end of another week

Another week gone...so fast, started the week with a bad note, work cocked up the moment i stepped into the office. Something that I made a mistake, well it was something that was caused by my carelessness that i got've to admit.

Back to the week, well wasn't a very hectic week but much to anticipate for next week after news year. Well what the fuck got to party tml haha i want to zouk it haha...haven had a gd time since the last time out at zouk and that was like ermm a mth ago...been real busy with project and office crap.

Well my back still hurts and I am really suffering from the pain, couldn't do gym like usual with the massive weights and stuff had to do things that were really light just for the sake of presenting myself at the gym. What was worse, after my evening run i had to sin by eating a chicken pie from Han's which mummy bought. Damn! Got to stop all these snacking, before i turn fat........night class ending soon, which means start on my portfolio and a rigrious timetable for physical workouts, don't want to look like a fat chunk of meat when I ORD.

Erm got tons of new resoultions, but some impt for myself to note:

1. consolidate a portolio
2. no more fucked ups in my work & my life
3. to paint my room
4. continue the routine training in the gym
5. work harder
6. party more often(allocate more time for that)
7. round up the brotherhood
8. Hope my ache on spine will soon go off

That practically sums up the more important stuff or should I say things that I should take note of. Well they look rather simple but its rather hard to make them happen, thats why they are my priority listees.

With this list I end my log.
Well tml is New Year's Eve.

If anyone is reading this crap
WISH YOU A HAPPY NEW YEAR n happy holidays.

woke up with the ache no more on my spine no more

Back to the said events in IAS, made some good friends, luckily no enemies...haha
Well fruitful it was to have been entertain by some of the industries past heroes, erm one the Lecturer who taught me Integrated marketing, had a rich CV consisiting of his last job in the industry as CHUO SENKO Advertising regional Executive Creative Director and a coupled with a few big MNC agency whom he had worked with abroad in UK and US.

Though it was a brief stint in IAS, the ideas and teaching imparted by them was an indeed inspiring. With a little bit of this and a little bit of that, just gives me a nibble of what advertising is all about.

After all the scary comments given by my lects both in design and marketing, these did not make me sway off the idea of dabbling my foot into the industry, instead it made me more keen in having a taste of what those said truth about the industry really is. I would trully recommend to my friends if any would to consider advertising as their career.

Finally to end what I have to say about the course which would end for me this 21st Jan. Is that I would continue to work harder in reaching my goal:

“Good ideas do not just circulate information.
They penetrate the public mind with desires and belief.”
- Leo Burnett

Here's an ad i saw in a website done by our local agency:
And i think it helped them won the best of show for this year's CCA



Finally all the pain no more gone, it feels that something was stolen from me last night. But thank goodness its something that I wish it has been stolen from me since last week.

Had an excruciate visit to Tan Tock Seng Hospital on friday, it has been almost 6 months now since I last visited TTS. The last time I went there was during my training days back in Training Command.

Well did a check on my ears last week at the walk in clinic there, fuck it was a 2 hrs wait for the doc. When it was my turn lady doc who examine my ears couldn't define the problem to me and so she refered me to the A&E dept, that hell wasted my whole afternoon at the hospital fuck. So this friday decided to make a trip to the A&E dept which the doc there couldn't help me with the problem cause apparently the apparatus that he had was useless, despite the fact that he constantly said it was something small, in the end he refered me to ear clinic. And finally got that damn white stuff extracted out from my ears. Relieved...well from this experince i finally learn that keeping the ears clean is trully important.

Merry X'mas

hey hey hey....another christmas is ending so that spells the end of the year 2005. Well pretty much getting ready for a new year, wonder what I would do to usher in this new year.

This coming New Year would be one that would be a happy one for most of my dudes who are due for ORD from the crook national serivce, walking into another phase of our life. Am sick of the usual routine life working in the office at the station, it proves to be a place where I practically murder myself, with the constant dumpingof stagnant workfile poured onto me. Guess cobwebs might already have started its growth in my memory bank, well life is just that bad...


Like a wind, my stint at IAS is soon over, with the end of the design module which I will be undergoing a presentation this wednesday marks the end of a chapter in the school of advertising.

Learn alot from my lect Anthon Kiong though he wasn't from some big farking MNC agency but he sure knows his fuck. A Creative men who is able to accept designs that are edgy. Well he talks like and acts like an ah Beng but he defiently isn't 1. The school was defiently an eye opener for me, well always thought I knew the world but after going through just 4 modules in IAS, just tells me how much I stand and more learning and improvment must be made.....in the begining i thought working out an ad was simple....

