited and a drop by denka's christmas day party. Well though things are not the same like last year, i hope i will enjoy this day. Well not asking for much, i just sincerely hope to get some wishes through sms. Will be doing the cooking today at Jason's hse, hope i dun get drunk again that feeling is rather sucky though feeling rather moody now. Hmm will blog more with pics i hope to be able to put up. Kekeke, some things made me feel so sucky now, some things that i seen, touched, felt. Well my parcel hasnt been delievered quite disappointed. Well peeps sorry for my rather dumb sentence structure in the blog. Well MERRY CHRISTMAS to all you dudes out there and whoever is reading my blog. Gd nite

Now Listening to JayZ fEAT Linkin Park - Numb

sundies

boring sunday again, well back to the same old words again, its yet another sunday where i need to book in. Well got to go back to camp today, well got to drag this pair of lazy feet of mine. Gona be a rather relax week, i think due to the festive weekend coming up, will be booking out early on friday. Might be having a potluck thingy happening at one of my camp dudes hse and maybe some boozing at my Denka's hse on the eve or maybe i would choose to stay at home to celebrate by myself. It just feels so sucky, i don't know what is wrong with me as the day draws closer the more i am feeling lousier and it just don't feel any better for me, I don't understand i really don't. I just feel so sick. Well got to get myself prepared to go back to camp now. Got to restrain myself from boozing too much man. I think i am at it again. Haha, i really wish to spend that day with that someone i treasure so much before, i would really want to try it one more time if God would give me just another chance. Pass by marina square last night on Ganwei's car, well it just brought back some painful memories, would really hope to be able to maybe go there and look around, haven been there for a very long time. Sorry to pour all this out. Fuck man.

Now listening to Zhuo Jie lun - An Jing

splendid sat

Well met up with my dudes in town, the usual suspects. Well went around to do some shopping, wanted to get my ipod mini. But it was soldout was rather disappointed, damn. But got something for my mum a Guess watch, wanted to pamper myself by getting a pair of shoes today, but i didn't maybe there wasn't anyone who would really give me a good opinion to whether i should buy it. And oh ya denka the rich kid, he bought two pink guess hand bags for his two sister Denise and Dephne which cost him round 200 bucks, and darren got somethings for his Gf Yuting as well, not gona say more. Well had a nice time shopping with my dudes, had afternoon tea with denka and darren at Yakun before the shopping and talk about soccer and some army life thingy. Met up with Ganwei for a dinner and a drink till around 12 at a small cafe which sells alchol outside the old selegie NAFA before he goes to Hong Kong again, i feel so much like following him, i regretted that i miss that chance the last time, i just feel so fucked up. So much wanted to make up, so much so much. Dun know hw to explain this feeling. Well feel abit sick, gona rest soon already.

Gd nite, got to rest.

Now listening to Selena - Dreaming Of You

dreaded week

this is the worst week, if i would describe i would describe it as a hell week for us. Well just dun really know to put it together, cause it started so fast just in a blink of a second. First it was tuesday, we were caught for going to the canteen despite knowing that we are not allowed to do so, it just suck so much when we were caught by our Fitness Instructor. We almost got our other dudes in camp into trouble, by getting them confine for this weekend, straight after this mishap another thing happen, someone was caught smoking in the company and we were made to do push up i guess that night we did at least 100 push up, i am not sure abt the figure but i am sure i did alot cause i can feel the strain on my triceps till now. It sucks. Then on thursday, i was made to be a criminal for a demostration thingy for our police unarm tactics module, and it further strain my muscles well i can feel the sore on my hands now. Well, almost forgot abt the good thing that happen this week, it also happen on tuesday. Yes, it was the drill demostration for the new enlistee's parents and friends well, we did a great job no cock ups or anything, it went perfectly fine, and we got other fitness instructors praises. But today it was rather sucky, it was suppose to be walk out day, but we got stuck in camp till around 8, because of some inconsiderate buggers in our company who smokes and threw their ciggratte butts behind the coy's toilet, and we were made to do the comapny's fatigue. Well we were all very shag, got home at around 9.30 pretty much damn tired and i just had to write this post. Some tired now, feel like chopping my arms and kness away the ease the cramps and also the pain.

