Well did some tee designs for my squad, well I am not sure if they are able to pass man. Because I really tried my best in making the designs look good. But whether in the end they will get chosen, I will just have to wait and see. Gona reformat my system real soon, because it’s like real slow man.
Well am still thinking of the vodka mango I had yesterday. Well chilled out at wine bar yesterday, was real cool, it’s hard to get a chance nowadays to sit down with my dudes to chat and have a glass of wine on our hands. I am still thinking of the ice wine, hope I can get a chance to try it.
Life. Life is so bitter; maybe I stir too much shit into my own drink that’s why I am tasting it so bitterly, its just like drinking a cup of fucked up. Well I really hope I will change all these and finally get into business, hopping to be able to see all my wishes and hopes granted. Though its gona be difficult and fate plays a big role in it, i too still got to work hard and achieve what i have said. I will endure and persevere. Just like what Idris always says: “one more one more, endure endure.”
I am still very happy and glad that she remembers my birthday, and that i got a greeting from her.
Really wishes to get a chance to see her again, but i know she might not want to see me. Even when i mean no harm or other reasons.
But i think i have to be contented that she remembers my birthday.
Very dumb right.
Would really like to thank Denka and ganwei for giving me that nike sling bag and shoe bag for my bday really like em.
Well I bought a packet of percy pig candies from raffles city's mark's and spencerlast weekend but was too sick to eat em last week, well this week i am feeling better i hope it taste just as good as it use to, i don't even know how this sweet tooth thingy got into me maybe its her . Gona bring it back to camp to eat. I really got to thank her for introducing me to those tasty candies.
Well going back to camp already. Hope everything turns out fine this week, no hidups.
Now listening to 5566 – Yin Wei Ai
Monday, January 31, 2005
Saturday, January 29, 2005
Lethargic life
Drinking and more drinking and eating. Well just reach home from eating out with my dudes steven, denka and ganwei. Went to Scotts food court had our dinner, and walk around Orchard, went in to Gucci and prada cause denka wants to get a card holder, and that fucker got himself a American Express Platinum card big fucker, but well as usual the sales peep in there were not attending to us. Haha maybe due to us dressing too sloppishly.
Well after a walk or so at paragon, Steven got a call from his girl. There was already some disagreement between the two, but it was at that time the word was finally said between the two of them, the BREAKUP word which I hate the most. I felt rather sad to hear that this is happening to my brother. But no matter what i will always stand by his side, as he was also the one who stood by my side to comfort me when i was down.
Sometimes love can be a one sided affair, which makes you look like an idiot in front of others when the other has already made a decision and decided to leave you for someone else or for to pursue for something. You might feel jealous or sad, but don’t show it out cause people would feel you are pathetic, and that really sucks. I hope Steven could still live better.
Well we went down to zouk’s wine bar and had a couple of cocktails before all of us separated from each other. Ermm most probably would be going up to Altivo again but with denka steven and ganwei most probably next weekend, for another drinking session.
Now listening to BABY – Ai Qing Bu Neng Zhuo Bi Jiao
Well after a walk or so at paragon, Steven got a call from his girl. There was already some disagreement between the two, but it was at that time the word was finally said between the two of them, the BREAKUP word which I hate the most. I felt rather sad to hear that this is happening to my brother. But no matter what i will always stand by his side, as he was also the one who stood by my side to comfort me when i was down.
Sometimes love can be a one sided affair, which makes you look like an idiot in front of others when the other has already made a decision and decided to leave you for someone else or for to pursue for something. You might feel jealous or sad, but don’t show it out cause people would feel you are pathetic, and that really sucks. I hope Steven could still live better.
Well we went down to zouk’s wine bar and had a couple of cocktails before all of us separated from each other. Ermm most probably would be going up to Altivo again but with denka steven and ganwei most probably next weekend, for another drinking session.
Now listening to BABY – Ai Qing Bu Neng Zhuo Bi Jiao
I am 22nd
What the fuck I am 22nd now. To be still here talking and writing means I am still alive. Well I should say this is the quietest birthday I have ever spend, alone reflecting on myself. But well would be going to ZOUK now, cause denka says he wants to sign me. How cool is that he got his zouk membership card already, gona meet up with Gavin and of cause how could i forget Denka. Wonderful man!
I am very happy today. And thank god for it. Thank You people for wishing me! I really appreciate them. I don’t know why, but when I saw the greeting you guys gave me I really felt happy. And I am very very happy that the person that would wish, really did wish me on this day. Though its nothing much but just a Happy Birthday, I would still treasure it. I have nothing more to ask for. And I am really and truthfully glad.
Got to rush to zouk now, fuck man I am sick still. Why am I sinning against myself. Hai, well I hope I can control myself from all that alchol. Keke.
I am 22nd ! arghhh I am older by a year.
Got some pics of me and bday cake my mum bought for me.
http://community.webshots.com/user/oakle102 its under the frontal folder
I am listening to Kimberley Locke - Without You (ft Clay Aiken)
I am very happy today. And thank god for it. Thank You people for wishing me! I really appreciate them. I don’t know why, but when I saw the greeting you guys gave me I really felt happy. And I am very very happy that the person that would wish, really did wish me on this day. Though its nothing much but just a Happy Birthday, I would still treasure it. I have nothing more to ask for. And I am really and truthfully glad.
Got to rush to zouk now, fuck man I am sick still. Why am I sinning against myself. Hai, well I hope I can control myself from all that alchol. Keke.
I am 22nd ! arghhh I am older by a year.
Got some pics of me and bday cake my mum bought for me.
http://community.webshots.com/user/oakle102 its under the frontal folder
I am listening to Kimberley Locke - Without You (ft Clay Aiken)
Thursday, January 27, 2005
Wondering why I am back
HOHOHO! Well I am also wondering why I am back it a Wednesday right. Well was sick on Sunday already and almost fainted at the parade square on Monday thanks to Idris who was standing behind me who supported me and help me to alert the FI for me to sit at a corner, but still I thought I could go on and finally yesterday I broke down, due to the hot weather and the intensive Extended Obstacle Course, and I had to finally surrender to the sickness and cough. I was like having 38.4 degree Celsius of temperature, feel so much like a weakling. Well at around 9.30pm went to Tan Tock Seng and got myself checked by the doctors, before going in to see the doctor I messaged her to ask her what time we could meet up on Saturday to pass her the book but she didn’t reply maybe she is busy, well going back to the Doctor. The Doctor was pretty precise in her checking, she checked my breathing for like a minute.
