slping is a pleasure

if anyone should deserve a nice ice cold beer, i think it would be me. Why would i want to say that, cause i have been working like a dog the whole week through, sweating profoundsly like a bloody hot dog, if i were to be in frankfurt it would be fine....but in singapore me being a hot dog it sucks.

Anyway, went back to the office to drown myself with so much shit work that my regular counterparts are aren't able to cope with.....which ended up with the two of us clearing up the mess with them, by reinforcing our daily office duty which obviousily they are not aware of. I reached the office at around 1015hrs despite time after time of instruction by my OC and collegue, well right after i stepped into the office the rain started to pour, how i wish i had a cup of coffee on my hands, standing at the window sipping a cup of hot coffee. Well so much work to be done when i reached the office, was instructed to file some documents which made me dozed off while working on it till my collegue vincent woke me up and forcing me to go to the yio chu kang market to buy lunch which i reluctanly agreed to, cause it was pouring cats and dogs outside. In the end took a bus to the yio chu kang market bought lunch for ourselves, john and mdm.

Felt really sleepy after the filling lunch and what was so good was the weather it was so cold, felt so much like sleeping. The night before had a long long discussion on the project and there was so much details to be written in our presentation luckily we had someone who had a degree in marketing to give us the direction we so much needed in formulating the proccess of the presentation, if not we would so much look like a lost child.

Something was rather amiss in the office today, which i now recalled, it was my collegue Krishna muthu the indian fat mama. He was there in the office as well, i didn't expect him to be there cause he is resigning and further more to add to the embarassment he made of himself i didn't know he would be there. Well there he was sitting quietly at his seat, which he ought to be quietly tping his data into his desktop. I was like "FUCK" now then u realise the computer is so important and you are sitting there working on your stuff. Well this fat mama i have so much negative views on him, which i think is one of the worst person i have met so far in my orientation period of the working life, he is so damn lazy. He was a pest in the office which my collegue and I find him to be, he is constantly causing disturbance in the office and maybe i would say terroising us. My collegue and i don't mind him grabbing our neck, twisting our necks making fun of us, cause we know that it was all out of the word "FUN" but at times there is also a need to be serious, and there is always a limit to a person patience. Some times the things that he does just makes me fume up and feel like giving him a punch or a tight slap on his face and ask him to stop all his crap and get back to his own work. He is such a person that when it comes to deadline will he start to work, at many occassions i have worked with him in the office he has been like this, and many of us just felt so sick in helping him. But well i guess he finally realise it but well too late. My mdm refuse to even to talk to him, cause he caused so much trouble in the office and all of us got to help him clean up the mess, he is now like some suspect in the office, there is nothing he can touch, maybe due to the fact that his status of a regular is stripped off as he has officially tendered his letter of resignation. Well, me and my collegue in knowning that he is going off we felt a sigh of relieve cause there won't be anymore any neccessary disturbance by him anymore.

Now i am only looking forward to the 12th of aug to come as soon as possible. The reason being, its my pay day and for this month, i got quite abit of money due to the extra duties i have done and also at the same time it was the fat mama's last day in the office and then he is officially a civillian which means i can give him shit on the road when i see him misbehaving. Just can't wait for that day to come.

Hope nazri put up the SAR form for me to my new OC to get me promoted to SGT soon cause i need the sgt pay which is basically alot more higher then my current cpl's pay..... really hope it comes.........

tick tick tick

well another nite of blogging...well attended class will be having a presentation on monday, but i don't feel the stress i should be having now instead it was the work in the office that affected my composure. Been very very very busy this few days in the office everyone could feel tension arising in the office, with so mch more touch ups to be done before the doomsday. We were practically, working like robots and worse of all I am holding the post in the office which is the most busy, with tons of things to do on my agenda each day and i could not identify anyone on the list that looks less important which i can just overlook.

Everyday when i reach the office is like getting on a battlefield, espcially the moment when i change into my uniform in the office its like i am preparing myself with bullet vest arming myself with rifles, pistol and other stuff.....so stressful..its like you never know when you will be shot down like a shooting duck. Please someone emphatise me please. This weekend I am just gona burn it again, with so much work to be done and cleared before the audit in the office begin on monday, i could see my mdm panicking already over the past few days, cause my lazy good for nothing collegue Krisha Muthu did not bother to do his job properly, when he return back from his mc today there wasn't even a sign of remorse, he really suck....he spend the whole day in the investigator's office do some report on the missing items, i think he really deserves it. I would dare say he is the only person in the office who has that totally BO CHUP attitude, and well that sucks good luck to him after his resignation, hope this thing really teached him a lesson on not to be such a lazy bugger.

