aches

3rd day of the PTI course, aches everywhere. Everyday the course is just getting crazier, everyday there is something new. Looking at the current IPPT result, i am not sure if i would be made to stay in the course. A girl fainted in our course today, this gave the guys lots of time for rest, cause the training was damn tough, we were fuck and tortured. Man, when i am in the course at times it just reminds me of my days in the academy so damn fucking crazy. We skipped the log PT, but i think tml we just have to do it so that makes no difference at all, miss chances of going out to party with my dude denka.

I feel so tired as usual, my eyes are shutting down, maybe due to the weight training, by my ex FI Mr. Rajamurali, as usual nothing slip slop for him. I guess i put in almost my 100% for this few days training whether i can make it all comes down to friday's IPPT. My hands still hurt from the log pt that i did on monday an tues, man its really very terrifying, cause the log weighs around 40kg, fuck and imagine going up very steep slopes and running with them on ur shoulder and carrying them with your bare hands. In times when u need someone to comfort you there wasn't any. Fuck man, tml when i wake up i know its another crazy day in the course. To add on to the crazy stuff that we are given, we are each given a golden pillow and we have to run around with that sand bag which weighs 2-3kg hai so tiring everyday, sometimes i just feel like giving up.