And she diagnosis me of having a wet lung which cause the light infection in my throat which I think is common, but I needed the medicine for my throat and slight fever cause it was really a hassle I really want to train with my buddies. In the end she gave me a 2 day MC and the medicine that I so badly needed. Well felt like a sick duck for two whole days, so weak even till now, I think I lost about a kg fuck.
Well had a good rest at home already, and tonight I will be going back to the academy. Everyone in camp now should be having fun now. Cause today is fun day. Well wish I could join em but I am just being dragged back by this sickness. IT SUCKS. Going to get my things backed again to go back to camp already. And thanks Jo for wishing me an early bday though I never expect you to be the first one, but thanks for it. I know you have been reading my blog. Thank you, I appreciate it.
Well time to go back now. Will be back on FRIDAY to put in another entry.
Now listening to The Calling – Wherever you will go
And she diagnosis me of having a wet lung which cause the light infection in my throat which I think is common, but I needed the medicine for my throat and slight fever cause it was really a hassle I really want to train with my buddies. In the end she gave me a 2 day MC and the medicine that I so badly needed. Well felt like a sick duck for two whole days, so weak even till now, I think I lost about a kg fuck.
Well had a good rest at home already, and tonight I will be going back to the academy. Everyone in camp now should be having fun now. Cause today is fun day. Well wish I could join em but I am just being dragged back by this sickness. IT SUCKS. Going to get my things backed again to go back to camp already. And thanks Jo for wishing me an early bday though I never expect you to be the first one, but thanks for it. I know you have been reading my blog. Thank you, I appreciate it.
Well time to go back now. Will be back on FRIDAY to put in another entry.
Now listening to The Calling – Wherever you will go
Sunday, January 23, 2005
sick sick sick
Well I feel so tired and restless today, I am not even sure if I caught a cold. Everything just feels so sick, I hope it will be better tomorrow. Well I will be going back to camp soon, just want to add and entry in, before another week starts for me. Well my birthday is this coming Friday, and I don’t think many of peeps will remember that its my birthday. And the one person that I wish to be celebrating with, will not be there for me. Maybe at this time I only wish that she would just remember that on that day is my birthday, I don’t need any gift or anyting just a simple wish from her will just make me feel well enough. I might not be able to see that coming. But oh well I will just dream on. Maybe what I am asking is way too much.
Well supposingly was suppose to meet up with Steven to basher, but I had something at home to attend to, so I didn’t meet him. Well still feel rather tired now, will keep this entry short again.
And got some pics up in my webshot page. The add is http://community.webshots.com/user/oakle102
Well if anyone is interested they could go view it, that’s it anyone is viewing the blog as well. Its drawing nearer to the end of course, tomorrow is my unarm tactics test and also my mock mcq law test, following it would be my Ippt (physical fitness test) wish me luck.
Cheers.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF, WHO IS TURNING 22. YEA!
Now listening to Adam Sandler – Grow old with you.
Well supposingly was suppose to meet up with Steven to basher, but I had something at home to attend to, so I didn’t meet him. Well still feel rather tired now, will keep this entry short again.
And got some pics up in my webshot page. The add is http://community.webshots.com/user/oakle102
Well if anyone is interested they could go view it, that’s it anyone is viewing the blog as well. Its drawing nearer to the end of course, tomorrow is my unarm tactics test and also my mock mcq law test, following it would be my Ippt (physical fitness test) wish me luck.
Cheers.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF, WHO IS TURNING 22. YEA!
Now listening to Adam Sandler – Grow old with you.
saturday like the dust of time being blown away
Darn Saturday is gone man, yet again. Well got the jeans that I wanted to buy.
Having to do the shopping all alone now is just not the same with no advice i am just buying things blindly and i am not enjoying it at all. Maybe I am not use to it, having to do things alone now. And denka had a tummy ache while we were walking, and i think he is in a real bad condition, yet he still drives me to city hall to take an mrt. When i was at city hall i bumped into my cousin Jeremy and his GF, guess what his GF spotted me first. Erm they were going down to somerset to have a meal, don’t know if its dinner or supper, wanted to join em but just didn't feel good so i went home.
Well not feeling very good now, and i just don’t have that feeling to write more, shall end here.
Now listening to Ekin Cheng - Gam_Sum_Tai_Doy_Lei
Having to do the shopping all alone now is just not the same with no advice i am just buying things blindly and i am not enjoying it at all. Maybe I am not use to it, having to do things alone now. And denka had a tummy ache while we were walking, and i think he is in a real bad condition, yet he still drives me to city hall to take an mrt. When i was at city hall i bumped into my cousin Jeremy and his GF, guess what his GF spotted me first. Erm they were going down to somerset to have a meal, don’t know if its dinner or supper, wanted to join em but just didn't feel good so i went home.
Well not feeling very good now, and i just don’t have that feeling to write more, shall end here.
Now listening to Ekin Cheng - Gam_Sum_Tai_Doy_Lei
Saturday, January 22, 2005
*fun*fun*day*
Well its now 4.42am. Man I just got home only. Hahaha. Hell it was a fun day I must say did almost everything in a day. Went out with Jason, Nic, BC and of cause how could I forget mr Steven Lim. Went to orchard and had a shopping trip with them, wanted to get a FCUK jeans but hell the queue at the changing room was like crazy lots of peepz, so in the end went over to topshop to look at some clothes, got myself a green color basic tee with nic and it was like buy 2 the second piece for 20% off so a good deal. After that we drove down to Queensway where I met junyang, I got that strong feeling that I was going to see him, and it really happen. I don’t know if its my intuition too zhun or is it just coincidence that I bump into him. Well back to where I stop, Jason got two pairs of shoes as he had wanted. And Jason he got his ascis trainers it was at a cool deal.