Its like this chinese saying: "I am like a frog in the well", jing di zhi wa. HAHA
Definetly no regrets signing for a night class there, it integrates all the elements that prepares us for the coming work life(not in deadlines but as in the knowledge thats impart to us as advertisers). Like the very practical scrutinies in life, and for this case our artwork.
Well a good ad dosen't work when you say it works, it has to be proven, facts and figures are what they see in the real world....what is asthetically beautiful dosen't mean it is a hard selling advertisment, you have to prove it.

Don't think you are a designer make you GOD, cause anyone can be a designer. But if you are able to integrate and put yourself in the shoes as a salesman or a consumer, then can you trully understand your client and sell their product. Like many great advertisers they were drifiting on different paths in life before knocking on heaven's path.

Making every second count in this line is very important, crucialness and deadlines are the killer words in briefs that are written by acct dept/ copywriters.

Well too much to be said already/has been said already......

A LATE MERRY XMAS TO ALL...............to continue my chronics on a life at IAS.

its getting bad

woke up with a sharp pain on my back near the top spine area, well the pain has been ongoing for the past week. Well I think I have injure myself during the sessions spend in the gym.

Was travelling on the train to work as usual, then suddenly i felt an itch on my calf but I dare not scratch it. I consider it as a taboo to do that in the view of the public, it was really very itchy and in the end I just hack with it and started lifting my legs up and scratched it...haha, luckily everyone on the train was like asleep or busy reading newspapers, this saved me from all the teaching in school about personal hygienes and social etiquette.

Pretty sick with all the songs that are in my IPod, I got to get new music to replace the current playlist or should i say add on to the current one, cause walking down that long walkway from YCK station to my station proves to be rather lonely. Nowadays just can't stand the moment of being lonely, thats why i think the music that is playing in my ears are turning monotenous.

Spend the last two days out of station, travelling back and fro from police cantoment complex with the usual NSmen's promotion documents.

Well early next year I will take on a role that I think would be a tougher challange for me which I will undertake and shoulder heavier respondsibilities. Which is like adding more spice into a pot of hot curry that is looking red hot already. With more important functions and events happening next year, I will have to be more vigiliant in my work...I hope I can, but I just can't help it but to think that its just too much for me to take it, I wish there was someone who could share my stress or at the least let me pour out my feelings.

Ermm tml is another day at work again, IPPT(Individual Proificiency Physical Test) for the NSmen which I will be the tester again. I am multi tasking everyday with so many job scoopes to cover, I wish at times I had more brain cells, more arms and fingers that could cater to the needs of my job, erm ya maybe I should just ask that for my christmas present this year from that good ol santa....haha just joking.

Well farhan is going for his physical training instructor course which starts at the beginning of Jan 06, being the alumni of the course Din and I gave him tips on how to cope with his fitness and endurance during the course.

Well the back is really killing me got to end this chronic. Friday will be a day off for me haha again, but this time round got to go to Tan Tock Seng Hospital to check on my ears, and then if time allows I want to get my RED Wings...hahahaha maybe I will blog again on christmas eve, if i've got the time.

time to take a breathe

Time to speak my unruly life which i think is rather true....been thinking so much though the date till it ends is still seemingly far. Well 11 more months to go, I would say its fair enough that I am making my plans.

Ermm is all this thoughts what you call mid-life crsis, if it is its really pain in the arse. Hahaha....

Looking at Tong's blog, hes been travelling non-stop around the region taking photos...well thats what I call good life, comparing myself to him who is still pitifully stranded in a job that I was force to undertake, shouldering responsibility that i have no background knowledge, diagnosing symptoms of the illness in the job scope like a doctor that hasn't been certified. Well you can't blame me if anything were to go wrong cause I tried my best to accomodate to what they require of me, very often i think that my term of good is just not enough for my masters.

Sometimes I wish life in NS could be a little bit more fun, with a bit more spice added to its already colored substance that is still kepping it alive.

Well it was a rather sad week, cause a collegue's father had just passed away from throat cancer, its the 2nd friend whose dad passed away. Why is all this happening, its already a curse to be in NS and all this just adds on to the sorrow.