Tomorrow is another very very busy day for, with again lots of things to do. Just learn the clever path programme which generates list of my reservist men under our strength, well after using it i think the fucking programmes dosent live up to its name at all, cause all the utilities inside is not clever at all which i meant user friendly, its definetly a stupid programme if you ask for my opnion, cause it really look like shit. But due to the intelligence i have, it took me only awhile to master the programme while my friend tried 3 times but to no avil haha....

just before...

erm decided to write an entry just before i put myself to bed, on yet another early slumber....
it just feel kinda of wierd, like i've not live the day to its fullest....well that feeling is rather hard to explain, i think many of my mates would behaving that same feeling that fullfilment of having to end a day in the wee hours of the morning.
Well, today had the same reminescene feeling while i was on the way to the academy from the station, i passed the road that i was once so familiar with in that 174 bus, it was like relieving that moment which was once so dear to me. As the rain pitter pattered on the wind screen of the police car, i had the strangest feeling like a sting in the heart which was so unbearable, her image just ceased on my frontside, there wasn't anything in my mind that i could shag it off. On my msn this evening, there was her name in the list again, but i didn't dare to msg her again fearing that my msn might just shut off again and she thinks that i am some pyscho trying to stalk her, as much as i wish to know how is she getting on in life i won't want to afford antagonising any stupidity act.

Tomorrow is another day at work, with more task being assigned to me, i am very sure everyone hates work and i am definetly one of them who would raise my hands with a hesitation if anyone were to ask hat dumb question. I work like an ant in the office, handling basically everything from data entry to fitness intructing. Sometimes i just felt like bursting out and jump down from the top of the building, but it just proof to be too painful for me to jump down and die ....... i must think of a foolproof method that will save me from enduring all the pains before i go ......something with dignity..erm i sound like as if i am feeling very depress fuck.

My module in class is coming to and end, well so it means got to start revising over the notes... i hope that my presentation will be fine, cause i think from what my friend phyllis has done on the research part its good enough to present to the class. But well that leaves with the presentation part, though the brief theory facts are been properly research i guess we got to now crack our brains to see who to present it, presently i have the highest chance of getting voted for the presenters post, cause i am the only guy in the team arghhh.

Its a confirm that i will be deployed for national day duty, well to me i felt that it was rather ok, cause well i am single and there is not much activity that would most likely be popping out on that day for me, so i guess i have nothing to complain about and well, i got a day off after that event so hurray. The best part is, that fat indian in my office Krishna is quitting the force so that means me and Din won't be terrorize by him any more, he is such a pest. Imagine having been hated by a chinese and malay that smells how stinky and suck he is......well anyway just heard from mdm that he is going to grill and screw him big time when he comes back from his MC which he sprain his leg on sunday, well good luck to him and his big fat black arse(well i don't have an issue with races but he that bastard is really a pain in the arse).

Well think i have nothing more to say in the post anymore, gotta go to bed now, i think i will be chaning my blogging to the one in friendster. Cause its more convenient, and that means no more deep secrets... so i guess that helps abit to stop me from thinking more....

some thoughts

Has anyone got this feeling of having to wake up everyday and reliving that same feeling or missing that same someone. Its really something really terrible, espcialy when you thought that you've gotten over everything but that same hurt just comes back and haunt you. Its as if its not had enough you just yet and its trying to devour whatever is left of you.

I was surfing on msn that nite and there she was as well, for the along time had i not seen her on msn. I know I shouldn't have msged her, but still i don't what made me type a whole chunk of words and click on the SEND button, i know i shouldn't have,but but......i just can't help it. I am realy not sure what came over me, but as soon as i send the msg my msn got disconnected and i wasn't able to return back......i thought of msging her back to tell her sorry right after the incident, but i thought she might not even care....but little did i know when i on my handphone on friday i saw her msg, and i think she was rather annoyed that i actually msged her and log off, well i really didn't mean to log off without saying anything nor did i had the intention to ry and do anything funny......maybe i shouldn't even have tried sending a msg, gordon why are you an idiot isn't the current way things good, why do i have to screw things up Fark. Well what is done is done and there is nothing i can do, i just think that i am realy stupid to have actually done such a thing, all i wanted was to just ask how she is and everything got so complicated, i am realy piss with myself as well. Tried replying her msg and explain what happen to my msn but to no avil like all other msgs that i have send to her in the past there wasn't any reply, well maybe i am another person who has walk into her life and images of me diminish as time wears off......

