Well talk to steven till 3am, hell we talk about lots of shit. Our lifes and also many other crap, about relationship, I envy him for being able to have someone whom she can share his love and dreams with. Its hard to find someone who would be there to walk beside you down the lonely road.
Steven told me during the times when she was with me the things that happen, how sad she felt when she tried to ask me out, jsut too many instances, i was just a fool, now when i think back i deserve to be slaughtered. But now, what I could only say is i am really sorry, though i would want to make it up to her and realising my mistake redemption just prove impossible.
If she is reading this now, i just want to say that i am really SORRY. Didn't mean to hurt you at that point of time, leaving u there in the lurch at times. Even before the talk i had with steven I had already realise my mistake, well just hope that you are doing fine and everything is ok, i have never felt that you were wrong in anyway, cause if there was someone to be blame i am cause every instance is my fault, i created it.
If you do read this entry now, hope you would forgive me for my wrong doings.
Listening to Greenday - Boulevard of broken dreams