Well good nite to myself.

Now listening to Nick Carter - Do I have to cry for you

rainy sunday

Woke up at 11am, ermm i guess its the latest since i got enlisted for national service. Even after clubbing during those times, i have never slept till so late, maybe i still got alot of things still troubling me i am not sure, even till now i am still so troubled. Troublematic child i am haha. Well learn how to cook pasta today, haha first time trying. Tried making the Spaghetti Carbonara, i am so hooked to pasta espcially when its so cheesy, the feeling melting in your mouth ermm mmm sumptous. Probably i am going to cook it for myself during christmas as a treat for myself this Christmas day alone. Ermm book in day today, just feel so blue its always this day. Hahaha. Ermm so cooling today, gona cuddle myself back to bed for a short nap again later, so sian have to polish my boots, to prepare myself for the Tuesday Drill presentation. And denka he invited me to go for the Star awards thingy as usual, as hes got 10 free tickets, i feel like going but i have to report back to camp. Hai, so sian wasted. Well got to prepare myself for another new week set aside for me already. Just have to have that lighten up heart again to walk back to the academy alone.

Well peeps dun laugh at my english if anyone is reading it, my grammer is really bad and its getting from bad to worse.

Smile gordon smile.

Now listening to lil flip feat lea - sunshine

sat fever

What a nice sat, dun know why. Crazy rite. Well today was rather a fun day, went out with my mum got some goodies with her, but didn't have someone to guide me on the clothes that i bought felt rather lost., keke. Then after a short but fulfilling shopping trip with my mum, well went down to meet my friends Denka and accompanied him to shop at Armani Exchange where he got a long sleeve orange colored tshirt, after that came Ian, and we walk down together to meet Darren and his Gf Yuting for a movie(Blade Trinity), after getting the tickets at lido we had dinner at Far East and met up with Kelvin for awhile, while on the way to Far East i bump into my Fitness instructor. After finishing dinner Denka went home first when we went for our movie, after the movie we parted with Darren and Yuting and at the same time i bump into my other camp mate Siyuan and his Gf haha, all of em were heading home, after bidding them goodbye i went down to meet my dudes from camp Bo Chun and also Jason Kwek with Ian before joining Chee Mun and Kat at coffee club express outside california gym, haha I was so surprise to see Ivan, haha who was Darren's elder brother. Singapore is just so small haha, had a coffee session with them, was rather cool chilling out with all of em. Then Denka came back again and we had a short shopping spree at HMV haha and i got myself a cd, so did Denka, cool, and then after the shopping spree we went cruising down Orchard in Denka convertable rather fun.

Did so much things today, had so much coincident things happening to me wonder is that what people call a bad omen, i hope its not, cause many shitty things happen to me already this week I hope there isn't anymore. I hope today is the starting of a better day and also a better week for me.

Well all good things just have to come to an end so soon, tomorrow is yet another day and also to remind myself its book in day again. Hahaha

well its already 1.15am already well got to tuck myself into bed already. Hehe. Pretty Tired from all the shopping.

Good Night!

Now listening to Jay Sean - Come With Me

freaking unlucky week

What a damn unlucky week for me this is, first i was so happy bringing my new goggles to camp thinking that i could get a chance to use it, but on that day it rained what the f**k and i injured my knee cap while learning the life saving exercise, i was suppose to save someone instead i got myself injured on the knees what a luck . Then comes the shitty part of the week, the whole squad was inform that we had to perform a drill demostration for the new trainee's parents, well what to do we are the more senior trainee there. Keke. So many things happening this week, well so much to share. Had my first CPR test, was pretty fun pumping the chest of the vitcim now i am able to save lifes with this new accquire skill. Next comes the police unarm tactics, well got a chance to practice this practically, was pretty fun and the instructors that taught us were good and it made us understand easier, well coming back to the drill thingy, pretty tired we did around 10hrs of drill, made everyone's legs so tired. All the drills we did were considered to be quite advance, though tired we were happy that we did it unitedly and also able to achieve that pleasent result, but well i think my leg really hurts alot the knee cap that i hurt that day was pretty much worsen and i got a sore eyes freaks man. Well overall it was pretty much a very tough and uneasy week for all of us, espcially today where we were late for our flag ceremony, almost got confine over it, the moment my dude Nic got the push up i was pretty emotional, it kind of woken me up from my fucking ideas, not to be that slack anymore. I don't wish to get any of my other squadmates in to trouble when they are in the ic position, cause i know being in that position is never easy, cause everyday is different and everyone has to face a different shit each day. I hope everyone in the squad will be more unify.