I don't even know whether have i let her off my mind already, i know its been quite sometime but still i find it very hard to let go. Though its hard to let go of things but i know if she is happy i would be for her as well, if she is going through any tough times, i could still lend her my shoulders and ears and cheer her up in my not so funny jokes.
But i don't that chance would ever come, as many of times i think maybe my name was even taken off from her msn.
I don't blame her, cause its understandable.

Well enough of thought for this entry. Well got to go do some reflection on what i have did.

i alone cant change

well was just being told by my Sgt that we will be recieving the the commander's commendation for arresting those ah bengs, while it wasn't our duty at that point of time, but practicing the PROACTIVENESS we should have as police officrs we did.
Well it was really nothing that i would be proud of, cause its just another case i belive my NPCO's have handled such cases. Well it would most likely not be remembered after a few months later, like many things in life that would be forgotten the essence is time.....

Been like super busy again in the office with all the internal audit coming in, due to the external auditors coming in this coming August hate it, so it means more things to be updated and more things for me to handle, how i wish i could ORD tomorrow like my senior I am just waiting for my big day to come haha....haven been doing my afterwork jog for 5 days because of some activities and night classes i have to attend that held me back, but finally got a chance yesterday and today to do it though i reach home late..oh well its better then giving it a miss.

Almost had to do OT again today, well i have enough EDO to ask for 2 days unofficial leave from my dept, and its hard to use up that free hours. But well i think i will keep it for my vacation use..keke ermm got to also save up now, gona get myself a tattoo soon, well it is one hell decision i have beenmade, been thinking of it for the past few months, many may ask me why would i want to get a tattoo, why would i be so stupid to pay someone to inflict pain on myself.
Well my anlogy to it would be, why run till you feel like dying and the feel that pain during the run and after it "well to me its the feeling that I am pretty much aware that I am still alive and spinning". It goes to the same as to why i want a tattoo, to constantly remind myself that i am still alive....

Well tomorrow mass IPPT(Individual Pysical Fitness Test), together with the Training Dept, my collegue who is going to bring some guys for shooting constanly reminded me to not to embrass ourselves as Fitness Instructor for the PNSmen Dept, so as part of Fitness Instructor in my Dept, I hope i wouldn't mess things up. But i can't help but to say sorry to those reservist men tomorrow, as i know many of them won't be able to make it and there might be many who would fail, cause marking of stations will be more stringent due to the fact that we got to show the training guys, that we are not people who are slackers.

Read my old entries, i think i have lots and lots of broken sentence structures and i think its really bad. Ermm i won't blame myself for not being myself while i was typing in the entries, though i was feeling rather tired after a long days work...ahahahaha.

Erm, feel like clubbing lei haven been doing that for quite sometime already. I think i will find sometime and get some of em out for clubbing, haha. Denka told me he saw Joyce there on wednesday. Well wonder how is she now. I am thinking of msging her, but the thought that tells me she would not reply and maybe she just wants to keep a distance away from me, just held me back from pressing down her HP no. and sending the msg to see if she is doing well..........

Well tomorrow is another day and work really sucks. Arghhhh, and my life is spinning and there is nothing that i can change argghhhhhhh....why?


Now listening to Lifehouse - Spin

dun know where to start...

ermm...where shld i start, i really don't know!

Well just came back from night class, and as ever i feel so lethargic....... Maybe doing night class wasn't a very smart choice after all. Hahaha. But still I still do benfit alot from it. Its always a hard time to get drag myself to the train that is south bound, I am like standing at a crossroad when I am at Yio chu kang mrt stations platform cause on one side the train is going south bound (to town) and on the other its going down north and back home...well its always a hard decision....

Well friday watched Sin City, hell it wasn't a very nice movie. Maybe its because i haven read its novel, in the whole movie me and Denka was like figuting through out the show, I can't see what steven and his friend was doing.....but it was rather a boring show even the steamy portion of the show just proofs that it has no effect to wake me up after many occasions that i almost fell asleep in the show. Well before that steven's friend was pretty worried that she couldn't enter the cinema due to it being rated as r21, but well we look mature enough, we manage to sneak her in to the cinema for the show.....