After that had dinner with them at a nearby hawker center, man that hawker center was awesome they had really tasty food, I had carrot cake, Nic had char kway teow together with Steven, and Jason had bah kut Teh. As usual BC was the man yet again, he had a plate of $3 char kway teow and also a pot of claypot noodles, man is he a good eater or what. Hahaha, wanted to drop by ikea for the hotdogs but well too lazy to walk over. And in the end we ended up in nic’s car yet again. And this time we setted off for Mount Faber(Altivo), it was really an opener for me. When i reach Altivo and got down to our seats and drinks, i finally realise that the view there was fantastic man, no wonder people are so attracted to that place, I don’t know maybe I am just being too mountain tortoise for saying this, but it was really a nice place to chill out with your girlfriends and friends for a drink or too which me and buddies did, and we spend about 70 bucks there and got the couch seats, it was awesome though we spend most of our time at the normal tables. And we spend the whole night talking crap and snapping pics of ourselves. We tried to be vain but well our faces are infested with lotsa of pimples damn fuck man. Overall it was an experince and i know it won't be the last time that I will be going to that place.
Well we chilled out till around 1.30am and we left for pool junction at IOI building opposite parklane, hell it’s a fun place man, the place was super awesome. The ambience the music it was all so cool, well had a few games with Nic and Jason, well they were really great contenders man, just have to give it up to them. Well I guess at around 3am we left for home. Well now I am here talking so much crap I got to go to bed now, I guess the rest of them are already on their beds already. Hahaha.
Hey Jason sorryman wasn’t of any help while you were buying your clothes. And Nic thanks for the lift home. You guys were the greatest man. And not to forget Steven who gave me some words of advice me, that made easen me up abit, and feel less tight inside me. Thanks Guys. It was really hell of a fun day.
Now listening to Ou De Yang – Yi Ren Yi Ban
After that had dinner with them at a nearby hawker center, man that hawker center was awesome they had really tasty food, I had carrot cake, Nic had char kway teow together with Steven, and Jason had bah kut Teh. As usual BC was the man yet again, he had a plate of $3 char kway teow and also a pot of claypot noodles, man is he a good eater or what. Hahaha, wanted to drop by ikea for the hotdogs but well too lazy to walk over. And in the end we ended up in nic’s car yet again. And this time we setted off for Mount Faber(Altivo), it was really an opener for me. When i reach Altivo and got down to our seats and drinks, i finally realise that the view there was fantastic man, no wonder people are so attracted to that place, I don’t know maybe I am just being too mountain tortoise for saying this, but it was really a nice place to chill out with your girlfriends and friends for a drink or too which me and buddies did, and we spend about 70 bucks there and got the couch seats, it was awesome though we spend most of our time at the normal tables. And we spend the whole night talking crap and snapping pics of ourselves. We tried to be vain but well our faces are infested with lotsa of pimples damn fuck man. Overall it was an experince and i know it won't be the last time that I will be going to that place.
Well we chilled out till around 1.30am and we left for pool junction at IOI building opposite parklane, hell it’s a fun place man, the place was super awesome. The ambience the music it was all so cool, well had a few games with Nic and Jason, well they were really great contenders man, just have to give it up to them. Well I guess at around 3am we left for home. Well now I am here talking so much crap I got to go to bed now, I guess the rest of them are already on their beds already. Hahaha.
Hey Jason sorryman wasn’t of any help while you were buying your clothes. And Nic thanks for the lift home. You guys were the greatest man. And not to forget Steven who gave me some words of advice me, that made easen me up abit, and feel less tight inside me. Thanks Guys. It was really hell of a fun day.
Now listening to Ou De Yang – Yi Ren Yi Ban
Friday, January 21, 2005
Sick sick week!
Well another week has pass me by again. Very Shitty week I would say, and I mean very very shitty. First it was my unarm tactics that screw up big time, fuck it. I was doing my theory test, and I don’t even believe it myself I actually mistaken the abdomen for the stomach, really very shitty. It was so embarrassing, really damn pai sei infront of all my squad mates. Well I really don’t wish to be so troubled man, going to the verge of breaking down soon. Sian.
Above all this we were almost confine for the weekend due to some dumb things that happen in the barrack, all of our morale in the barrack were really down, everyone were like angry with each other, but airs were cleared when the day of walkout came. Thank God. And now I have only the next day to look forward too.
Oh steven just called to ask me down to zouk, I wish I had the energy to go, and I really wish to go, but I just had to reject him cause I am having a little sore throat still and I’ve got a short test on my law manual this coming new week, I am sure when I got the time the next weekend I will go clubbing, haven been there for about a month or so. Denka I think he is getting his zouk member card soon, that fucker now a frequent customer of zouk.
Fell sick on Tuesday, I think I caught a cold. I hate to get sick, I don’t understand why. Why must I get sick, it just reminds me so much I had gone through during my first few months in TRACOM. All the memories flash in my head, I don’t know why she was the person that I was thinking all the while when I was sick. Even when I am asleep, I dreamt of her, I don’t want to talk in so details about what my dreams was all about. But it was sweet for me, and I wish to keep it that way.
Oh well, got to go bed feeling abit worn out. Tomolo going to altivo to booze, with my camp bros yea and take some pics together man. Yea
Now listening to Britney Spears - Everytime
Above all this we were almost confine for the weekend due to some dumb things that happen in the barrack, all of our morale in the barrack were really down, everyone were like angry with each other, but airs were cleared when the day of walkout came. Thank God. And now I have only the next day to look forward too.
Oh steven just called to ask me down to zouk, I wish I had the energy to go, and I really wish to go, but I just had to reject him cause I am having a little sore throat still and I’ve got a short test on my law manual this coming new week, I am sure when I got the time the next weekend I will go clubbing, haven been there for about a month or so. Denka I think he is getting his zouk member card soon, that fucker now a frequent customer of zouk.
Fell sick on Tuesday, I think I caught a cold. I hate to get sick, I don’t understand why. Why must I get sick, it just reminds me so much I had gone through during my first few months in TRACOM. All the memories flash in my head, I don’t know why she was the person that I was thinking all the while when I was sick. Even when I am asleep, I dreamt of her, I don’t want to talk in so details about what my dreams was all about. But it was sweet for me, and I wish to keep it that way.