Well think i hurt my spine while working out in the gym, but still I am working out...(I am just vain) no la! Thats the only time I get to work my body muscles and not rest them for too long.....cause sitting on that big chair in the office just makes me feel fat, I promise myself that after the whole ordeal in NS I will still remain in TIP TOP condition. So gym sessions and occassional 2 - 5km runs are still a routine for me.

Work is never ending for me after a work is clear new ones just happen to be pile up in front of me. Mondays are the worse days its a killer, got to handle so much stuff for the PNSmen...from logistics to their basic essential needs for their reservist. I feel so much like a nanny at times, got to take care of their uniform, their Fitness cause I am a fitness instructor and also their schedule. Everyday in the office I am learning to be a better multi tasker, everyday proves to be a challange for me, if I am able to get pass a day it means I have reach a new level. Cheesy it may sound but its rather a fact.

hit me part II

Well finally got to blog again. I know whether i put in another entry anot at the end of it, it would still be read by myself...hahaha. But as promise and a promise to myself that is I've got to finish up the chronicle that I left out from the last entry, about my trip to genting though it has been pass for like a god damn 1 month, but well it would be interesting to read my experince up there and hopefully through out the whole entry there won't be that much grammatic errors.

Ermmm where was I where did I last stop....oh ya, about the recce when i reach genting I think I was still not able to adjust to climate there and the dizzy spell just got on to me, I couldn't explain how it came about but it was rather bad, at some points I almost blacked out, so in the end didn't do much recce with Vincent just got ourselves each a set of burger king meal and happily set back to our rooms to take a rest. For that first night there, we practically did nothing much but just use up all the complimentary tickets that the hotel had given to us, was suppose to catch a movie but at the end of it everyone was too tired and many of us upon reaching there own rooms, just drop dead on their beds and were reluctant to get up.

On the second day, everyone got revitalise from a good night sleep and were pretty much hyped up for the KL trip, which our officer SSSGT Hock Lee has promised to take us around. He was definetly the man for the job, hes been to KL and genting numerous of time, often I ponder if hes not a police officer he could just switch job and work as a tour guide...hey hes got the potential ok but well i guess hes got higher aspirations then just being a silly tour guide whom i have always thought as someone who stands infront of a bus trying to get everyone's attention and no ones listening(pretty sad case).

Well after lunch we set off for our trip to KL, we took a cable car from the highlands to a bus terminal at the foot of the hill. From there we each paid 3 bucks for a bus trip which was 1 hour to a bus terminal in KL. When we got there, we were really fortunate to have Hock Lee around, he brought us to a some train station which look very very similiar to our LRTs in choa chu kang, Nasri, Adrian and I were very keen in visitng the Menara Tower, to the 3 of it was like if we are in KL its an attraction that we can't miss....hehe well the view up there was indeed amazing we could see the whole city compared to westin stamford it really proved that why we are that small in the map. Though the weather that day wasn't that good but it was well worth it as the sight was rather breathe taking and it just blew our minds apart.(too exaggerating) After the visit there we went to times sq, the so called biggest shopping arcade in KL well it is about 10 - 14 stories high, but i could tell you its nothing fantastic and there is nothing much in there, all the high end stores are all located at the 1st and 2nd floor of the building and there isn't any high end fashion labels there, I don't know if its me as a singaporean who has a different taste in fashion or are the fashion trend down there too outdated. There wasn't anything that caught my eyes though i brought enough cash and initailly had the idea of getting some apparel back, but well the things sold there just turns me off, espcailly when my friend wanted to get a swatch watch and the only boutique in this giangantic shopping happen to be closed down. Well shop and ate till around 9 plus bought some supplements from a supermarket at the mall and Din suggested with drop by the red light district there. But fuck i tell you for this we had to rush back to the cable car terminal cause the terminal closes at 2330hrs. We board a cab in times square, I tell you the cab service in malaysia sucks and its we waited for around 20 mins for a cab and the drivers there even after paying a standard tickets we still had to bargain with the fucking cabby driver....fuck shit.

Well in the end we reach the cable car station in time and caught a cable car up to the hotel, the trip up in the cable car was really an experince many of times throughout the journey we could hear lots of different sounds and the cable car was swaying vigrousily from left to right cause the wind was blowing hard on us, it was really scary balls shrink our tone of voice changed as well, I could see eveyone having a hard time swallowing their last bit of saliva after the last sentence through the conversation before. But still we made it safely back to the hotel, had a good rest and prepared ourself for Home....

what hit me......