Good nite, got to rest my eyes and knee cap haven have any good rest because of all this nosesnes.

splendid

Wohooo, just reach hme. Went to have dinner and movie with my bros. Rather fun, i could feel fun and not the lonesome for just that moment. Watched the movie Alexandra, rather nice show in my opinion, but was rather long winded. It gave us a deep understanding of this mythical hero
of his conquest to the east all the way from greece. But felt rather wierd and being alienated i once ha some to accompany me but now to see other couples inside make me feel so bad so very uncomfortable in my heart, i just got to blame myself for losing all the opportunities that i once had but i got them slipped away right from my hands, what a big loser i am. To lose everything that i treasured so much. Erm well getting rather late now. Got to go bath and have a nice sleep. And embrace myself to a new new day.

Smiley Gd nite! Tml is book in day for me again.

Now listening to Zhang Dong Liang - Zhi Mo Bian Jie

throaty heat

yes another day gone. Had a jog and a short obstacale course all done under one morning. Its already another day, i would be booking in already tonight. Haha, so very hard to get by this days all the work in camp. When i reach camp tonite, i will be expecting a tougher week ahead of me, i could already feel so much things being put ahead of me and my squad mates, never felt so much pressure going back before. Felt abit of sore in my throat today, not sure why, well got to take more lozenges to try and soothen down my throat. I really hope i will not fall sick again, i hope my friend Steven can get by it as well cause he is now going through the same thing like me. I hope he is better now, everything is so sour, but i guess what comes now is actaully part of what god has installed for us. Never Speculated on why he did this maybe for a reason.

I work everyday in order sustain the essence that will keep me alife.
I sleep everynight to prepare me for the awakening of a new break of dawn.
I love to make my life feel more fulfilling.
I watch the sunset cause it lets me know that i have ended one splendid day.
I struggle to tell myself not to be the one in the end who will regret.
I motivate myself to press on in life to be more optimistic.

Everything we do has to have its own gains and also a reason of persistance to be there. Maybe i am wrong, but its how i feel. Maybe all is gone but always i feel that its something and a bless in disguise. Well all i wish for is a more pleasent week ahead of me. I feel slightly better, maybe i know what life probably means to me, or probably i am just concealing my feelings inside.

Well no more said for today, got to end this entry here now.
Astlavista. Hai got to sleep in the camp's bed again, so not comfy.

: )

Now listening to Babyface - Nobody knows its but me.

finally back once again

Well this is one those very busy week in camp. Learn first aid, at first i thought my instructor was a big bastard full of shit and a of course a big bragger, but knowing that on the next class he won't be with us anymore i should be happy, but i felt abit of sadness. And yesterday after 4 hours of intensive drill by our fitness instructor, i would dare say that my squad is getting together, that something nice to jot down here. Felt real lonely at times in camp, but with some great buddies in camp like Nic, BC, Jason Kwek and Jason Gay it brought laughter and company. If i can i would like to thank them. Well had the craziest combo of drill and physical traning, but i guess it was all worth it. If I could push my limits i would really want to do it, i really want to know how much and how far my body can push me. There is nothing that pulls me back before doing anything. Got a schedule for my course, will be going on a field camp at pulau ubin on my 22nd Birthday, what a joke. Ermm so much things to do, well at the least its keeping me busy and try not to think of other matters, but i just can't help it at times. Damn it really sucks. Looking forward to meeting up with my buddy Steven and Long time old friend Darren soong has been Donkey months since we haven seen each other. Hope nothing crops up, really wish to see em. Too many things in mind to think of head bursting, just feel so quiet in my room now probably i should throw my mattress out now and drop on it now and cover my pillow on my head. And throw everything behind me, for this one day seen too much read too much don't know what to say , don't even know how to express how i feel i am jus so lost.
Just for one night, i wish to be able to rest in comfort.
Time pass so fast, i have another 4 hrs before the birth of a brand new day, telling me to face it with more confidence and hopefully more happy, cos being able to live for yourself again is a bless and to treasure it is a bliss.