Oh well, got to go bed feeling abit worn out. Tomolo going to altivo to booze, with my camp bros yea and take some pics together man. Yea
Now listening to Britney Spears - Everytime
Monday, January 17, 2005
*aPpleZz 4rE SwEeTzZZz, +Aste it*
Well I thought I didn’t have the time to write in another entry, well another chapter to be added into my life chronicle. Feel so lazy today, did abit of workout today. Well feel like going out today but don't really know where to go, but really felt like eating the ang mo kio hokkien mee but i don't know who could accompany me. Played abit of xbox in the end, ermm thinking of refurnishing my room. And I think its gona happen soon, cause my mum and dad bought paints, oh ya Jason Kwek the lucky guy won 20 bucks, thanks to me for giving him the confidence( haha ), well next friday Altivo.
Didn’t even read my notes haha, just felt like lazing around at home. Though on hand I got things to do. Got to do some draft out of my room soon, I think I am going to change my bed, its just way too small and I am already quite sick of sleeping on the floor. Just got so many things I would want to change. (Hell the sisha is still lingering in my throat) pui.
Well would be another week in the academy, and thinking of it I've got another 6 more walkouts from now till I pass out. Its so fast, its almost half a year gone already. Had many wonderful memories in 2004 but also the year that I first experience the darkest moment in my life, carrying a regret with me for so long. Well got to live life as it is, cause life is full of its ups and downs. Hard to predict what would happen next, but I will try to savour every moment of my life and treat it as an experience, and I will leave everything to fate.
I think I have been writing the same thing in almost all of my entry. I hope in the days to come this will slowly fade off. Cause dwelling in the past is so so so painful. Just have to put my fingers on my lips and stop making those comments and keep my mouth shut, being too much of a male chauvinist(what a fucked up attitude I have).
Maybe I am an idiot who don’t understand the harsh reality, and refuses to accept the cold truth. I am just so sucky.
Erm I think, when I all of the entries cease to talk about it, it would most probably be that I have finally gotten over it. But I know I will never forget that person who showered me with care as well as love before, the smile and laughter that has always melted my heart. And the big watery eyes that sparkles to keep me going on when I used to be so lost in the dark. Well I hope she is happy now with the person she is with now, it’s the most comforting thing for me. (People might think its funny, just go ahead and laugh at me). Cause i fianlly come to realise that in trully loving a person is to hope she is happy always no matter is she with you or she is not.
Well got to embrace a new week already. Smiles, got another rugby session this week I think. Got a cut on my left thumb and also I think I slightly sprain my shoulder cause it feels abit uneasy, but well still got to try playing it, it really allows me to vent out my anger my worries and stress,when i am being tackled or tackling someone, with the pain I feel much more at ease cause for the moment time seems to finally freeze for me, with no one for worries.
Well take care all my friends. I will pray for all you guys and good luck to all.
Now listening to Justin Timberlake – Leaving on a Jet Plane
Didn’t even read my notes haha, just felt like lazing around at home. Though on hand I got things to do. Got to do some draft out of my room soon, I think I am going to change my bed, its just way too small and I am already quite sick of sleeping on the floor. Just got so many things I would want to change. (Hell the sisha is still lingering in my throat) pui.
Well would be another week in the academy, and thinking of it I've got another 6 more walkouts from now till I pass out. Its so fast, its almost half a year gone already. Had many wonderful memories in 2004 but also the year that I first experience the darkest moment in my life, carrying a regret with me for so long. Well got to live life as it is, cause life is full of its ups and downs. Hard to predict what would happen next, but I will try to savour every moment of my life and treat it as an experience, and I will leave everything to fate.
I think I have been writing the same thing in almost all of my entry. I hope in the days to come this will slowly fade off. Cause dwelling in the past is so so so painful. Just have to put my fingers on my lips and stop making those comments and keep my mouth shut, being too much of a male chauvinist(what a fucked up attitude I have).
Maybe I am an idiot who don’t understand the harsh reality, and refuses to accept the cold truth. I am just so sucky.
Erm I think, when I all of the entries cease to talk about it, it would most probably be that I have finally gotten over it. But I know I will never forget that person who showered me with care as well as love before, the smile and laughter that has always melted my heart. And the big watery eyes that sparkles to keep me going on when I used to be so lost in the dark. Well I hope she is happy now with the person she is with now, it’s the most comforting thing for me. (People might think its funny, just go ahead and laugh at me). Cause i fianlly come to realise that in trully loving a person is to hope she is happy always no matter is she with you or she is not.
Well got to embrace a new week already. Smiles, got another rugby session this week I think. Got a cut on my left thumb and also I think I slightly sprain my shoulder cause it feels abit uneasy, but well still got to try playing it, it really allows me to vent out my anger my worries and stress,when i am being tackled or tackling someone, with the pain I feel much more at ease cause for the moment time seems to finally freeze for me, with no one for worries.
Well take care all my friends. I will pray for all you guys and good luck to all.
Now listening to Justin Timberlake – Leaving on a Jet Plane
Sunday, January 16, 2005
Hot weather
Take 5^, well ended another session and a day. Well was too tired last night and I didn’t have a chance to actually jot down anything. Well got to just write it all down now. Well was just another week, with all the physical training and all. Well I was the IC on Wednesday, well it was rather a first time job for me, cos the last time, I didn’t really took on the real job on that day. And I was like fuck big time by the squad as well as my Fitness instructor, well I will give it another try. But the best thing was that I actually learn to recite the police pledge already. Hooray!(so dumb right) Well walked out without sweating again that’s also something to cheer about this week keke. Had a career talk, which was about which vocation we could choose after we pass out from tracom, there was one that really caught my eyes on which was the SOC K9 unit( dog unit), cause i really love dogs but i don't have the time to take care of em. Erm i would consider it.