Well 3 days of pure fun has just breezed pass me even before it hit me. Enjoyed 3 days of fun at Genting highlands, it was my first time so far up in Malaysia and of cause the second time so far away from home, its like about a 1000km away from home.
Well time again for another seesion or should i say another chronicle of my journey.

The night before the guys from my department who were also on the trip up together decided to just bunk in at the office overnite, it was rather wierd and before i reach the station i bumped into Siyuan, hahaha he was laughing at me and sacarstically making remarks saying: " eh you all got nothing better to do ah, love your job and the station so much ah", got a good laugh with him and talk abit of cock as usual, and we parted. Reached station at around 11pm unpack some stuff change into something more relax and slouch on my big chair again. Well couldn't get to sleep till around 2 and then the alarm clock rang and there we go pack our stuff again and there it started our road trip to Genting Highlands.

The trip up was like rather long after leaving the malaysian customs at Tuas we made our way to some place in the mid of Malacca if i am not wrong for our brunch before we embrace ourself for a 4hours road trip to Genting, the journey was tedious but none of us had any problem with it, cause for most of the time everyone on the bus was sleeping and it was very much expected. Well at around 1415hrs 9hrs since we parted from Ang Mo Kio Police station we finally reached the First World Hotelin Genting, boy was the weather cold. The mist and all made everyone feel so dreamy, in my mind at the moment was give me my room's key and i will make myself disappear.
Got our keys and we were designated for the 22nd floor of the hotel which is near the elevators which was quite overwhelming at least were treated with due respect, giving us the convenience as well as privacy we needed, our whole department boys stayed on the same floor and also consecutive rooms running down the corridors.

Looking at my watch for a quick time check it was 1445hrs, we decided to do some recce as many of us were here for the first time. So we decided to have some free time for ourself, i pair myself up with my collegue Vincent(also my roommate), Din and Nasri went on their own Din and Vincent was really looking forward to their trip down to KL as they were expecting to get some stuff at Times Square, Nas and i were more interested in Bukit Nanas Menara Tower(ALSO KNOWN AS KL TOWER) it was the 4th tallest building in the world. Well had lots to eat during dinner, cause there were complimentart tics for us who book rooms at First world hotel, it really made us save alot on our trip there.

Well be back to rock more stories for this trip tml.

my worths

Been through a week that is rather sad. Had the worst of news broke out to me, about my mates father who passed away, was rather shock. For the first time in my life i really understood the pain. Its easy to always say comforting words to others buts its always hard on the other end to accept the fate and the harsh fact. I really understood the meaning of life, it has really taught me more about life and very much to treasure all my family members. Although at the wake, we could see that my mate was feeling alright and looking fine but i know deep inside he must be feeling rather sad. Well though we are all guys, but we are just as soft as the ladies though we can tolerate to a certain extent but when we break down we need comfort too.

Mobilisation is just round the corner and i would most likely not be around for it, as i will be on my holiday trip. Well hope i can get a good rest there. Been suffering from a very sore ankle, i am not even sure when i actually hurt my ankle. But its not the issue now, got to enjoy myself when i am there.

Will drop by zouk tml for another day of fun fun and fun. Haha, well got to live life to its fullest, work is really killing me. So many things to bear responsibilities. Would be going for a 8 mths RT course to train all those fucking regulars who can't run, making sure they run and pass their next IPPT as a fitness instructor its my job. Next course that i will be attending in another 2 weeks time is the NAPHA tester course, which means i will be a fully qualified instructor who could take people for IPPT as well as train them like a true professional fitness instrutor. Haha the psyche of it just makes me feel rather special haha. At the least i know that my stint in NS was fruitful, attaining all those certs that are rather beneficial to me and probably my future.

Went to the PHUNK STUDIO's DECADE OF DECADANCE exhibition at riverside point, was nothing really much refering their works. Cause its really all in the book that REBEL ONE has published for them. What was amazing was the medieval looking furniture they had, the red cloth and the frames for their renissance painting which they manipulated it was so gothic and rather uniqe. Its no wonder they are reknown, and their exhibition at STAPLE Design's gallery the REED SPACE actually attracted quese that go a few blocks down. They are trully a pride of the singapore creative industries *saluates*

After that again went for a game of monopoly, this time it was a fair game and all of us lost to IAN who was the big winner who drain us all dry in the game, ahah very fun day. After the game we went to MOMO for some boggie night, was indeed a very happening night. Never expected to do so much things all in a night, but the best part was we were bale to get to see Steven's new accquitance MEl haha...

my worths

Been through a week that is rather sad. Had the worst of news broke out to me, about my mates father who passed away, was rather shock. For the first time in my life i really understood the pain. Its easy to always say comforting words to others buts its always hard on the other end to accept the fate and the harsh fact. I really understood the meaning of life, it has really taught me more about life and very much to treasure all my family members. Although at the wake, we could see that my mate was feeling alright and looking fine but i know deep inside he must be feeling rather sad. Well though we are all guys, but we are just as soft as the ladies though we can tolerate to a certain extent but when we break down we need comfort too.