Met up with steven ian for a short shopping trip, we went to sidewalk 10 and everyone of us bought a tee haha, the tees there were so irresistable the graphics were like too good to resist haha.......then walk on and decided to drop by FRGL(FRAGILE) to get some shorts, cause the one i had was really koyak(spoiled) had to get a new pair got mine at FRGL for $34.90 rather good buy...i hope that it will last ya, cause i heard that their stuff don't really last long so i was hopping that it would last me for at least a few mths before the wear and tear thingy starts. But well after that met up with denka and he drove us down to ikea to meet up with ganwei who went to amk to study for his exams. Ian and Ganwei each bought some things but as always ganwei bought the most things haha, cause he is still at the point of revamping his room so as expected, shop for around an hr plus then me denka and steven went to the BMW showroom to look at BMW(Denka's Fav) hahas through the whole way steven and i were like chanting "denka six series" "denka six series" over and over again, we tease him and wanted him to get the bmw's six series convertable which he claim to be price at 200k, haha ........

After ganwei pay up his stuff we waited for him at the delifrance at the opp of ikea, where denka was starving and in the end he ordered a potato deli and gobble it down like as if he hasn't eaten for days... at the same time we discussed on where to eat alot of unconstructive ideas came like marina south for steam boat buffet and maxwell market and in the end we ended up at a coffee shop at bugis, all eating fishball noodles...hahaha so stupid, after the dinner we walked around bugis junction where ganwei got some cosmetic for himself and finally we ended our day, as Ian has got to book back in to camp at 2359hrs , i think he really felt sian as i can feel it for him cause i too being through what he has been through...and that feeling really really suck......

Well feeling tired yet again...well got to go to bed now.....YaWnZ! Yet another entry with the same old happenings that occur to me over and over again its just a vicious cycle for me to live this boring life over and over again..........wish something exciting would happen to me fast sometime, hope it would be fun and exciting...

Well today my new OC(officer in charge) finally came, got to wake up early tomorrow and reach office early have been late for the past few mths in this new station. Got to leave a good impression for him hahaha, and so suay today a very colorful bird died on my mdm's window that areas ledge, it was damn scary the bird was rather rare looking and i think it bang itself on the window...so sad. Well got to go prepare my nest, for me to cuddle myself in.

Now listening to Howie Day - A Perfect Time Of Day

time past

well its almost a year stint in the police force already....rather fast i think. Being so busy lately, with so much stuff its like working with so many things at the same time. Its studies and NS and some external project, well its keeping me busy enough and not to think about other stuff.....well I am not sure if thats good or is that bad. Well i realy don't know.

Went to SGH yest for my AED test, to learn how to use that machine. Well i was a really stupid machine, its not about learning how to use it, but the procedures before you administer the machine on the patient who fainted, its a rather stupid thing, wel before that we got to be recertify for our basic cardiac rescue(cpr) again, its rather stupid, now i am holding to two different cert for two different hospital, one was the raffles medical group and the other SGH grp of hospital, now i am more then qualified to save anyone.....keke anyone needs a medic......? hahahaha


Been rather busy in the station as well, many things to handle. Don't know why but maybe i just don't know how to manage my job scoope properly..hehe. Well don't want to think so much, have so many things to do.

Well got a pair of new track shoes from Ascis, pretty happy hahaha.....i mean its something i have been wanting to get as my old track shoes are peeling off so its about time i changed it keke.......Well going to watch a midnight show with my dudes later, guess it would be SIN CITY, after recommendation by planning sides STAFF SGT Rizam, who told there many hot scenes haha....but of cos i am not going for the hot scenes(like real)haha....


Well Sunday, most prob will join the guys for a run at sentosa finally after much persuastion from my collegues and the running team. And anyway denka wans to meet me there, i think i will jsut go for this time round to see where i stand in the team. hahahaha

interesting day

phew....had an interesting day today.
I've never expect myself to be acting like a police officer, its like some sort or reminscene i had in my dreams cause in my line of work i never think that i will experince what the frontline officers are facing everyday.