Yea gona get a ipod mini soon, i am going to get the green one. I am real excited bout it. Keke! I hope i can get it soon.

Gd nite!

Now listening to Nick Carter - Do I have to cry for you

another rainy day

Yuppers another rainy day, spent my whole saturday burn in the academy save guarding it. Damn eerie at night i would say, so chilling. Spend half of the day's duty at the rear gate of the police academy watching the horses galloping on the field and pickin my nose, the horses are all so beautiful really enjoyed looking at em they are so graceful when they are galloping, wish one day i would get a chance to ride on em. Well got home this morning at around 9.15, i actually went without sleep for 24hours. Till now i still find it so hard to believe that i actually lasted through the night without sleep, with all the patrols and everything. But well, i finally finish my weekend duty won't have it anymore. Haha won't want to complain, cause i was pretty fine with it. Well got my precious nap at home since i return this morning, and now got to prepare to go back again. Hahaha. Well really nothing much to blog about for today, jus all the plain boring shit like things that happen in camp. Guess won't want to write em out in details. : )

well now got to prepare all the stuff and iron the clothes for the week ahead, and darn didn even have time to buy my swimming goggles, and this week i think i am learning how to thread water. Hope i DON'T GET DROWN. haha

I feel had so much feeling for this song's lyrics, so well said of how i feel.
Do you ever feel like breaking down
do you ever feel out of place
like somehow you dun just dun belong
and no one understands you
do you lock yourself in the room
with the radio all turned up so loud
and no one hears you screaming
no you don't know what its like
with nothing feels alright
you dont know how its like
to be like me

to be hurt
to feel loved
to be left out in the dark
to be kicked when you are down
feel like you have been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down
and no ones there to save you
no you don't know what its like

welcome to my life

do you want to be somebody else
are you sick of feeling so left out
are you desperate to find something more before your life is over
are you stuck inside a world inside your head
are you sick of everyone aroud
with a big fake smile and stupid lies
no you don't know how its like
nothing feels alright
you don't know what its like to be like me

to be hurt
to feel loved
to be left out in the dark
to be kicked when you are down
feel like you have been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down
and no ones there to save you
no you don't know what its like

welcome to my life

no one will ever point you straight on the face
no one ever stab you in the back
you might think i am happy
but i am not gona be ok
everybody always get what you wanted
you never had to work but you are always there
you dont know what its like what its like

to be hurt to feel lovedto be left out in the dark to be kicked when you are down feel like you have been pushed around to be on the edge of breaking down and no ones there to save you no you don't know what its like
Now listening to Usher feat Alicia Keys-My Boo

woa i got back early!

Yes, i am back again. After one week in the academy, pretty relax week. Well had our first case study of law manual was pretty interesting, at the least it kept my eyes open through out the whole 3 hours lesson despite the morning heavy Physical Training Session. Hahaha. Well a lady by the name of Miss Winnie i think this thursday, she was asking if we would like to go for a tour at the home affair Head quarters, and she told us we could bring our loves ones along just for this time only. Cause usually that place is not open to the public, i am pretty much interested to go but knowing that most of my friends are brining their girlfriends along, i just felt a sudden lonliness and really felt so much to share it with someone........but well just got to give it a miss. tomorrow is guard duty at the police academy so very sian, so much wanted to go zouk tonite. Haha. Well hope i get a chance to put in another entry on sunday if i am not dead by then from the 24hour round house patrol. Its going to be a sleepless saturday night for me. Got to end this entry already. Having rather lots of mix feelings now. Maybe because of tomorrow's duty. Well feel rather lonely now. Gd nite.