Mobilisation is just round the corner and i would most likely not be around for it, as i will be on my holiday trip. Well hope i can get a good rest there. Been suffering from a very sore ankle, i am not even sure when i actually hurt my ankle. But its not the issue now, got to enjoy myself when i am there.

Will drop by zouk tml for another day of fun fun and fun. Haha, well got to live life to its fullest, work is really killing me. So many things to bear responsibilities. Would be going for a 8 mths RT course to train all those fucking regulars who can't run, making sure they run and pass their next IPPT as a fitness instructor its my job. Next course that i will be attending in another 2 weeks time is the NAPHA tester course, which means i will be a fully qualified instructor who could take people for IPPT as well as train them like a true professional fitness instrutor. Haha the psyche of it just makes me feel rather special haha. At the least i know that my stint in NS was fruitful, attaining all those certs that are rather beneficial to me and probably my future.

Went to the PHUNK STUDIO's DECADE OF DECADANCE exhibition at riverside point, was nothing really much refering their works. Cause its really all in the book that REBEL ONE has published for them. What was amazing was the medieval looking furniture they had, the red cloth and the frames for their renissance painting which they manipulated it was so gothic and rather uniqe. Its no wonder they are reknown, and their exhibition at STAPLE Design's gallery the REED SPACE actually attracted quese that go a few blocks down. They are trully a pride of the singapore creative industries *saluates*

After that again went for a game of monopoly, this time it was a fair game and all of us lost to IAN who was the big winner who drain us all dry in the game, ahah very fun day. After the game we went to MOMO for some boggie night, was indeed a very happening night. Never expected to do so much things all in a night, but the best part was we were bale to get to see Steven's new accquitance MEl haha...

works of wonder

Well this week i presume would be a very smooth sailing week, with two public holidays clashing heads on this week. Last Friday finally got the results about my promotion to the rank of Sgt, which means heavier responsibilities in the office as I am third highest ranking officer in the office, well the thoughts of it just makes me shiver. Before getting the result I was carrying a very positive attitude, anticipating for my promotion, but when now i just have all those negative thoughts. Fuck humans are so hard to please, I am just one of those sinners I am not shy to say. Well had the hardest time to tell myself that taking on the role of the leader wasn't that bad, at least looking on the lighter side of things I am getting a $300 pay rise, though its little nonetheless its a raise, which as a NSF I should be very happy and I am.

Well everyone in the office was in a holiday mood, no one was working. My mdm says its because its the end of the year many people are already into the festive seasons mood, that was rather quite true. Today all the muslim officers in the station took half day, it became rather quiet when they all left, cause they really make up the no. in the station, espcially in my dept. I had to really work my balls out today without them, this was the time i rather miss em...haha to help me out in my work, i need them to share the workload with me.....

Well had a very sore ankle since last saturday, not sure what really happen its like one of those days when you wake up on the wrong side of the bed. Its been really plaguing me and it does affect my mood to party and work...that really sucks. Missed my chance to actually go zouk and get to know steven's friend Anthony and his art director CO. darn I practially blew my chance in knowing them and socialising with them...which i felt rather stupid not going that day to zouk.
If life is like a VCR i wish i could rewind and reuse the tape again, like so many of times i think i really create lots of my own blunder in life. I swear to god I would never miss any chances anymore, i would make start to savour every moment to my side.

Well saying that i am enjoying single life is rather a very hypocritical shit, why am i like that. I feel so fucked up now. Why issit that everyone has to go through this sort of thing in their life, all is my lyrics so messed up now. Well i tired embracing it, at times i find it hard to pick myself up. Well encouraging other and comforting others may seem easy but when it happen to urself its rather hard, trust me, been through and till now i can't seem to get pass this obstacle called 'EMOTION'. Maybe i am just another weakling struggling in this relam.

