Yea! Finally the third week has passed, and i finally pass the course which I think I would most likely to fail which is the weapons handling instrucots course, but in the end with God's help i guess i manage to sail pass it smoothly. With the end of the weapons training course coming to the end, it also means that i draw closer to the end of my Physical Instructor course as a whole, erm i guess now is the review part though I still have one more session on Tuesday.
The training was really tough, tougher then i had expected when i was in division when the news broke to me that i was suppose to attend this OFI course. With all the hardship that i have gone through, waking up at 5.45am every morning and coming home like 8pm makes me feel so sick. In the course there is nothing but just full training, the theory portion was so little, cause its only when we are in class having our theory that gave us that little time to spare for resting, cause the day's training did not gave us enough time for rest and time to recuprate from all the exhaustion after the weight trainings and running. We had to have 2 Ippts per week to monitor our fitness level, and we got to maintain at least a silver for the ippt and for the EOC we got to run below 9mins with all the dummy apperatus strap on to our waist.
Training was tough, but i did learn alot of stuff in the event of all this that happen, like keeping myself fit and the most important thing be able to instruct and to impart my knowledge later on to other people. Through all the bitching from my other entires really make me laugh, but it was really all true during that time it was so very very tough. Maybe its because in the police force i never had the chance to go through such tough training till now. Carrying the LOG wasn't part of what i had in mind when i join the course, but now i am getting use to it. Cause in the inital stage when i was ask to enter the course i was so reluctant, i wish they could quickly put me out of my misery by asking to RTU(return to unit), but after awhile i thought through, since i am already here just make the very best out of it. So that later I would not regret it, i have already done something in my life that I know I am already regretting it and till not i am still feeling the pinch in my heart and i guess its so hard to heal, and so i hope for this time i would not.
But well, hope for the final test the TSR test i am able to make it through, and cross that last hurdle which i have work so hard to strive for. Gonna pray for it.
But first got to study for it first. Well got to thank god for brining me through this far in the course, i would not have done it without your guidiance.
Listening to Akon - Lonely
Saturday, April 30, 2005
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
madness
its so so so crazy the last two days of training for the field side, and its like so close to going back to unit, i cant wait to go back. The training is so crazy so insane i cant take it anymore. I think i am going crazy very soon, the course is so fucking tough, the lucky thing to think of is that the field training is fianlly over. It started off like crazy man, for the last two days, had training like mad, i think its the worse for me on monday, i had to settle so much stuff due to my MCs i had to delay my test dates for IPPT, EOC which is the two most strenous exercise man. FUck shit! No JOke, the ippt i had to clear all the 5 stations and the worse one was 2.4km, after that had to do my field presentation straigh away, and not long after that in the afternoon it was my class presentation which we had to do power point slides and in the end the EOC carrying all the mock dummy weapons kills. It sucks, right after the EOC its endurance run, fuck man the endurance run had to run up and down from bravo coy to old drill shed and at both ends do pull ups, to add to the madness we were made to wear our tshirt and shorts and jump into the pool for 3 rds we swam a total of 20 laps, fuck crazy.
And today its well no better morning when we came, we had the PTI mass calisthenics (Mass Cal) full of shit for the mass cal, workout for about 1 and a half hour, followed by a 1.2km run. And to end the whole days rubbish we ran from Police academy to City hall, imagine the route we cover i have never ever ever ran that far in my damn life man, and i swear to god is run and not jog not at a portion did i jog and the guys were all penting and i guess for that once i am not the only guy who got his whole tshirt all wet. Hahahaha. Kinda of crazy never knew i could do that. Well we started of by running the roads in the estate that led us to newton circus and we turn into a road that led us up to the backyard of istana and from there ran down the stretch of long road to fianlly reach dhoby ghuat ran pass P.S and hotel rendevouz and then further down Singapore Art Museum and from there all the way to the padang, where we saw the gurkhas ready to go for some jog at the esplanade.