My collegues and i were out on our way back to the station, as he wants to put me down at the station cause i was out of the station for quite sometime, due to him forcing me accomapny him as he needs to drive some NSF boys to the toa payoh range(security command headquarter) for their ORD shoot, after the shoot we wet to circuit road to get some cheap buns haha...which my collegue insist it was very good and i had to try it, so as usual being the okok me just said "OK".......then sunddenly my phone rang, it was my partner Din who called telling us that he was done already at the police academy, so therefore we went to the academy to pick them up first and drop me off together with them.
Just as we are about to reach our station just the road outside anderson junior collegue ang mo kio ave 6, we saw a group of guys with a mix of chinese, malay and chinese congregating there.

Therefore my collegue being the more observant wan straight away ordered to drive into the estates carpark, once we reach there we sprang out of our patrol car, together with the reservist men who was with us all in 5 of us jumped into action. The group of chinese guys and a girl rush off upon seeing us, and hop into two seperate taxis. Immediatly two of my collegues, jumped infront of the car and stopped the taxis, made all the 8 of them step out of the car, we took their ICs brought them to a nearby blks void deck, from there my friend interrogated the group. Soon after members of the public slowly gathered to see what the commotion was all about.....it was only later the the npco's came all in there were 5men in their team F4P3D , together we introgated the kids, they were all just 15,16 and the youngest was a 13 years old boy, and well he was the main cause for all the nuisance. We asked the boy why he wanted to beat up the victim, then we later know that the malay boy in sch often pick on him and that caused the resenment and later resulted in VCH case and subsequently rioting which was a more serious case.........soon after an Senior station inspector and a station inspector came down, that was the crazy shit both of them are damn fierce they really can make you break down, every time they open their mouth you won't see him talking nicely its all shouts adminster towards his conversation between him and the grp of clowns, i can see from some of the boys that they are shaking, as the way he spoke was really scary.........soon after he ordered some of the boys to take off their clothes, and expected they had tattoos on their body, one of them even had a tiger and dragon tattooed on his chest, some of them on their arms and the only girl had tattoos on her ankle.

Well just before everything ended the commander of ang mo kio police division came down, we were all like "what the fuck" its only a small case and he is down inspecting and looking around. The CO has this very broad face that made him look very stout looking, intimadting indeed. Well the SI let the girl go as she did not participate in the event, but the SI gave her a thrashing before she left, but my this horny collegue just before she left had to give her some soft words haha, like ask her not to mix with them again and do such thing again ....haha my another friend who was beside me were laughing away as we had xpected him to do that....hahaha.

Hahaha, well i really feel sorry for their parents and them.........they are still young and they should not be so rash with things, there is always a way to solve the problems. But well a very interesting day indeed, and also an experince that i will treasure, cause it dosen't happen to me that often. : )

so lethargic

Well just reach home. *YaWnZ* so tiring, man after such a long day. It was my first duty and defiently an experince gain as a police officer, now at least when people ask me I am able to proudly say that carried a firearm when I was in NS. Hahahaha...

Today was indeed a very long and tiring day, we were all dress in full uniform, reporting in to the station at 1015hrs. But still there were people who were late, we got our briefing and finished up around 1100hrs went to draw our arms and the required things for duty. At around 1155hrs we set off to KRETA AYER NPP for my grp there were around 36 men we were incharge of north bridge road, raffles UOB center and MRT and clarke quay MRT respectively, well i was put in section3c with an Insp by the name Susan, our job was to stand guard at the clarke quay mrt station and guiding those small kids to the NE SHOW, but the kids were really orderly we had little trouble ushering them to the designated routes that leads them to the NE SHOW, we were all guessing why the mrt station, shouldn't they be coming in some private charted bus, then we came to realise that actually the book the mrt just to ferry them to and fro from a designated place to clarke quay.

Well stand there like a kuku for almost 1 day today and now i am really feeling the toil already, its really very tiring having to stand in the hot sun for the whole day. It really suck. But well its and experince i actually gain.


Now listening to Howie day - Collide

there is no where in the world that i want to be

Well my bro finally enlisted for the army(commando) but i was not able to see him off, due to work commitment in the station. I personally think he is someone who would achieve far greater then me as a person. Before enlistment he was so worried that he might no be able to cope with the things inside, but what i think he is just over worrying. He has been doing his runs, as a fitness instructor myself, I think he is physically very fit already, but of coause i can understand his anxiety, as I once had to go through the same feeling, not knowing what will it be like in camp and how can i cope with the life inside. But I am sure he will adapt well inside. I am so proud to have such a brother, who is able to take hardship and endure, well at times I wish I had half of his intelligence as well as his dillgency, but things in life wouldn't happen the way i want it to be, thats the irony of life.