Oh i couldn't get the pictures up on the blog site so i got it up an online web album. Hope you guys don't think i am a big farking poseur, i hope i am not cos i know don't look good at all. Keke.
the web album add: http://community.webshots.com/user/oakle102


Now listening Dashboard Confessional-Vindicated

Boring day

Well, Sunday again. Ermm the most boring day in the week, cos i am staying at home just anticipating to go back to camp. Won't be back on next saturday, due to guard duties in camp. I would very much want to come out but choice is not mine, since 12 sept i am officially own by the goverment for the next 2years. So its something I can't grumble alot or in fact i can't. So peeps who are now looking at my blog, you guys won't be able to see any entries next week. Erm uploaded some pics on friendster. Look rather posey, hope you peeps dun think i am a big poseur, and i know i don't really look good as a person or in pictures, don't puke. Do check em out. Haha i am not even sure if anyone is looking at all this entries. Hahaha. But well would end this entry quite soon, don't really have anything to say for today. Going to get tortured once again, maybe my morale wasnt as strong as the last time, i have nothing to motivate me anymore nor push me anymore.

Really had the feel for the lyrics of this song. Would really like to share em out with anyone who is reading the blog.

The cry of the city like a siren song
weiling over the rooftop the whole night long
saw shooting star like a diamond in the sky
must be someone soul passing by
this are the streets where we use to run with papa's friend
this are the days where you become what you become
this are the streets where the stories told the truth unfold
darkness settles in

shine your light down on me
lift me up so i can see
ermm shine your light
when your gone
give me the strength to carry on

dun want to be a hero
just an everyday man
try to do the job the very best i can
but now is like living off for old time
out on the rim
over the line
always attempting fate
like a game of chance
never want to stick around to the very last dance
sometimes it stumble and take a hard fall
lose hold your grip off the wall

shine your light down on me
lift me up so i can see
ermm shine your light
when your gone
give me the strength to carry on

i thought i saw you walking by the side of the road
then a child finding his way home
she is here but she not here
she is gone but not gone
just hope to know
if i get lost

Now listening to Mario Wayans - Let me love you

the promise post

Had the most wonderful evening, since many donkey months. Never felt so wonderful. Maybe its just me. Had a wonderful chinese cuisine tonite, with abalone, lobster and many wonderful cuisine. Went to play pool at ard 11 to around 12. Roam the streets and got some pics taken with my bros, before heading to cafe cartel at my old school (Nafa) till ard 2am. At cartel had egg sandwhich ice banana waffel and also blue coral haha sumptous rite? haha. Feeling rather tired now. Tried uploading it, but just feel so tired, taken my cough syrup and also flu pills, now i feel so broken down. Got to pat myself to bed. gd nite singapore. Hope i will feel better now.

Now listening to Robbie Robertson - Shine on me.

one of my favs days

woke up at 0830hrs, oh shuts am really into the Camps timing. Well couldnt get to sleep, with my flu and cough still bugging me. So I Went to see a doC at ard 9.15 with my mum, finishing my visit to the doC at ard 10.15. So after the seesion with the doC my mum and i decided to drop by causeway point, picked up some goodies that i was thinking of getting for the past few weeks( Not gona say what it is). Well, will be getting ready for my buddie's birthday party today at his club SRC. And if i know how i will post the pics of the party up here in this bloggy thingy. Will be back for the second part of today's journal.

Signing off for now.

Now listening to Robbie Robertson - Shine your light

a bookout day and my first post

Ermm, rather new to this blog thing. Well, just feel like having an online diary. To express and keep a record of what i am doing, due to the fact that i am sitting infront of the computer screen nowadays(but i am actually rather lazy to pick up my pen to write) : ) Well feeling rather tired, wish to start writing all my entries about my feelings and emotion and also my life in camp. Whether anyone reads it anot, it dosen't really matter. Well got to rest soon. Tiring day. And also still very sick, since last weekend. It sucks.

Currently listening to SIMPLE PLAN - Welcome to my life.