Then from there we ran back to police academy again, fuck crazy i tell you we ran pass the singapore museum down to selegie got a glimpse of my old school and so much memories there, after that down to little serganoon and then down to kk hospital from there we ran down all the way till we saw united sq and then novena sq, and all the way through we ran till we reach the main gate of Police academy, well it sucks so much, when we reach there we were made to do peggy back and pull up for two sets fuck were we all tired, and they have to come out with power push up did 15 times and then finally we call it a day as well as the end of the field training. Woa wat a feat for me, never knew that i could accomplish this field training, cos i have been wanting so much to leave it. But well what the fuck, tml is weapons training, got to retrain everything again.
wISH ME LUCK...... n I HOPE FOR THE BEST.
fUCK IF ANYONE THINKS THAT THEY ARE TOUGH,GO TRY THE PTI COURSES FROM ANY UNIFROM GRP, UR BALLS WILL TURN BIG AFTER THAT.
i SWEAR...........
And today its well no better morning when we came, we had the PTI mass calisthenics (Mass Cal) full of shit for the mass cal, workout for about 1 and a half hour, followed by a 1.2km run. And to end the whole days rubbish we ran from Police academy to City hall, imagine the route we cover i have never ever ever ran that far in my damn life man, and i swear to god is run and not jog not at a portion did i jog and the guys were all penting and i guess for that once i am not the only guy who got his whole tshirt all wet. Hahahaha. Kinda of crazy never knew i could do that. Well we started of by running the roads in the estate that led us to newton circus and we turn into a road that led us up to the backyard of istana and from there ran down the stretch of long road to fianlly reach dhoby ghuat ran pass P.S and hotel rendevouz and then further down Singapore Art Museum and from there all the way to the padang, where we saw the gurkhas ready to go for some jog at the esplanade.
Then from there we ran back to police academy again, fuck crazy i tell you we ran pass the singapore museum down to selegie got a glimpse of my old school and so much memories there, after that down to little serganoon and then down to kk hospital from there we ran down all the way till we saw united sq and then novena sq, and all the way through we ran till we reach the main gate of Police academy, well it sucks so much, when we reach there we were made to do peggy back and pull up for two sets fuck were we all tired, and they have to come out with power push up did 15 times and then finally we call it a day as well as the end of the field training. Woa wat a feat for me, never knew that i could accomplish this field training, cos i have been wanting so much to leave it. But well what the fuck, tml is weapons training, got to retrain everything again.
wISH ME LUCK...... n I HOPE FOR THE BEST.
fUCK IF ANYONE THINKS THAT THEY ARE TOUGH,GO TRY THE PTI COURSES FROM ANY UNIFROM GRP, UR BALLS WILL TURN BIG AFTER THAT.
i SWEAR...........
Monday, April 25, 2005
bloom
Ermm haven enjoyed since i don't know when.. Firstly got some stuff with my mum which i think now i am really very broke, got to stop all this buying man i just dun know when to stop haha. Went to kino and met an old friend whom i have worked with once for some art project, he was going for the film fest. After that met up with denka stroll around orchard check kino out and also the orchard library stayed there awhile. Then Darryl denka's friend came and went over to Lido's AGNE's B, where darryl wanted to get a belt but too bad didn't have his size. Fuck that darryl was damn looking man has that ABC(Amercian Born Chinese) look, and has that ultra friendly personality cool.
Well went for a buffet dinner at Shangri La hotel with Denka, Darryl and ganwei. Well it was a fulfilling one ya, the place is like crazy, everything was like spread out nicely on the table. Well there were so much goodies, it looks so much like a club when we were there we were greeted by the waitress that wore dress in black and white, the place look so posh like some wine and dine restraunt with they funky interior and deco.