I would defiently miss the nights not being able to chat with him, and also see him sitting infront of the tv late at night watching TV. Well, i sincerely hope that god will watch over my brother for the next 2years of his life as a commando. I would love to see him graduate from NUS, which he has secure a place, before the army. But before the army, he was also troubled by which University to go to, cause both NUS and NTU offered him a place, due to peer pressure haha I would say. Well so proud of him, and i know my mum and dad is also very proud of him for achieving this much, he really made my family proud, unlike me who is just still hanging around hai..........................

Well was having meeting in the station with my mdm today, was talking about the retreat for all the head of dept. She was asking if we would want her to note down any thing for her to go and bring up infront of the commander during her retreat, but i am not sure why did we digress so much from our main topic, that we went to talk about the NSF officer who shot himself with the pistol, cause our dept is incharge of both the NSF as well as the NSmen so we got to handle the case. We were speculating if it was foul play, cause 4 other bullets were not in the pistol's chamber. Just before this, my friend was still playing with his ID card, well really felt something in my heart, the indian oy was like 1 year older then me, I think its really stupid to end his life just like this, its just not worth it. At the same time it just reminds me of how fragile life really is!
In my line of duty, we handle life round so often. Everytime when i load my revolver with the ammunitions for duty i just have that worried feeling, my hands still shake tediousily, maybe i was just not meant for this shit. Hahahahaha.......

Well so much to say, tml i am going for my duty for the National day parade show, hai got to draw my arms tomorrow and also patrol around north bridge road, from peninsula to funan center.....so saddening........


Now listening to YELLOWCARD - Only one

taken off

Well so tired, have so many things to schedule and so many things left undone.

Been so tired, sleeping late waking up early, i feel like i have become a whore to the society, its either i wake up and do the same stuff again or there is nothing new. Maybe i've yet to taste anything sweet at the moment or should i say i will ever get to taste anything sweet. Ermm craving for a bar of chocolate at the moment haha, don't know where i picked this up from whenever i feel tense or stress a chocolate just helps.

Well just finish a job, been having lots of shit with the client cause i took over the project ffrom another designer which she really left piles of shit for that woman to pickup, and on my part i was the garbage man who picked up the debries and i mean really bits and pieces of it changing specifcially to what that client wanted, so headache. But well i have finish the shit, and what i love most is that IOC is finally over, that means no need to wake up early in the morning and rush to the station to sign the attendance of the men. Hahaha

Ermm having my first duty prowling the streets this sat for the national parade rehersal show. I am put at northbridge road to patrol that area which is basically peninsula plaza to funan center there, ermm would be exciting but at the same time sad cause my weekend is burned arghh..........but well what to do hope to see some of my buddies there cause i heard airport is sending 50 men down so i hope in the 50 some of them are my dudes back in PA.

Well watch a TV Serial on channel 55 of the cable vision, well really felt that it was meaningful. The words that guy told the other men was really true, its not about how much material stuff you can give to a person and showing how much you care about the person by constanly calling her. But by using your heart to feel it and touch the person that you love, by putting in your heart and soul to understand and care for your love one, don't wait till the person that you care for has left and you start crying, its really pointless. Thats when i really felt like i was an idiot to only realise this at this point of time. I wish time could move backwards, then maybe i will be able to ammend whatever i have lost.

Ermm feeling abit sick at the throat again, think i am going to get a flu or something already man it sucks. I hate it.

Well being the 1 of the 2 fitness instructor in the reservist office, i was put to the task by my officers to be the pacer for DSP Han, Commander of Ang Mo kio South NEIGHBOUR HOOD POLICE STATION, well had the honour of doing it, he was defiently a very nice fella and at his age of 46 he still could run 2.4km and not stopping it was damn good this shows that physically he is very fit, to be able to endure the run.
Running is always the most diffcult part of everyone, they say its tiring. But to me i think its more about what the mind tells you that makes you tired, just learn to endure and no matter at what age you will still be able to run. Its a healthy lifestyle.