Well its all about today, chill out at arab street today, together with nic shafiq Jason lionel and lionel’s girlfriend and his friend. Had seesha and later off to the bbq party at lionel’s place, at around 7pm all the guys were bombing the place, but before I talk about the party, hell I got to comment on lionel’s driving, man he is sure a fast and furious driver. I have never seen such a furious driver like lionel, he drives like hes racing but well it was an experience to be sitting on his car. Keke. Ok the bbq was rather cool, almost everyone were with their girlfriends but it just made me feel uneasy and also wired, just felt like crying but just have to conceal it. I don’t know why, its just how I felt. It wasn’t that good. Was on the train, riding back home alone. For the first time i feel so lonely.
Just read a reply from Alvin, well thanks for the encouragement. And all the best to you alright for his solo album.
Well I hope I can recover from the trauma. Cause every night I am still having the same flash back in my mind over and over again, thinking of it just makes me feel so sick. I wish this never happen to me, cause it was never good.
Well enough of talk, I would most probably not write in another entry for tomorrow. Good day.
Would be having yet another test again, and its on the law manual, i hope peepz would pray for me.
Hai, back to another round of studies after play. Hahaha.
Well its all about today, chill out at arab street today, together with nic shafiq Jason lionel and lionel’s girlfriend and his friend. Had seesha and later off to the bbq party at lionel’s place, at around 7pm all the guys were bombing the place, but before I talk about the party, hell I got to comment on lionel’s driving, man he is sure a fast and furious driver. I have never seen such a furious driver like lionel, he drives like hes racing but well it was an experience to be sitting on his car. Keke. Ok the bbq was rather cool, almost everyone were with their girlfriends but it just made me feel uneasy and also wired, just felt like crying but just have to conceal it. I don’t know why, its just how I felt. It wasn’t that good. Was on the train, riding back home alone. For the first time i feel so lonely.
Just read a reply from Alvin, well thanks for the encouragement. And all the best to you alright for his solo album.
Well I hope I can recover from the trauma. Cause every night I am still having the same flash back in my mind over and over again, thinking of it just makes me feel so sick. I wish this never happen to me, cause it was never good.
Well enough of talk, I would most probably not write in another entry for tomorrow. Good day.
Would be having yet another test again, and its on the law manual, i hope peepz would pray for me.
Hai, back to another round of studies after play. Hahaha.
Monday, January 10, 2005
fast so fast
yips it has come to yet another end of a week, and its also when i write in my last entry for this week. Come to think of it I have been writing my blogs constanly on my bookout weekends, it never occur to me that i would actually keep a record of my weekly occurence. Maybe its because I am just feeling lonely.
Woa looking at how fast the time passes me by just scares me so much, I would really wish that time might just stop at the moment which I treasure the most and never leave me and able to relieve it one more time and to learn and appreciate what I have. But I just have to accept the fate that time is really catching up my heels, and its already january now. I am turning 22 soon, haha everything seems so fast. I have another 1 and a half more months to go in the academy. Everything just pass so fast, its just so hard to explain.
I wish she would wish me a happy birthday at the least. But i know i would be disappointed, but just a simple wish. Whether God would grant me or she would grant it to me, I would just be happy. I don't ask for anything, just to hope that by her wishing me a happy birthday and nothing more would be well enough and i would be very very happy. I have never felt so compleasent so easily before, but i guess maybe thats when you grow older you trully appreciaite and understand things in a more mature way.
Well a hard week is awaiting for me this coming week.
Everyone do feel happy at all times.
Cause this was what i was told.
If you think you are bad
Think of an egg.
And you will know how much it has gone through
Don't give up.
Now listening to Jay Zhuo Jie Lun - Ni Bi Cong Qian Kuai Le
Woa looking at how fast the time passes me by just scares me so much, I would really wish that time might just stop at the moment which I treasure the most and never leave me and able to relieve it one more time and to learn and appreciate what I have. But I just have to accept the fate that time is really catching up my heels, and its already january now. I am turning 22 soon, haha everything seems so fast. I have another 1 and a half more months to go in the academy. Everything just pass so fast, its just so hard to explain.
I wish she would wish me a happy birthday at the least. But i know i would be disappointed, but just a simple wish. Whether God would grant me or she would grant it to me, I would just be happy. I don't ask for anything, just to hope that by her wishing me a happy birthday and nothing more would be well enough and i would be very very happy. I have never felt so compleasent so easily before, but i guess maybe thats when you grow older you trully appreciaite and understand things in a more mature way.
Well a hard week is awaiting for me this coming week.
Everyone do feel happy at all times.
Cause this was what i was told.
If you think you are bad
Think of an egg.
And you will know how much it has gone through
Don't give up.
Now listening to Jay Zhuo Jie Lun - Ni Bi Cong Qian Kuai Le
Saturday, January 08, 2005
sing sing sing
Erm just another day gone again. Hmmm, what could I say “woa wee it was fast” feeling the toil again. Erm as usual went out again, I can’t stand not going out on weekends now. Maybe its because most of the time I am stuck in the academy. But today was rather fun went out with my camp friends for a KTV session at Party world(cuppage center) well was rather fun, haven really sang. I know my voice suck and I know the guy endured, that’s also part of the reason why I seldom go for a KTV session, its not because I don’t like to go, its because I am just afraid people might get annoyed with my voice, I always enjoyed singing just that I don’t want people to think that I am a person who is not aware of his own limits. But today was rather fun, I sang a couple of songs like my all time favourite LOVE by Beyond and Jie Qing Ren by Ronald and a few others but funny thing no Jay’s song.
After the Ktv Session it was another meeting with my dudes ganwei and denka, while I was waiting for ganwei to pick me up in his new Toyota, I saw Shereen haha, been a long time since I have seen her, she sure have grown prettier. Ran in the rain out to look for Ganwei’s car due to the rain there was a jam, and thus causing me to get drench by the rain. Went down to lido to look for Denka, well he was late. So ganwei accompanied me to get myself some new underwear and also a new singlet. While we were walking, we passed by Mango it just reminded me of how often I use to go in with her, I really missed it, but I know I am not going to get a chance to accompany her to get anything, and I think they are having a sale or something at Mango, I hope she knows about it cause I know she loves their clothes, hope she was there. I really hope she knows about it.
Well its another IPPT week for me, gonna train up, its always all this test that really stress me up, wanted to get a book or a magazine to read when I was at Borders just now, but there wasn’t anything that really caught my attention. But the gossip magazines were rather entertaining but I didn’t get em keke, cause I was the only guy there haha.