But well i can foresee that next week will be one hectic week in the office with tons of work, which are waiting for me to clear, which i think i have been basically too slack, going into the office and not work progressively, which I should be....*smack* *smack* wake up your fucking idea GORDON, its time to come back to reality.Well sometimes i am just induldging too much into this kind of spoon fed life, fuck i just have to change if not i don't see my future. Well days pass fast, and soon this weekend that i am enjoying would soon pass me by.

pay day pay day

woah after enduring for 2weeks. Finally pay day is within my reach, in another 1 hours time money will be credited into my account. I deserve every cent of the money, all those cents are my sweat and blood.

Been so so so busy over the past week, busy with the course project, busy with work in the office even though i am on course and also at the saem time working on my logos for the school project. Fuck it was really pure stress, i had to cope with so much things. Never had the experince of working with so many things at one go. Ian would be going to Thailand in another 48hours for training, and from his blog he is thinking of getting a tattoo, well that really made me envious i am contemplating to get a tattoo too on my shoulder blade whereas Ian wants it on his calf. Well, just got to wait slightly longer save abit more and then i can add some art to my body as well as having that experince of pain.. haha

looking back

duhzz...sometimes i think to myself. Am i really doing the things that i want to do in life, or am i just satisfying the needs of reality and pursuing things that i think will gain me fame, fuck I am driven by the fam and fortune rather then the love and passion of doingthings that i like. Fuck its killing me softly..........as you grow more in love with your passion it slowly devours your passion and turn you into a man of greed thirsty for the fame and fortune in life.

Well thinking of the many courses that i have been through in my one year stint in SPF, I can confidentally say that i am not very well equipped nor well taught, just as i recall courses like the basic cardic life support (CPR) and also the afilbrator device course(AED), up to know i must say i am not very sure how to go about performing it, if anything were to happen in the case of emergency, i will probably be too shock to even help out with the 2 man cpr. Wahahahahaha.

Went for my SGT course briefing today at the academy. Well was rather glad to be able to see many of my old squad mates again, peeps like suresh, tim, jason kwek(my all time buddy), Nic teo(all time good buddy), sean seah, Yong, Loke, ridhwan, shariffee and idris. Well it was a great time, though the course was rather short and we didn't get a chance to really talk long but it was comforting enough to see them again, well on the 3rd we will get to see each other again for a week till 10 oct haha...am also appointed the group leader of my team, ermm in which i must learn to practice leadership and lead my team to victory haha.....though i know its a sai gan job but well in life shit just happens so living through it everyday and telling myself in a positive manner just makes me feel better. After the course back to the station saw lots of gers outside the YIO CHU KANG sports hall only to know that my EX- sch NAFA was having their annual sports meet there.....rather depressing and sad that i am stuck in NS, everyday i am killing my brain cells sitting in the office doing things that are not at all relevant to what i am studying...not boasting that i am great or anything but it just makes no sense doing things that i dun like.........life becomes so monotenous for me..how i wish i can start working now or at the least pursue my studies darn.......

I want to get out.....I want to be a copywriter...I want a pilot pen.......

My job to write copies that sells....cause i am god....and god is also human.....

why is there a god cause he can do some things not all human can

thats why he is call god.....

haha my cock theory...

tendency

Yet another monument of another of my tribute to this journal full of my ego.
Complains complains and more complains. Everything that i see and do, just sums up to complains and more complains, i don't know whats wrong. I can't imaging why i am like this. Probably too much things to do and too much of stress i can't handle.

Well was in the office today, and had a chance to browse through NEIL FRENCH acclaimed as the Greatest Copywriter of all times, despite all the bashing and crashing he had in life, indeed i agree that he writes good copy for print ads that are really expressive, espcially the one for the AIR ASIA, it was really cleverly written as well as the cheesy print ads for XO BEER with one of the ad's copy stating something like" XO Beer is 12% alchol, and best taken lying down", it really just shows how strong this beer is and warning the effects that might happen before hand for precaution purposes, whenever i read it I just kept laughing to myself. Rather silly you might think of me i know, but its really funny at least in my opinion.....