Well going to bed now, so much so looking forward to the duty on sat, but the sick part is that i am got to wake up early tomorrow, that sucks.
Ermm meeting denka tml for midnight movies again, hahahaha..............yea got to realax i have toooo..............hahahahahaha

QUOTE:
WHAT IS THE MOST PAINFUL THING IN LIFE?

contraceptive or conceptulizing

ermm hmm, brain storming brain racking, well have been drinking lots of coffee this few days to keep myself awake. Its the dosages that I increase that keeps me awake and push myself to create. Don't ask me why? But I just have to.

Been so busy lately, that I have not being able to find some time out for myself. Its like time is chasing me down a lonely path, having so much things to decide and also so many things that needs my attention to make the call in a short nick of time. Is this what you call shouldering responsibility, ermm maybe it is. I have no idea that it was so tough till now.

I don't even have the time to go down to the beach, to get that brunette color that i am trying so hard to attain. Haha, too vain ya. But well work has been so busy that i am either afix to the chair in my office or the one i am sitting on now and writing this piece of article. I wonder will this be what its like when I have finish my national service and join the workforce. I think it should be somewhere similiar, cause from the feedback Denka gave me, I think it is.

Well Denka has finally started the reign in his father office, its like in those chiense show where the emporer steps down the crown prince steps up, its like changning a new dynasty and deriving a new era.

Whats surprising is that Denka has already started to offer me a job in his office. Haha though its still quite early, so I am keeping my fingers cross cause I know another 1 yr down the road so much things might still happen. Like always and as usual, cause i've been through it once and i somehow I understand how it works. So not pinning much hope.

Well another day to start tomorrow. As always the busiest day of the week is always on a Monday. So much things to handle tomorrow. But whats comforting is that I am not having night class tomorrow night. Hip Hip Hurray....hehe

ends now or never

Well today was the worse friday, first so many things came so unexpectedly(no good surprises). First was the late payment thingy recieved the notice from mdm that there was a troop who didnt get their service pay, well check em out already, only to find out that the period fell just right after my fitness instructor course. But well got it done up, and i hope those guys wouldn't come screaming and yelling at me. : (

Well next came the IOC (International Olympic Council) which starts today and what could be worse my PNSmen are involve in the operation, and we are contributing the biggest no. of force in the station that would be deployed on the ground. And yet so many things were still left undone, which left me and my mate vincent scratching our heads, we had to go through every detail and also work out eveything from the checklist to who were not here and their contact no. just before the nights deployment. My supervisor wasnt around nor did our overall head of dept did anthing to help out. It just suck.

Just before anything more awkward could happen, Senior Staff Sgt toh hock lee PO of PNSF knocked on 03-01's door(where me and vincent's hideout), i open the door to see him standing there giving us that cheeky smile, guess there wasn't anything good that woulod happen and true enough, he pulled us down and put us in the confrence room, where almost everyone inside the room was at least an Inspector, which left just me and my mate who were the lowest ranking officer and we couldn't even make any say in the meeting, well it was really stupid.

But to make things worse or should i say the most dreaded part was that we have to deide among ourself who was to come back at night to organise the things come back and get the PNSmen to sign their attendance, in the end everyone was pushing so i volunteered myself to do the first night's job. It was really nerve racking for me to handle all the 60 plus man alone. But well everything went ok, i thought i may have trouble getting the men to coporate with me, but in the end i made it run smoothly and no hidups in between. But really have to thank vincent, he was really someone who really put in effort and enthustcsim, he really make me and my collegues feel a shame, i will slowly learn to take up big responsibilities like him. Right after the manpower list has been tallied, the manpower dept called up the ops and trg side, i was so glad cos my job for the nite has ended and no other office hour stuff was recalled back for extra manpower. I didnt regret volunteering myself for the job tonite.

After the whole event which ended at around 2215hrs, I went over to orchard to meet up with denka for a movie, we were deciding on whether to watch intial d or war of the world. In the end we chose war of the world , cos denka and i were really interested in steven spilberg's flicks, espcially a great cast like Tom Cruise acting in the movie as well. But well the movie was rather a disappointment, the story line wasn't as fantastic as me and denka were expecting but the art direction and choregraphy was good. The show lasted for 3hrs, it ended like at around 0145hrs.

Man now i just feel so tied, go bed liao, so lucky to have watch the movie this week, next week i will be deployed on to the groudn sianz.