Ermm my B’day is coming, well gona be celebrate this day once again by myself, I really enjoyed the company I had that day last year with her.
But this year will be so so very different.
But I have a birthday wish, though I know its abit early to say it but still…..
I HOPE THAT SHE ISN’T ANNOYED WITH ME, AND THAT SHE STILL REMEMBERS ME AND AT THE VERY LEAST STILL TREATS ME AS A FRIEND. CAUSE I HAVE NEVER FORGOTTEN ABOUT HER, I JUST WANT HER TO BE HAPPY.
If she is reading my blog, if I did in anyway cause any misunderstanding with your boyfriend I am sorry. I hope she is reading it. HOPE YOU KNOW THAT MANGO IS HAVING SALE kk, if you are reading the blog.
Good night feeling so tired already, got another 1 and a half month more at the academy, I got to remind myself to ENDURE ENDURE.
Feel like closing my eyes and just never get up.
Now listening to Liang Jing Ru – bu xiang shui
After the Ktv Session it was another meeting with my dudes ganwei and denka, while I was waiting for ganwei to pick me up in his new Toyota, I saw Shereen haha, been a long time since I have seen her, she sure have grown prettier. Ran in the rain out to look for Ganwei’s car due to the rain there was a jam, and thus causing me to get drench by the rain. Went down to lido to look for Denka, well he was late. So ganwei accompanied me to get myself some new underwear and also a new singlet. While we were walking, we passed by Mango it just reminded me of how often I use to go in with her, I really missed it, but I know I am not going to get a chance to accompany her to get anything, and I think they are having a sale or something at Mango, I hope she knows about it cause I know she loves their clothes, hope she was there. I really hope she knows about it.
Well its another IPPT week for me, gonna train up, its always all this test that really stress me up, wanted to get a book or a magazine to read when I was at Borders just now, but there wasn’t anything that really caught my attention. But the gossip magazines were rather entertaining but I didn’t get em keke, cause I was the only guy there haha.
Ermm my B’day is coming, well gona be celebrate this day once again by myself, I really enjoyed the company I had that day last year with her.
But this year will be so so very different.
But I have a birthday wish, though I know its abit early to say it but still…..
I HOPE THAT SHE ISN’T ANNOYED WITH ME, AND THAT SHE STILL REMEMBERS ME AND AT THE VERY LEAST STILL TREATS ME AS A FRIEND. CAUSE I HAVE NEVER FORGOTTEN ABOUT HER, I JUST WANT HER TO BE HAPPY.
If she is reading my blog, if I did in anyway cause any misunderstanding with your boyfriend I am sorry. I hope she is reading it. HOPE YOU KNOW THAT MANGO IS HAVING SALE kk, if you are reading the blog.
Good night feeling so tired already, got another 1 and a half month more at the academy, I got to remind myself to ENDURE ENDURE.
Feel like closing my eyes and just never get up.
Now listening to Liang Jing Ru – bu xiang shui
SPIT SPIT
Woa, this is my first weekend of 2005. Hell of a week I have been through man, so much things I would want to share everything with her to tell her how much I have gone through this week in camp, I just want to share with someone. Yesterday was a very shitty day for me, had my drill test. It was the most embrassing moment in my life. I don’t know how to express it, but it was really very embrassing, I don’t even know how to relate the thing, felt very depress and as well as worried, so much so wanted to be by her side. But I just have to realize the fact that she is with someone else already, and I got to face the reality all by myself. I told myself to be strong, and I am trying real hard, sometimes I feel so down, I wish I could end everything right at the instance, too much things to think of. Or maybe I am having too much worries that I myself can’t even comprehend. Got to live with this chronic.
Having to know that next week my squad and I will once again have to perform for the Fit squad intakes parents again, just makes things more stress cause I am made the right marker of the squad, so its all up to me to make the whole squad in the correct dressing. I really hope I will be able to perform well that day, maybe life is just like this. Having to shoulder all this is so diffcult for me and its really very stressful for me.
Oh this coming week, there will be doing a selection on the rugby games in the academy, I really would like to try, anyway I have no worries now even if I broke a bone the person who I care for won’t even be bothered.
I really hope I didn’t irritate her, and I hope that she would still keep in contact with me.
I would really like to thank god for protecting me.
Now listening to R.Kelly ft. Cassidy - Hotel.mp3
Having to know that next week my squad and I will once again have to perform for the Fit squad intakes parents again, just makes things more stress cause I am made the right marker of the squad, so its all up to me to make the whole squad in the correct dressing. I really hope I will be able to perform well that day, maybe life is just like this. Having to shoulder all this is so diffcult for me and its really very stressful for me.
Oh this coming week, there will be doing a selection on the rugby games in the academy, I really would like to try, anyway I have no worries now even if I broke a bone the person who I care for won’t even be bothered.
I really hope I didn’t irritate her, and I hope that she would still keep in contact with me.
I would really like to thank god for protecting me.
Now listening to R.Kelly ft. Cassidy - Hotel.mp3
Sunday, January 02, 2005
*emotions*
*YaWnZ* yippy got up already, yesterday night too tired to write an entry. In then end went to bed at around 2am. Went to watch MEET THE FOCKERS yesterday with steven and the buds, woa it was really a nice show, the baby in show was super cute. But the show was really worth it all man, I really laugh my tummys inside out, though it may be abit exaggerating but it was really a nice movie two thumbs up for it. It made me forget about some things just for that one moment of time. Really one of the best movie to start of my year in 2005. Thanks to Bochun my campmate for the recommendation, I really wiosh so much that I would have watch that movie with the person I love together but…
And today got up and watched the vcd LOVE ACTUALLY which my buddy Nic lend me, that’s also another nice show. Everyone found their love on Christmas with cast like Kevin Costner and Hugh Grant, and spend it with em on that day. Maybe the show wasn’t really meant for me to watch but it was really nice to see how people could found their true love and friendship on that day, I really love that show so very nice it made me smile just for that little while, too much for me to talk about this show just got to say its good, and would like to recommend to all my friends.