We were shown to our table, where we started to stare at the glorious food like as if they were calling out for our names. Hahaha. We went around to look at the food woa, it was really crazy. Tha place is just like marche where they have a chef instead of a cook maning the store, there were like so many things to choose from. We started off at the salad bar, man the varaiations there was like crazy, after that dropped by the sushi bar where ganwei got some freshly made califonia rolls, after that dropped by the pasta and pizza kitchen got some pizza and then to the grill kitchen, fuck the grill were good, they even had the whole cod fish grilled infront of you, actually everything they did was right infront of you. Man there were even dim sum and also satay, roti prata and mutabak, fuck it was really crazy and also some chinese cuisine like braised duck fired kai lan, and also indian cuisine like dosai and many more fuck. But the main thing was the desert man the variety of desert is crazy man i guess they had over 50 - 60 different types of desert ranging from ciffon cakes, noya kuehs and also those small small cups of coloured desert just too much for me to take it, but what really interest me was the chocolate fountain haha where i hada chance to dip my strawberry inside haha. Cool. Well denka and ganwei had their fill by eating lots of oyster hahaha and prawns haha.
Well went to zouk wine bar, been a long while since i went there, ordered so much drinks thanks to Darryl fuck man , i htought i would stick to my cranberry juice but then it was not the case. They ordered scewdriver, vodka jelly and apple shooters. The shooters were good my first time, haha they really shoot me haha. They were the appetizers before the main dish the jugs started. Because Denka and one of Darryl'e friend Johnny were members we got the 1 for 1 shit haha 8 jugs came over and 8 cups of shooters arrived infront of us a killer. Hahaha, went home a dead man yesterday. Hahaha over work my tummy. Hahaha. Today got to meet up with my bosses for some meeting. Kekeke. Well got to end my entry too long. I hope it won't reject ya.
Now listening to Dragon Ash - Japan
Well went for a buffet dinner at Shangri La hotel with Denka, Darryl and ganwei. Well it was a fulfilling one ya, the place is like crazy, everything was like spread out nicely on the table. Well there were so much goodies, it looks so much like a club when we were there we were greeted by the waitress that wore dress in black and white, the place look so posh like some wine and dine restraunt with they funky interior and deco.
We were shown to our table, where we started to stare at the glorious food like as if they were calling out for our names. Hahaha. We went around to look at the food woa, it was really crazy. Tha place is just like marche where they have a chef instead of a cook maning the store, there were like so many things to choose from. We started off at the salad bar, man the varaiations there was like crazy, after that dropped by the sushi bar where ganwei got some freshly made califonia rolls, after that dropped by the pasta and pizza kitchen got some pizza and then to the grill kitchen, fuck the grill were good, they even had the whole cod fish grilled infront of you, actually everything they did was right infront of you. Man there were even dim sum and also satay, roti prata and mutabak, fuck it was really crazy and also some chinese cuisine like braised duck fired kai lan, and also indian cuisine like dosai and many more fuck. But the main thing was the desert man the variety of desert is crazy man i guess they had over 50 - 60 different types of desert ranging from ciffon cakes, noya kuehs and also those small small cups of coloured desert just too much for me to take it, but what really interest me was the chocolate fountain haha where i hada chance to dip my strawberry inside haha. Cool. Well denka and ganwei had their fill by eating lots of oyster hahaha and prawns haha.
Well went to zouk wine bar, been a long while since i went there, ordered so much drinks thanks to Darryl fuck man , i htought i would stick to my cranberry juice but then it was not the case. They ordered scewdriver, vodka jelly and apple shooters. The shooters were good my first time, haha they really shoot me haha. They were the appetizers before the main dish the jugs started. Because Denka and one of Darryl'e friend Johnny were members we got the 1 for 1 shit haha 8 jugs came over and 8 cups of shooters arrived infront of us a killer. Hahaha, went home a dead man yesterday. Hahaha over work my tummy. Hahaha. Today got to meet up with my bosses for some meeting. Kekeke. Well got to end my entry too long. I hope it won't reject ya.
Now listening to Dragon Ash - Japan
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
same same
NOTHING TO WRITE IN THIS ENTRY CAUSE EVERYDAY IS THE SAME OLD SHIT TILL THE 3RD OF MAY.
I AM SO SO TIRED.
I AM SO SO TIRED.
