i wish i could

Well well, it’s the second day of a brand new year. Really got lots of new year previews for myself as well as some achivments I hope to achieve. I don’t know if I am able to fulfill them, but I know I am going to try and do it. Well 2004 was a year that is so very depressing for me, there is so much things that I thought I could be able to handle, but I was totally wrong. Living to regret is the worst thing is the worst, and I didn’t appreciate the things that I have, and it prove to me that it was the greatest mistake I have ever done.

Yup back to talking about my resolution of 2005, I really want to kick some of my bad habits away, I really do. It’s a long list of things that I hope that I can really just kick and throw em away, if I am able to do it I would really be very happy. People might not think that its anything great, but to me its something that I want to set out to accomplish. Its not because of something that woke up my senses and that someone who made me woke up. And I told myself to wake up despite whether the same person is with me or if she is not.
I really want to stop using vulgarities that often, cause it just suck big time making a fool of myself using it.

THINGS I HOPE TO QUIT or STOP.
1. Quit using vulgarities
2. Quit puffing
3. Stop being a grumpy bastard
4. Stop being that arrogant idiot
5. Stop being the Gan Cheong person
6. Quit and stop all of the above(hehe)

Well among so much I have listed, I think the few that I have quit that puffing thingy and it rather hard to believe it, am really getting there, and that gan cheong and grumpiness of mine that made me lose her. Though at times I find it so hard to just change, but I just got to strive on. As I have made a promise to change for the better, I will no matter what do it, whether she will be back or not.

Things on the list that I hope to really abolish it would be using of vulgarities, it just degrades me as a person, it just sucks. I hope you guys will pray for me that I can change it. Kekeke.

THINGS I HOPE TO SEE COMING MY WAY.
1. A better world
2. That special someone that I am waiting whether its coming or not
3. To fall and never get up
4. Treasure whatever I have
5. To love and cherish the people that I loved
6. To be able to stand up again
7. To forget whatever has happen
8. To forgive everything
9. To get a driving license
10.To be stronger
11. I hope shon't disregard me as a friend

I hope people don’t think I am a crazy guy that’s all. Haha, I wrote this blog is just to have a record of whatever happen to me. Though I know my English structuring is sucky, I apologise, I just wanna share with some of my buddies.

Well going to pass out from Training command 2 months from now. And this coming week I am going to do my selection of vocations. I have this intention to join the K-9 unit, it’s the only chance I have to get to train with dogs, I really love em, ever since the day we separated I haven got a chance to see her dogs. Well I guess she was again the one that made me adore this lovable creatures, if I am not getting into K-9 I would most probably either get an admin job at cantonment complex headquarters or get into the special operation command team. Well I hope I get into one of this. Just installed service pack 2 got to restart the comp now.


Now listening to Anson Hu - Jie Kou