Well time is almost up for me, gona get and prepare myself to go back to camp and play abot of games on my XBOX (project gotham racing), just gona relax and chill out. And I really pray for all the families that felt the impact of the tsunami that hit our region heart. Please take care. It’s the saddest thing that happen before a new year, I just hope everyone would just pick themselves up again. Please god.
Well this week would be so packed with test and test, hope you guys when u see this entry do pray for me kk. Please I really need all of your support, I find it so hard to do all this all by myself. Thanks.
Just felt so much:
WITH ANY LUCK THIS COMING YEAR
BUT FOR NOW LET ME SAY
WITHOUT HOPE OR AGENDA
JUST BECAUSE IT’S A NEW YEAR
TO ME NO MATTER WHAT YOU ARE PERFECT
AND MY WASTED HEART WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU.
Now listening Elva Xiao Ya Xuan feat Anson – Jin Xing Shi
And today got up and watched the vcd LOVE ACTUALLY which my buddy Nic lend me, that’s also another nice show. Everyone found their love on Christmas with cast like Kevin Costner and Hugh Grant, and spend it with em on that day. Maybe the show wasn’t really meant for me to watch but it was really nice to see how people could found their true love and friendship on that day, I really love that show so very nice it made me smile just for that little while, too much for me to talk about this show just got to say its good, and would like to recommend to all my friends.
Well time is almost up for me, gona get and prepare myself to go back to camp and play abot of games on my XBOX (project gotham racing), just gona relax and chill out. And I really pray for all the families that felt the impact of the tsunami that hit our region heart. Please take care. It’s the saddest thing that happen before a new year, I just hope everyone would just pick themselves up again. Please god.
Well this week would be so packed with test and test, hope you guys when u see this entry do pray for me kk. Please I really need all of your support, I find it so hard to do all this all by myself. Thanks.
Just felt so much:
WITH ANY LUCK THIS COMING YEAR
BUT FOR NOW LET ME SAY
WITHOUT HOPE OR AGENDA
JUST BECAUSE IT’S A NEW YEAR
TO ME NO MATTER WHAT YOU ARE PERFECT
AND MY WASTED HEART WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU.
Now listening Elva Xiao Ya Xuan feat Anson – Jin Xing Shi
i wish i could
Well well, it’s the second day of a brand new year. Really got lots of new year previews for myself as well as some achivments I hope to achieve. I don’t know if I am able to fulfill them, but I know I am going to try and do it. Well 2004 was a year that is so very depressing for me, there is so much things that I thought I could be able to handle, but I was totally wrong. Living to regret is the worst thing is the worst, and I didn’t appreciate the things that I have, and it prove to me that it was the greatest mistake I have ever done.
Yup back to talking about my resolution of 2005, I really want to kick some of my bad habits away, I really do. It’s a long list of things that I hope that I can really just kick and throw em away, if I am able to do it I would really be very happy. People might not think that its anything great, but to me its something that I want to set out to accomplish. Its not because of something that woke up my senses and that someone who made me woke up. And I told myself to wake up despite whether the same person is with me or if she is not.
I really want to stop using vulgarities that often, cause it just suck big time making a fool of myself using it.
THINGS I HOPE TO QUIT or STOP.
1. Quit using vulgarities
2. Quit puffing
3. Stop being a grumpy bastard
4. Stop being that arrogant idiot
5. Stop being the Gan Cheong person
6. Quit and stop all of the above(hehe)
Well among so much I have listed, I think the few that I have quit that puffing thingy and it rather hard to believe it, am really getting there, and that gan cheong and grumpiness of mine that made me lose her. Though at times I find it so hard to just change, but I just got to strive on. As I have made a promise to change for the better, I will no matter what do it, whether she will be back or not.
Things on the list that I hope to really abolish it would be using of vulgarities, it just degrades me as a person, it just sucks. I hope you guys will pray for me that I can change it. Kekeke.
THINGS I HOPE TO SEE COMING MY WAY.
1. A better world
2. That special someone that I am waiting whether its coming or not
3. To fall and never get up
4. Treasure whatever I have
5. To love and cherish the people that I loved
6. To be able to stand up again
7. To forget whatever has happen
8. To forgive everything
9. To get a driving license
10.To be stronger
11. I hope shon't disregard me as a friend
I hope people don’t think I am a crazy guy that’s all. Haha, I wrote this blog is just to have a record of whatever happen to me. Though I know my English structuring is sucky, I apologise, I just wanna share with some of my buddies.
Well going to pass out from Training command 2 months from now. And this coming week I am going to do my selection of vocations. I have this intention to join the K-9 unit, it’s the only chance I have to get to train with dogs, I really love em, ever since the day we separated I haven got a chance to see her dogs. Well I guess she was again the one that made me adore this lovable creatures, if I am not getting into K-9 I would most probably either get an admin job at cantonment complex headquarters or get into the special operation command team. Well I hope I get into one of this. Just installed service pack 2 got to restart the comp now.
Now listening to Anson Hu - Jie Kou
Yup back to talking about my resolution of 2005, I really want to kick some of my bad habits away, I really do. It’s a long list of things that I hope that I can really just kick and throw em away, if I am able to do it I would really be very happy. People might not think that its anything great, but to me its something that I want to set out to accomplish. Its not because of something that woke up my senses and that someone who made me woke up. And I told myself to wake up despite whether the same person is with me or if she is not.
I really want to stop using vulgarities that often, cause it just suck big time making a fool of myself using it.
THINGS I HOPE TO QUIT or STOP.
1. Quit using vulgarities
2. Quit puffing
3. Stop being a grumpy bastard
4. Stop being that arrogant idiot
5. Stop being the Gan Cheong person
6. Quit and stop all of the above(hehe)
Well among so much I have listed, I think the few that I have quit that puffing thingy and it rather hard to believe it, am really getting there, and that gan cheong and grumpiness of mine that made me lose her. Though at times I find it so hard to just change, but I just got to strive on. As I have made a promise to change for the better, I will no matter what do it, whether she will be back or not.
Things on the list that I hope to really abolish it would be using of vulgarities, it just degrades me as a person, it just sucks. I hope you guys will pray for me that I can change it. Kekeke.
THINGS I HOPE TO SEE COMING MY WAY.