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
yet another tiring day
Hell its yet another day in the academy, well it was a real wet day i would say. All the guys were like praying and hoping that the rain would last the whole day, but well our prayers were just not anwser and so all the activity just carried on.
Well the training was indeed very strenous and tiring, i thought after a nice weekend i would be refresh and everything will sail smoothly for me. But well its just not that picture perfect, we started our day off with the BFA(Basic Fitness Assesment), the word basic don't mean a thing i tell you, we started with 2mins of our maximum no. of situps fuck which i manage only 60 and then straight after the sit ups came the 2mins push up which we had our partner's hands right beneath our chest and we were ask to do as many as we could and for that i could only pump 50 i wonder how did lil Nicky pump 100, after all these crap we had to go for a slow jog of the 2.4km route, and after that slow self paced jog we went straight for the real 2.4km Ippt timing run, fuck shit man i clock in a time of 11.23 after taking a slurr jog(lucky me i din fail.) with Billar who also didn't want to run.
If that is not enough, we did 4 sets of circuit training, the circuit training was like hell each set lasted for like 15mins, imagine 15mins x 4 fuck man i think i am going crazy, the circuit training consist of dips, crunches, hopping, skipping, weight training man its just crazy.
Right after all this shit we were being introduce the fartlek training what a disgusting name, well our chief instructor FI nizam says it derives from a sweden word, fuck that run we sprint up and down the slope behind the parade square, it almost killed all of us cause it lasted like 1 hour. Damn shitty the whole morning we have been running and training for like 3hrs plus plus non stop, the only interval we stopped were for the occasional water breaks which only lasted like 5mins maximum. Hai, why am i paid to get tortured haha.
After the studies on TSR, and lunch came our most feared shit Log Pt, and i think i hurt my shoulder again by carrying the log on the shoulder its only till today did i know that the Log that i carried for the past 2 sessions weighs 60 - 70kg fuck man, but it was fun with the log either then carrying to and fro from the gymnasium. Got a chance to toss the 60 - 70kg log. Hahaha. Thats really something we have never tried during our stint in tracom as trainee, its only in this Physical Instructor Course i got this opportunity to play with all this crap, this course is rather enriching but its not doing any good to my face. Keke that why i hate it so much phew. I hope it ends early. But well Billar finally got a taste of Log Pt and Log Run. Hahaa and i think he hates it just as much as all of the other PTIs.
And i saw my OC Mr. SI Guy Consilgere(Officer in charge) of my deparment in the station, haha he has been transfered to the academy as a trainer, yea so it means that when i return to the office i won't be seeing him. What a wierd thing ya, so this tells me that when i get back to the office after the course somethings in the office might change, but i just hope that not that much of anything change of shifted. Cause i don't want to clear up those wrack shit.
Hope tonight i can get a good sleep and pls no more nighmares or thinking of things that have passed.
Now listening to John Mayer - Daughters
Well the training was indeed very strenous and tiring, i thought after a nice weekend i would be refresh and everything will sail smoothly for me. But well its just not that picture perfect, we started our day off with the BFA(Basic Fitness Assesment), the word basic don't mean a thing i tell you, we started with 2mins of our maximum no. of situps fuck which i manage only 60 and then straight after the sit ups came the 2mins push up which we had our partner's hands right beneath our chest and we were ask to do as many as we could and for that i could only pump 50 i wonder how did lil Nicky pump 100, after all these crap we had to go for a slow jog of the 2.4km route, and after that slow self paced jog we went straight for the real 2.4km Ippt timing run, fuck shit man i clock in a time of 11.23 after taking a slurr jog(lucky me i din fail.) with Billar who also didn't want to run.
If that is not enough, we did 4 sets of circuit training, the circuit training was like hell each set lasted for like 15mins, imagine 15mins x 4 fuck man i think i am going crazy, the circuit training consist of dips, crunches, hopping, skipping, weight training man its just crazy.
