just before...

erm decided to write an entry just before i put myself to bed, on yet another early slumber....
it just feel kinda of wierd, like i've not live the day to its fullest....well that feeling is rather hard to explain, i think many of my mates would behaving that same feeling that fullfilment of having to end a day in the wee hours of the morning.
Well, today had the same reminescene feeling while i was on the way to the academy from the station, i passed the road that i was once so familiar with in that 174 bus, it was like relieving that moment which was once so dear to me. As the rain pitter pattered on the wind screen of the police car, i had the strangest feeling like a sting in the heart which was so unbearable, her image just ceased on my frontside, there wasn't anything in my mind that i could shag it off. On my msn this evening, there was her name in the list again, but i didn't dare to msg her again fearing that my msn might just shut off again and she thinks that i am some pyscho trying to stalk her, as much as i wish to know how is she getting on in life i won't want to afford antagonising any stupidity act.

Tomorrow is another day at work, with more task being assigned to me, i am very sure everyone hates work and i am definetly one of them who would raise my hands with a hesitation if anyone were to ask hat dumb question. I work like an ant in the office, handling basically everything from data entry to fitness intructing. Sometimes i just felt like bursting out and jump down from the top of the building, but it just proof to be too painful for me to jump down and die ....... i must think of a foolproof method that will save me from enduring all the pains before i go ......something with dignity..erm i sound like as if i am feeling very depress fuck.

My module in class is coming to and end, well so it means got to start revising over the notes... i hope that my presentation will be fine, cause i think from what my friend phyllis has done on the research part its good enough to present to the class. But well that leaves with the presentation part, though the brief theory facts are been properly research i guess we got to now crack our brains to see who to present it, presently i have the highest chance of getting voted for the presenters post, cause i am the only guy in the team arghhh.

Its a confirm that i will be deployed for national day duty, well to me i felt that it was rather ok, cause well i am single and there is not much activity that would most likely be popping out on that day for me, so i guess i have nothing to complain about and well, i got a day off after that event so hurray. The best part is, that fat indian in my office Krishna is quitting the force so that means me and Din won't be terrorize by him any more, he is such a pest. Imagine having been hated by a chinese and malay that smells how stinky and suck he is......well anyway just heard from mdm that he is going to grill and screw him big time when he comes back from his MC which he sprain his leg on sunday, well good luck to him and his big fat black arse(well i don't have an issue with races but he that bastard is really a pain in the arse).

Well think i have nothing more to say in the post anymore, gotta go to bed now, i think i will be chaning my blogging to the one in friendster. Cause its more convenient, and that means no more deep secrets... so i guess that helps abit to stop me from thinking more....