Well I thought I didn’t have the time to write in another entry, well another chapter to be added into my life chronicle. Feel so lazy today, did abit of workout today. Well feel like going out today but don't really know where to go, but really felt like eating the ang mo kio hokkien mee but i don't know who could accompany me. Played abit of xbox in the end, ermm thinking of refurnishing my room. And I think its gona happen soon, cause my mum and dad bought paints, oh ya Jason Kwek the lucky guy won 20 bucks, thanks to me for giving him the confidence( haha ), well next friday Altivo.
Didn’t even read my notes haha, just felt like lazing around at home. Though on hand I got things to do. Got to do some draft out of my room soon, I think I am going to change my bed, its just way too small and I am already quite sick of sleeping on the floor. Just got so many things I would want to change. (Hell the sisha is still lingering in my throat) pui.
Well would be another week in the academy, and thinking of it I've got another 6 more walkouts from now till I pass out. Its so fast, its almost half a year gone already. Had many wonderful memories in 2004 but also the year that I first experience the darkest moment in my life, carrying a regret with me for so long. Well got to live life as it is, cause life is full of its ups and downs. Hard to predict what would happen next, but I will try to savour every moment of my life and treat it as an experience, and I will leave everything to fate.
I think I have been writing the same thing in almost all of my entry. I hope in the days to come this will slowly fade off. Cause dwelling in the past is so so so painful. Just have to put my fingers on my lips and stop making those comments and keep my mouth shut, being too much of a male chauvinist(what a fucked up attitude I have).
Maybe I am an idiot who don’t understand the harsh reality, and refuses to accept the cold truth. I am just so sucky.
Erm I think, when I all of the entries cease to talk about it, it would most probably be that I have finally gotten over it. But I know I will never forget that person who showered me with care as well as love before, the smile and laughter that has always melted my heart. And the big watery eyes that sparkles to keep me going on when I used to be so lost in the dark. Well I hope she is happy now with the person she is with now, it’s the most comforting thing for me. (People might think its funny, just go ahead and laugh at me). Cause i fianlly come to realise that in trully loving a person is to hope she is happy always no matter is she with you or she is not.
Well got to embrace a new week already. Smiles, got another rugby session this week I think. Got a cut on my left thumb and also I think I slightly sprain my shoulder cause it feels abit uneasy, but well still got to try playing it, it really allows me to vent out my anger my worries and stress,when i am being tackled or tackling someone, with the pain I feel much more at ease cause for the moment time seems to finally freeze for me, with no one for worries.
Well take care all my friends. I will pray for all you guys and good luck to all.
Now listening to Justin Timberlake – Leaving on a Jet Plane