Right after all this shit we were being introduce the fartlek training what a disgusting name, well our chief instructor FI nizam says it derives from a sweden word, fuck that run we sprint up and down the slope behind the parade square, it almost killed all of us cause it lasted like 1 hour. Damn shitty the whole morning we have been running and training for like 3hrs plus plus non stop, the only interval we stopped were for the occasional water breaks which only lasted like 5mins maximum. Hai, why am i paid to get tortured haha.
After the studies on TSR, and lunch came our most feared shit Log Pt, and i think i hurt my shoulder again by carrying the log on the shoulder its only till today did i know that the Log that i carried for the past 2 sessions weighs 60 - 70kg fuck man, but it was fun with the log either then carrying to and fro from the gymnasium. Got a chance to toss the 60 - 70kg log. Hahaha. Thats really something we have never tried during our stint in tracom as trainee, its only in this Physical Instructor Course i got this opportunity to play with all this crap, this course is rather enriching but its not doing any good to my face. Keke that why i hate it so much phew. I hope it ends early. But well Billar finally got a taste of Log Pt and Log Run. Hahaa and i think he hates it just as much as all of the other PTIs.
And i saw my OC Mr. SI Guy Consilgere(Officer in charge) of my deparment in the station, haha he has been transfered to the academy as a trainer, yea so it means that when i return to the office i won't be seeing him. What a wierd thing ya, so this tells me that when i get back to the office after the course somethings in the office might change, but i just hope that not that much of anything change of shifted. Cause i don't want to clear up those wrack shit.
Hope tonight i can get a good sleep and pls no more nighmares or thinking of things that have passed.
Now listening to John Mayer - Daughters
Friday, April 15, 2005
its on again
damn shit, i am sick again. But not very serious just that i felt giddy. Man the physical training is really toiling me out, when i woke up this morning my head was like twirling fuck it man.
And tml is my physical fitness test, which would determine if i would stay on in the course, i certainly hope that i could still run. But if i can't then at the least i know that i have tried my best and everything that i do is quite worth it.
And tml is my physical fitness test, which would determine if i would stay on in the course, i certainly hope that i could still run. But if i can't then at the least i know that i have tried my best and everything that i do is quite worth it.
Thursday, April 14, 2005
aches
3rd day of the PTI course, aches everywhere. Everyday the course is just getting crazier, everyday there is something new. Looking at the current IPPT result, i am not sure if i would be made to stay in the course. A girl fainted in our course today, this gave the guys lots of time for rest, cause the training was damn tough, we were fuck and tortured. Man, when i am in the course at times it just reminds me of my days in the academy so damn fucking crazy. We skipped the log PT, but i think tml we just have to do it so that makes no difference at all, miss chances of going out to party with my dude denka.
I feel so tired as usual, my eyes are shutting down, maybe due to the weight training, by my ex FI Mr. Rajamurali, as usual nothing slip slop for him. I guess i put in almost my 100% for this few days training whether i can make it all comes down to friday's IPPT. My hands still hurt from the log pt that i did on monday an tues, man its really very terrifying, cause the log weighs around 40kg, fuck and imagine going up very steep slopes and running with them on ur shoulder and carrying them with your bare hands. In times when u need someone to comfort you there wasn't any. Fuck man, tml when i wake up i know its another crazy day in the course. To add on to the crazy stuff that we are given, we are each given a golden pillow and we have to run around with that sand bag which weighs 2-3kg hai so tiring everyday, sometimes i just feel like giving up.
I feel so tired as usual, my eyes are shutting down, maybe due to the weight training, by my ex FI Mr. Rajamurali, as usual nothing slip slop for him. I guess i put in almost my 100% for this few days training whether i can make it all comes down to friday's IPPT. My hands still hurt from the log pt that i did on monday an tues, man its really very terrifying, cause the log weighs around 40kg, fuck and imagine going up very steep slopes and running with them on ur shoulder and carrying them with your bare hands. In times when u need someone to comfort you there wasn't any. Fuck man, tml when i wake up i know its another crazy day in the course. To add on to the crazy stuff that we are given, we are each given a golden pillow and we have to run around with that sand bag which weighs 2-3kg hai so tiring everyday, sometimes i just feel like giving up.
