well well, had a very tiring day. Before i went to the gym, i was packing my bag and i found the two tickets that we bought to enter sentosa, i really enjoyed that day with her.
Well back to the entry of my day.Went working out with my bud Little Nicky, man i would say he say he was very helpful. He gave me many tips on what I should be working out on my body. Well am very glad to have got out from my bed to go to the gym with him. We train for around 2hours before leaving the place for stadium, where I ran one round within 1min 19secs it was pretty slow man, cause I was expecting something faster then that. But I am already feeling at the best ever since i quitted smoking. Really hope I would not go back to that again.
After that the two of us just went to the swimming pool to have a good tan, well really a tan man cause i really feel my body burning, and lucky thing was that nicky brought sun lotion if not i think my skin will feel worse, the tanning brought back memories where I went to sentosa with her, I really felt like a fool, to not have treasure the time I had with her and complaining of this and that, when now I realise how much fun it was and the things we could now still be doing if things didn't change.
Went down to Cinelesiure for a meal at Cafe Cartel, ermm talk abit with Nic and know he wasn't really feeling good. Don't wish to elaborate more. But well, I hope he will get over it soon.
Well I am missing the person that I love so much as well. I don't even know how to comprehend, maybe Nic knows how i feel only after talking just now. Though I can say that I won't be dewell in it, but the thing is that time after time I am just lying to myself, to say that I have let everything pass me but when the truth is that every minute my mind is still flashing memories of her. I wonder how is she now, haven seen her for awhile already. Hope she is really fine.
Well got to end this entry.
The song that I am listening to now is one of my favourite songs she recommended to me and send me. What the fuck man, I am just a bastard fuck.
I went in to camp missing her, thinking that in camp i would be able to forget about what happen, but it didn't and now as i am going to pass out from the academy everything is just like yesterday even my emotions and everything. It sucks man. My heart still aches at times when I am thinking about her. I don't know why, and i don't know when will this thoughts ever stop.
I will treasure and keep the tickets. Just want to keep those nice memories of her.
Now listening to Utada Hikaru - Final Distance