1. A better world
2. That special someone that I am waiting whether its coming or not
3. To fall and never get up
4. Treasure whatever I have
5. To love and cherish the people that I loved
6. To be able to stand up again
7. To forget whatever has happen
8. To forgive everything
9. To get a driving license
10.To be stronger
11. I hope shon't disregard me as a friend
I hope people don’t think I am a crazy guy that’s all. Haha, I wrote this blog is just to have a record of whatever happen to me. Though I know my English structuring is sucky, I apologise, I just wanna share with some of my buddies.
Well going to pass out from Training command 2 months from now. And this coming week I am going to do my selection of vocations. I have this intention to join the K-9 unit, it’s the only chance I have to get to train with dogs, I really love em, ever since the day we separated I haven got a chance to see her dogs. Well I guess she was again the one that made me adore this lovable creatures, if I am not getting into K-9 I would most probably either get an admin job at cantonment complex headquarters or get into the special operation command team. Well I hope I get into one of this. Just installed service pack 2 got to restart the comp now.
Now listening to Anson Hu - Jie Kou
Saturday, January 01, 2005
2005 to be a better year
yippy a new year has arrived. Well it is a very fun day, had everything thats associated to do with fun inside, book out from camp at around 1pm, got home at around 2.30pm. Took a short nap, ermm i won't even call that a nap due to the overwhelming calls by the dudes, at around 5.20pm i got myself changed got my stuff pack into the bag and off i went to meet up with my bros in town. I met up with Ian and then later followed by Denka at Ngee Ann city, walked around as usual and Ian was carrying the Playstation 2 which he was suppose to pass to Ganwei today, but he didnt want to come out today. So we brought the PS2 back to Denka's car at Wisma Atria, and to my surprise denka bought me and Ian each a gift, so very nice of him.
After putting the things into the car we went to topshop, when me and Ian were like "F**k" tees, we just had to grab em. And we each in the end got a tee, cool. Well after the shopping, we were suppose to wait for Gavin and his girlfriend. But well i think they were quarreling and in the end we had to go eat first without em. We were like walking around the mall, not knowing where we could actually eat. Then the Coca steamboat thingy stung Denka's mind, we went in not knowing the price, but anyway its a NEW YEAR'S eve we just couldn't care less about the price, had a wonderful meal, nice recommendation by Denka. Had prawns, beef balls, wanton, crab, oyster and many more. After the wonderful meal, we met up with Gavin and his girlfriend, went to INDOCHINE at Wisma Atria but it was like full house and the queue was like forever, so we decided to dropped the idea and parted with them, went over to pick our dude Steven up at his place. Man after that we were cracking our brains cause we only got 2 hours before the clock stroke 12 for a brand new year,we got so many places in mind to go we actually thought of going to Altivo at mount faber but we were like quite lost on the roads, then we drove down to zouk wanting to chill out at the wine bar as usual, which we always do. But the crowd was just as crazy, and Denka in the end suggested the craziest thingy and that was to do the countdown on his car cruising down orchard, when we reached there it was in a mayhem, cannisters of soaps were sprayed across each other's faces what a crazy sight, and guess what we forgot to close our sun roof and we were hit badly as we went down the road, we got ourself so drenched in soapy foam, but it was fun, me, ian, denka and steven were like enjoying the whole thingy but as well unhappy that we didnt get a chance to spray em back, so we parked our car and went to buy the ammunitions keke, got em and we made a U turn and went back to get our revenge, but yet again we were drenched but it was damn fun, i think we all really enjoyed ourself very much. Never been so crazy since secondary school, after that we had spin around and at around 2am we went over to Holland village for a cup of coffee, I think we had drinks at the TCC there. And at around 3 am Denka drove me home together with Steven and Ian, we passed by Lornie road had many memories but hard to comprehend, and finally ended my day by writing this entry.
Happy New Year, 2005 here I come. I hope everything would turn better for me in this year. Please God please guide me and help me.
Now listening to Bryan Adams – Please Forgive me
After putting the things into the car we went to topshop, when me and Ian were like "F**k" tees, we just had to grab em. And we each in the end got a tee, cool. Well after the shopping, we were suppose to wait for Gavin and his girlfriend. But well i think they were quarreling and in the end we had to go eat first without em. We were like walking around the mall, not knowing where we could actually eat. Then the Coca steamboat thingy stung Denka's mind, we went in not knowing the price, but anyway its a NEW YEAR'S eve we just couldn't care less about the price, had a wonderful meal, nice recommendation by Denka. Had prawns, beef balls, wanton, crab, oyster and many more. After the wonderful meal, we met up with Gavin and his girlfriend, went to INDOCHINE at Wisma Atria but it was like full house and the queue was like forever, so we decided to dropped the idea and parted with them, went over to pick our dude Steven up at his place. Man after that we were cracking our brains cause we only got 2 hours before the clock stroke 12 for a brand new year,we got so many places in mind to go we actually thought of going to Altivo at mount faber but we were like quite lost on the roads, then we drove down to zouk wanting to chill out at the wine bar as usual, which we always do. But the crowd was just as crazy, and Denka in the end suggested the craziest thingy and that was to do the countdown on his car cruising down orchard, when we reached there it was in a mayhem, cannisters of soaps were sprayed across each other's faces what a crazy sight, and guess what we forgot to close our sun roof and we were hit badly as we went down the road, we got ourself so drenched in soapy foam, but it was fun, me, ian, denka and steven were like enjoying the whole thingy but as well unhappy that we didnt get a chance to spray em back, so we parked our car and went to buy the ammunitions keke, got em and we made a U turn and went back to get our revenge, but yet again we were drenched but it was damn fun, i think we all really enjoyed ourself very much. Never been so crazy since secondary school, after that we had spin around and at around 2am we went over to Holland village for a cup of coffee, I think we had drinks at the TCC there. And at around 3 am Denka drove me home together with Steven and Ian, we passed by Lornie road had many memories but hard to comprehend, and finally ended my day by writing this entry.
Happy New Year, 2005 here I come. I hope everything would turn better for me in this year. Please God please guide me and help me.
Now listening to Bryan Adams – Please Forgive me
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