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
worse dayz
Fuck is the word i would use, to start off this entry! For the past two days, i have attended the Ops Fitness Instructor Course which replace the old PTI course! All i could say is its not for the faint hearted, everything inside is so packed the whole damn course is so pack, we hardly got enough rest for ourselves. Yesterday, which i thought was just a introduction in the classroom, damn i was wrong right after lunch my nightmare begin. Carry the log and ran for 3 rounds up and down slope, woa it was like crazy, my shoulders are all bruise. This morning, i did my ippt at 8am, fuck man its so crazy. After ippt did some mass calisthenics fuck man, now as i am typing this, my arms are trembling. After all this crap its class and then EOC which is the obstacle course we ran the 1.2km route before stopping and then got ready for the second round of log PT, now my hands are full of blisters, who can i blame but myself. Fuck.
And little did i expect to meet my cousin matthew in the course, man he was in the Swimming pool FI because of him being in the national water polo Team. Woa i am really really tired, having to travel back and fro from the academy and home, its really crazy, i am not even sure if i could get pass this week. Its really that crazy.
Well got to end the entry by going to bed early. Shitz!
Now listening to Amercian Hi- Fi - A bigger mood
And little did i expect to meet my cousin matthew in the course, man he was in the Swimming pool FI because of him being in the national water polo Team. Woa i am really really tired, having to travel back and fro from the academy and home, its really crazy, i am not even sure if i could get pass this week. Its really that crazy.
Well got to end the entry by going to bed early. Shitz!
Now listening to Amercian Hi- Fi - A bigger mood
Sunday, April 10, 2005
toug day
Well got fuck by denka as usual for being late...keke. Well spend today, at gym for the whole morning, working out as usual. Hopping to be able to train up my ceps(biceps, triceps) well lucky to have my gym buddy Nic who is alwalys there to instruct me and guide me on correcting my posture when I am working out. If not for him, i guess i won't never know my mistakes man when i am working out.
After the gym session went over to Nic's hse and got a look at how his house is like, well he is also living in the same sort of HDB flat i am in the 2 storied wan, they call it the mansanate(i think i got the spelling wrong) and i think his room and hse is much bigger then mine lor. Thats fucked up. His room is really cosy, reminds me of my days in secondary school i don't know why, the time when i was still staying in tampines. After that went back to ang mo kio for lunch before we parted.
I rush home changed and went down to town to meet denka and ganwei. Brought the stuff which i had to pass to EJ, after that walk down to cine for a show BE COOL, fuck man it was defintely a hilarious cool show, fuck the cast were fantastic, man those negers with their blings and muscles blew my minds man fuck they were humongous man, it was like crazy shit man. Well after that had dinner at around 10.30 and we went off denka went off to meet felicia(media corp star) as for me i went home to write this entry before i rest my day. Well tml is another day with steven for bowling yea! haha good nites.
Now listening to Akon - Lonely
After the gym session went over to Nic's hse and got a look at how his house is like, well he is also living in the same sort of HDB flat i am in the 2 storied wan, they call it the mansanate(i think i got the spelling wrong) and i think his room and hse is much bigger then mine lor. Thats fucked up. His room is really cosy, reminds me of my days in secondary school i don't know why, the time when i was still staying in tampines. After that went back to ang mo kio for lunch before we parted.
I rush home changed and went down to town to meet denka and ganwei. Brought the stuff which i had to pass to EJ, after that walk down to cine for a show BE COOL, fuck man it was defintely a hilarious cool show, fuck the cast were fantastic, man those negers with their blings and muscles blew my minds man fuck they were humongous man, it was like crazy shit man. Well after that had dinner at around 10.30 and we went off denka went off to meet felicia(media corp star) as for me i went home to write this entry before i rest my day. Well tml is another day with steven for bowling yea! haha good nites.
