miserable

at times when you feel so down, there was no ones there to be by your side to pull you up, is that what you call lonely? Well perhaps it is and at least this is what i percive from my point of view.
Well had a longest talk with Denka last night and it proved to be some bad recollections. Things that were suppose to be burried up with a hatchet was once again being dugged out again. From the conversation I had with Denka, it was clear to me and also to conclude that he felt very confuse, being the third person between a relationship, the girl whom he had been toking to already has that someone whom he knows that is treating her like a princess. Which I guess made Denka very troubled, and all i could advice him was not to hurt the other guy by being that bastard, cause put urself in that poor dudes shoes and you would really understand that pinch.

Well, slowly we digress and denka ask me how i felt when this happen to me. I was like err.....flashbacks just kept flickering in my mind. And at that moment I don't know why the lyrics of the song by James Blunt - You are beautiful just kept jingling in my mind....well i think the lyrics must really meant something that expressed how i felt when the incident happen to me and even now as he reminded me i really felt the pinch, couldn't really sleep yesterday night thinking of the things that happen, i feel like a sissy. But well what has happen has happen, as long the person i lost is being treated nicely its the best thing for me.

Well was suppose to be helping with his setup for tomorrow at the esplanade for his comapny's agent promotion or something, but things just didn't go as smoothly as thought it would. I was held up in the office for some clearning of documentation and this took me quite sometime, and i finally got to see an ba's WRX, well it was certainly modified crazily cause the moment he accelarated the car you could hear thunderous sound coming out of the exhaust rather crazy. But well back to the Denka thingy, it seems to be its quite hard being a boss....ahhahahaha, well he again offered me to work for his company again and i am really thinking very hard whether to join Dennis wee Reality cause it was never my forte to sell houses and definetly notmy dream nor passion to work as an agent. But well i will just think about it and see how things goes as i slowly build up my career. I will definetly not sway away from my dream.

Well tml got to get up at 8.30am to get myself prepared and get my butts down to denka's office by 10am and from there set off to the esplande, well hope its gona be fun. At the least i know i can do some catch up with my buddy Clarance, who will also be there to help out, been a long time since i met up with clarance the bro whom we seldom meet up with, cause due to our own work commitments we are never able to obliged to each others timing, just like for me my tuesday is out of the league alrady cause i am burning it for the extra duty for NDP, which this time round i got the duty of being deployed around the padang, haha at least this time round i am able to get a view of the fireworks haha, and the also a view of the mobile column hahaha. Maybe thats the reward for me, well heard that my promotion is coming real soon, ermm looking forward to getting my SGT's pay haha, pathetic it may seem but its really something that i need it, to sustain my welfare haha......

Well tomorrow is another hard day at work. Hope i will get fun, hope to be able to blog next monday, talking about monday. I've got no class on monday yea....well having this journal just serves its purpose it acts like a reminder for me....wait again i gong gong go to the class again, like the last time went to class only to know that i was being played out and worse thing was i was having a fever. So shitty. But well national day is coming i wish Singapore a Happy 40th birthday, and wish that everyone is healthy and happy.

Oh shit its already 12.08am, fuck i was suppose to tug myself into bed at 2330hrs fuck.......got to go now...........ZzzzZZZzzzzzzzzZzzzZZzzzZzzzzzzzZ

Now listening to James Blunt - You're Beautiful