lil pieces

I am slowly beginning to see the bits and pieces of the remaing me..... I am slowly drifting, drifting to another world that i once thought that i would never be held captive there...but reality just slapped me or should i say slammed me hard on my cheek, telling me to wake my fucking idea up.. I want to change, but will i be successful in it...only the essence of time can tell, sucky but its the truth.

Tomorrow back to my post as a boring staff assistant in the station, well enjoyed the night classes i had, it made me feel much younger and at the same time to be able to indulge myself by having all the time in the world as a student...well though things maybe different, but one thing for sure is that every step i am taking now is a learning process, which is leading me to the abyss or would i say my future... as i was lying on my grandma's bed trying to get a nap this afternoon the remiscene of the days back in the academy as a trainee was really much missed things like where me and my bros would hug our smelly dirty pillows and talk to the wee hours of the morning, bath in the toilet making hella lots of noise... and the best part get fucked by our fitness instructor together and getting punished all together, fuck it was all pure fun, i think we might never get a chance to ever do this again..its really a moment in life that much would be treasure by all of us who went through thick and thin together, though the police life is much simpler and easy going but nevertheless we still endured many obstacles that we have never been through in life.

Sulky it may seem but i am drooling mucus from my nose fuck, the flu is killing me... i wish i never had flu it really suck.......