Now listening to Akon - Lonely
Thursday, April 07, 2005
krush
yea! Finally the hamsters in my office has given birth, everyone in the office were expecting the babes arrival and there it was in the midst of the saw dust, we found two babies with their mum. This really showed me the meaning of motherly love, the way the mother hamster protecting the babies and how it showered her love for em. It really open me up. But well more hamsters to take care already for me. Haha.
Well 1 more week for me, and back at TRACOM again for the PTI course(Physical Instructor Course), i think thats where i am going to shed a few pounds off my waist. Fuck have been eating sitting down and all, man all that is really making me feel fatter, got to watch my diet from now on, if not i am really going to be a fat arse. Today Sean and CO. finally got to foxtrot hq, guess they are really excited over where they might be posted to, and nice to say that changkok and chee mun got into the same station as me.
Well tml is another slack day at work, what can i ask for more. Haha my upperstudies is not around, he is on a course i think. And my big boss is not around yea, all hell break loose for me tml, but fuck i got to escort the accuse to the subordinate court on Friday morning man.
Well gona enjoy the rest of the week, and its a photoshoot with my dude on sat if everything goes smoothly.
Listening to Coldplay - The Scentist
Well 1 more week for me, and back at TRACOM again for the PTI course(Physical Instructor Course), i think thats where i am going to shed a few pounds off my waist. Fuck have been eating sitting down and all, man all that is really making me feel fatter, got to watch my diet from now on, if not i am really going to be a fat arse. Today Sean and CO. finally got to foxtrot hq, guess they are really excited over where they might be posted to, and nice to say that changkok and chee mun got into the same station as me.
Well tml is another slack day at work, what can i ask for more. Haha my upperstudies is not around, he is on a course i think. And my big boss is not around yea, all hell break loose for me tml, but fuck i got to escort the accuse to the subordinate court on Friday morning man.
Well gona enjoy the rest of the week, and its a photoshoot with my dude on sat if everything goes smoothly.
Listening to Coldplay - The Scentist
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Monday, April 04, 2005
confession
Well talk to steven till 3am, hell we talk about lots of shit. Our lifes and also many other crap, about relationship, I envy him for being able to have someone whom she can share his love and dreams with. Its hard to find someone who would be there to walk beside you down the lonely road.
Steven told me during the times when she was with me the things that happen, how sad she felt when she tried to ask me out, jsut too many instances, i was just a fool, now when i think back i deserve to be slaughtered. But now, what I could only say is i am really sorry, though i would want to make it up to her and realising my mistake redemption just prove impossible.
If she is reading this now, i just want to say that i am really SORRY. Didn't mean to hurt you at that point of time, leaving u there in the lurch at times. Even before the talk i had with steven I had already realise my mistake, well just hope that you are doing fine and everything is ok, i have never felt that you were wrong in anyway, cause if there was someone to be blame i am cause every instance is my fault, i created it.
If you do read this entry now, hope you would forgive me for my wrong doings.
Listening to Greenday - Boulevard of broken dreams
Steven told me during the times when she was with me the things that happen, how sad she felt when she tried to ask me out, jsut too many instances, i was just a fool, now when i think back i deserve to be slaughtered. But now, what I could only say is i am really sorry, though i would want to make it up to her and realising my mistake redemption just prove impossible.
If she is reading this now, i just want to say that i am really SORRY. Didn't mean to hurt you at that point of time, leaving u there in the lurch at times. Even before the talk i had with steven I had already realise my mistake, well just hope that you are doing fine and everything is ok, i have never felt that you were wrong in anyway, cause if there was someone to be blame i am cause every instance is my fault, i created it.
If you do read this entry now, hope you would forgive me for my wrong doings.
Listening to Greenday - Boulevard of broken dreams
seemingly crazy
Yesterday was rather a hectic day, had so much things to do. Finally collected back my squad tshirt already. The satisfaction was really there, till now i still feel that it was a dream, cause the design I made was finally made into a print, though i have no one to really celebrate with me, I just feel so much satisfaction, as my squadmates would be wearing em to work and out to play, some even bought for their own girlfriends. Thanks guys for giving me this opportunity.
