Woa, this is my first weekend of 2005. Hell of a week I have been through man, so much things I would want to share everything with her to tell her how much I have gone through this week in camp, I just want to share with someone. Yesterday was a very shitty day for me, had my drill test. It was the most embrassing moment in my life. I don’t know how to express it, but it was really very embrassing, I don’t even know how to relate the thing, felt very depress and as well as worried, so much so wanted to be by her side. But I just have to realize the fact that she is with someone else already, and I got to face the reality all by myself. I told myself to be strong, and I am trying real hard, sometimes I feel so down, I wish I could end everything right at the instance, too much things to think of. Or maybe I am having too much worries that I myself can’t even comprehend. Got to live with this chronic.
Having to know that next week my squad and I will once again have to perform for the Fit squad intakes parents again, just makes things more stress cause I am made the right marker of the squad, so its all up to me to make the whole squad in the correct dressing. I really hope I will be able to perform well that day, maybe life is just like this. Having to shoulder all this is so diffcult for me and its really very stressful for me.
Oh this coming week, there will be doing a selection on the rugby games in the academy, I really would like to try, anyway I have no worries now even if I broke a bone the person who I care for won’t even be bothered.
I really hope I didn’t irritate her, and I hope that she would still keep in contact with me.
I would really like to thank god for protecting me.
Now listening to R.Kelly ft. Cassidy - Hotel.mp3