Coming back to my critics for his work, well though i am not anyone famous but still i want to contribute to the critics forum on what i think about his work. Well i think the print ads that he did were really incredible... but the TV ads were rather written too smart, he worked with the best in Singapore I can see, people like Tham Khai Meng(co-chairman, O&M Asia Pacific), Steve Elrick(Executive Creative Director BBH Asia Pacific, Wilie Tang(founder of the now defunct Picture Farm) and Hanchew(Hanchew studio), well many of us who are in this industry would instantly have that wow factor when we see the names that he has worked with just in the asia pacific region, considering he is now the GODFATHER AND CREATIVE DIRECTOR of the WPP group(mother company to O&M, BATES, RED CELL, J.WALTER THOMPSON, MINSHARE, YOUNG & RUBICAM Y&R and many more other big names in the creative field). His work are seen to be crafted in a very cliche manner which makes the image very clear cut with its meaning. Anyway its just my 3 cents worth.

Well enough of the big name was looking through the ad fest book i bought recently, and browse pass the interactive segment, well saw a couple of winning work by KINETIC INTERACTIVE, ya ya i know they are a bunch of interactive gurus whom i shall not introduce, again anyone in the creative industry in singapore would definetly know who they are, if not you must be living in some other dimensions, where design is still monotenous. Kinetic Interactive the youngest upcoming creative agency, mainly makes up of peeps from the Temasek School of design, they are killers in this field having only start in a short 8 yrs they have gun down more awards then any other local agency, that really prove how much potential they have to grow even further, ya as i was browsing through the page i saw a familiar name, Issac Wong, haha he was a friend. Well he really made it big man, by gunning an award already, well that really stoked me man. Well guess he is going to be one of the upcoming designers in this field, hope i can achieve that much when i finish my stinit in the national service, pursuing what i like to do.

worst day

Never felt so tired like this before. Everything was so chaotic, nothing was done properly, everything was so messed up when i stepped into my office today. Papers as usual flood my desk after my days leave, and instantly there were things that i have to attend because of the Key Appointment Holders coming back to the station for 3 days. Well i think this 3 days would be like hell for my office and my collegues. The first day already has proven how much brain cells are being killed within me, because of a very lousy arrangment done by my Mdm, who gave in to whatever dumb ideas they came up with. We had to go around the whole station gettting things done for them, treating everyone of them like VIPs. Before they came today, i had the utmost respect for them, I had imagined them to be people who care for the Junior Officers and that they are people who has the brain to do things that they plan. But sadly to say after just one day working with them, i found that they are people who are really selfish, and in their minds they only thought of going home fast thats all, i mean this are the people who are holding high ranks with high pay even they are NS ranked and yet they are acting this way, and all they did discuss are about things like where to have lunch and such theres hardly anything more then that. Well I am just a small fry anyway, and all i could do now is whine and whine. But it really just saddens me. Well because of a blunder my mdm made as a decision, caused my collegues to all come back early to do IPPT with them in the morning at 7.30am, even when i was in my Trainee days i never did that so early. Even my Junior PO is refusing to come back, they are indeed a bunch of old men.

Well just have to stop talking about them, if not i am going to feel so lousy.

For the pass few days after my Bro's POP, and meeting up with Ian i really had the uptmost respect for the commando's team spirit and unity. The way they shouted, and the way they bonded, just shaked me. Espcially Ian, after the AHM(army half marathorn) which he woke up at 3 that morning and finish the 21km run really just made me respect him, but what really made me admire him was his energy to go on with the day meeting up with us for a bowling session, steamboat dinner and shopping after his 21km run, that really tells me how much a commando's mind really is made up off. Kudos to him. I just want to follow him and work my life better.

Got my Passport done and i am ready to collect it soon, and then for my trip to genting with my dept. And also planning for a trip to bangkok with steven and possibly some other good friends. Erm, would be so fun. Well looking forward to the fun part. Hehehe

pop!

awWwwWww…my head is splitting. Pants shrinking, the hair loss rate is even faster then I’ve expected but the worst has got to be my head, its getting bigger bigger and bigger. So much work to be done, piling up like mountains physically and mentally. Everyday I wake up to welcome a new day, but here comes the challenge I have to face everyday with heaps of paper thrown down on my desk in the office like the garbage truck unloading at seneko Incinerator plant…waiting to be dispose of. Well that’s life got to accept it..and the only place I can unleash my fury is by writing it here.