Well maybe i got slightly drench by the rain in the afternoon, wasn't feeling that well.
But still i went to ZOUK with steven his friend Jonathan and also Ian, then hop over to CHINABLACK. Never really did party much, maybe I was sick. It kinda of suck though, came home at around 1 plus. Wasted the trip down, but as a rewardI get to know a new friend Jonathan, he is indeed someone whom I think would be able to make it big, after a brief conversation we had, i come to know that he was a mass communication student, whose interest was in illustration and was also the top student in Ngee Ann polythenic, which gain him a direct entry in NTU's newly set up design course CREATE, but he is still so uncertain what course he would like to apply for. But what amazes me most about him was his speech and the language he use, he is definetly someone who is intellectually very smart as well creative.(Not to mention a starwars fanatic) He was also send to Japan's Saatchi and Saatchi Advertising Agency, to work as a copywriter, Fuck man how cool can that get. Well he was one hell of a fella I would say, jam pack with talent and ideas. He made me feel so small(haha jus jokin).
Met up an mao and kel at a later time, but my head was really twirling and steven started to develop rashes after a mug of beer, we decided to end the night early. But I think kel Ian and mao continued their party mood.
Well maybe i got slightly drench by the rain in the afternoon, wasn't feeling that well.
But still i went to ZOUK with steven his friend Jonathan and also Ian, then hop over to CHINABLACK. Never really did party much, maybe I was sick. It kinda of suck though, came home at around 1 plus. Wasted the trip down, but as a rewardI get to know a new friend Jonathan, he is indeed someone whom I think would be able to make it big, after a brief conversation we had, i come to know that he was a mass communication student, whose interest was in illustration and was also the top student in Ngee Ann polythenic, which gain him a direct entry in NTU's newly set up design course CREATE, but he is still so uncertain what course he would like to apply for. But what amazes me most about him was his speech and the language he use, he is definetly someone who is intellectually very smart as well creative.(Not to mention a starwars fanatic) He was also send to Japan's Saatchi and Saatchi Advertising Agency, to work as a copywriter, Fuck man how cool can that get. Well he was one hell of a fella I would say, jam pack with talent and ideas. He made me feel so small(haha jus jokin).
Met up an mao and kel at a later time, but my head was really twirling and steven started to develop rashes after a mug of beer, we decided to end the night early. But I think kel Ian and mao continued their party mood.
Saturday, April 02, 2005
bloogy blogging
yip yip, blogging again. Man haven been blogging for like ages. Well, been real busy about most of my own stuff, and work at the office has been weighing me down. Sometimes i just find that the respondsibility that i am carrying is so much that i can't hardly shoulder it. Well i guess its like this once u grown up, as more and more things need ur attention. Fuck life is so ironic, everything seems to be the same, every path you make meets at the end of a point.
Well, got a half day leave today. To do some things that i have like plan for so long and finally I am able to get a chance to do it. Like i just went to book the class 3A license with siyuan, been wanting to do that for awhile already finally got a chance to do it. Felt a relieve, hope to be able to get my class 3 by the end of next yea, hopefully ya.
Well so many things to do, tml gona party my hearts out with buddies at ZOUK. Hahaha.
Yea feel so good i can do so much things at my own pace. Yea.
Well got to go out again! Might blog again tonite ya.
Listening to Simple Plan - Welcome to my world
Well, got a half day leave today. To do some things that i have like plan for so long and finally I am able to get a chance to do it. Like i just went to book the class 3A license with siyuan, been wanting to do that for awhile already finally got a chance to do it. Felt a relieve, hope to be able to get my class 3 by the end of next yea, hopefully ya.
Well so many things to do, tml gona party my hearts out with buddies at ZOUK. Hahaha.
Yea feel so good i can do so much things at my own pace. Yea.
Well got to go out again! Might blog again tonite ya.
Listening to Simple Plan - Welcome to my world
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