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well, sat infront of my computer staring at the Apple website....thinking and thinking and thinking......whether i should or should i not......is some things so diffcult to come to a decision.

Do I have to draw straws everytime I want to come to a conclusion....haiz.
Yet to do up my FH assigment, I am really feeeling very slip slop at the moment....haiz.

Dreaming wondering what the fuck am I doing, i should be more decisive of the things i am suppose to do, not wishy washy. Sometimes i think life is so complicated, i have to slowly solve it, like deciphering a maze, now i know how a guinea pig felt when they are put in a new enviroment.

Been coughing non stop for the past few days, been thinking thinking thinking many unsolve queries that i couild not come to a conclusion, wish there was something or someone who could let me hug and hide behind.

Just like what i have read in lil nic's website, I am going to share the same fate as him, yes my senior is leaving this week too. I am once again left so nakely to brave the front, I have to learn to how to handle things more independently by myself, not to think too negatively at least I am able to learn to speak better and interact more. But still from now on, I am going to embark a journey that is so chronic, which i know when i wake up I am going to do the same thing again, feeling the same way over and over again. I just hope that the next 1yr 2mths for me will be smooth sailing one, and i am able to undertake the task that was once being carried out by my senior. Mistakes there will be, but i hope i can bring down to its minimum.

MOnth of June is a birthday to someone that was so closely by my side and i would always remember though it has been almost a year. Guess she must be preparing for her celebration, wanna wish her all the best and a happy Big day! Cheeries.


Gona go for my big run................the real run!


Now listening to First 50 Dates-Israel Kamakawiwo'ole - Somewhere Over The Rainbow & What A Wonderful World (Meet Joe Black Soundtrack)