there is no where in the world that i want to be

Well my bro finally enlisted for the army(commando) but i was not able to see him off, due to work commitment in the station. I personally think he is someone who would achieve far greater then me as a person. Before enlistment he was so worried that he might no be able to cope with the things inside, but what i think he is just over worrying. He has been doing his runs, as a fitness instructor myself, I think he is physically very fit already, but of coause i can understand his anxiety, as I once had to go through the same feeling, not knowing what will it be like in camp and how can i cope with the life inside. But I am sure he will adapt well inside. I am so proud to have such a brother, who is able to take hardship and endure, well at times I wish I had half of his intelligence as well as his dillgency, but things in life wouldn't happen the way i want it to be, thats the irony of life.

I would defiently miss the nights not being able to chat with him, and also see him sitting infront of the tv late at night watching TV. Well, i sincerely hope that god will watch over my brother for the next 2years of his life as a commando. I would love to see him graduate from NUS, which he has secure a place, before the army. But before the army, he was also troubled by which University to go to, cause both NUS and NTU offered him a place, due to peer pressure haha I would say. Well so proud of him, and i know my mum and dad is also very proud of him for achieving this much, he really made my family proud, unlike me who is just still hanging around hai..........................

Well was having meeting in the station with my mdm today, was talking about the retreat for all the head of dept. She was asking if we would want her to note down any thing for her to go and bring up infront of the commander during her retreat, but i am not sure why did we digress so much from our main topic, that we went to talk about the NSF officer who shot himself with the pistol, cause our dept is incharge of both the NSF as well as the NSmen so we got to handle the case. We were speculating if it was foul play, cause 4 other bullets were not in the pistol's chamber. Just before this, my friend was still playing with his ID card, well really felt something in my heart, the indian oy was like 1 year older then me, I think its really stupid to end his life just like this, its just not worth it. At the same time it just reminds me of how fragile life really is!
In my line of duty, we handle life round so often. Everytime when i load my revolver with the ammunitions for duty i just have that worried feeling, my hands still shake tediousily, maybe i was just not meant for this shit. Hahahahaha.......

Well so much to say, tml i am going for my duty for the National day parade show, hai got to draw my arms tomorrow and also patrol around north bridge road, from peninsula to funan center.....so saddening........


Now listening to YELLOWCARD - Only one