Projects are coming in as usual, heavy workload…they are killing my brains man I tell you….tons of things to work on. Ironic as it may seem, I feel lethargic everyday after work, but I do look forward to Mondays and Thursdays as its always exciting to discover and learn new stuff in class. I enjoy every moment in class, where our lecturer wants us to come up instantly with ideas and explain our ideas, to let us have an inside feel of working as a designer in the field. Well it really helps to boost the students morale and enjoy that little more about the line of work that is awaiting for me after I finish my stint with the nations most dignified job, which is slowly killing my brain cells with things that are so stagnant. This course really helps me to understand abit more indepth of what I am learning for 3 years back in NAFA…..so I am quite glad that I am losing out much. But still, I am not gona get too cocky cause life is full of its ups and downs everything is so unexpected, I’ve personally felt the pinch of it losing things that I didn’t treasure and I don’t wish for it to happen in my career.

Time once again to end this session of cock and bull crap. So glad that I am on leave today. No rush for anything…..

spongy...squezzy

*sniff* ermm... gona fall sick soon. I feel so blue, or shoud I say I am so blue....well must be the lack of sleep I am having.

Well, woke up at 4am this morning, and after that I couldn't get back to sleep, in my mind was the run which is 2hrs from then. I will be going for a run at sentosa(NEW BALANCE REAL RUN), well will add that account later.

What probably might have cause me to also pop out early from my dreamland was probably because of the movie which I've watched 5hrs before I went to bed, never knew it had such a strong impact on my sleep.
Well caught the highly acclaim local production 'THE MAID' with steven, denka and ganwei, what turn out to be a talk cock session(as Steven and I term our meet outs), was later decided to catch a movie. But Why "THE MAID" cause our dear friend Denka Wee thought that being local production it means it is nowhere near the word SCARY, he thought the fear factors wasn't there. But well it really disappoint him, cause he was totally being freaked out by the show with Ganwei....hahaha.....which left me and Steven laughing away. My t-shirt was nearly torn apart by Denka, who was practically freaked out by the show together with ganwei who also hid behind my back. Well can't blame em even the guys sitting beside us were like practically covering their eyes with their hands together with their girlfriends. Kekeke....

Love the art direction of the movie was really awesome, have to give them the credit that they so well deserved, some of the scene was really well setup thats without a doubt which really show that local taste together with the mix of the theme of the Seventh month. The photography skills were just as impressive though i know that the DOP wasn't really someone local, but still its something worth mentioning. Well this movie is trully something a cut above the rest of the other locally produced film, kudos to the The Maid and its crew.

When I met up with Denka I immediately spotted the difference in him, he was much more tan, he has been tanning outside his house's swimming pool by himself, damn selfish. But still I manage to take some time off from my hectic schedule from my time and went for a sun tan that i promise to do so for the past few weeks, stayed under the sun for almost 2 hours.
I purposely woke up early that morning and rushed to the swimming complex thinking that it would not be so crowded but I was wrong. Still i manage to find myself a bench and bask under that bright hot sun that i have so much been waiting for. Well was rather boring basking under that sun all alone, but what to do its so early and I am staying so far away from my tanning khakis. Haha....

Well back to the event that happen this morning, well reached the station at 0645hrs but no one was there, only the real team runners and of cause my Bro Din he was there too getting prepared for the run. Slowly but steadily they arrive to the station, I entered the station with Insp Darryl who was damn cool, he had a tattoo of a serpent on his right calf, man that was really outstanding imaging the image he has the bad boy look.....haha gona get one too right after i ORD......but well my driver amba reach the station we drove out to harbour front to meet up my mdm and my fat ass collegue Vincent. On the way down CTE amba suddenly told me he sold off his so crazily modified WRX haha and he is thinking of getting a BMW 320i haha, fuck he is rich, i wish i was him. But still reality is reality and i got to be more practical if I have a car i should already be contented enough. Well reach sentosa thinking that we might have to run we were all so sian, until we saw the whole lot of guys from golf they collected their goodie bag without going for the run, this struck something in our mind and we followed them and just skip the whole session of running together with the Golf division's guys. ahahaha, in the end we got back around 50 goodie bag. Hahaha.........

But well for me there was nothing really much cause that goodie had nothing thats really worth anything, except for the T-shirt which New Balance claim it to be the same as the Nike's Dri -Fit. Hahaha But the one thing that made me really happy, was that my design was on my division's running teams jersey. Hahaha Kudos though it was a bit girly haha but still they think it was good....haha.

simply too much or too little

i had the reign....ermm well have been raining for awhile now, its rather weird from the statics from last year's august, it is suppose to be a month of draught which means sun and more sun, but its kinda of wierd that it has been raining quite often for the past few weeks. Quite depressing for me as many of times my trip for sun tanning has been cancelled due to this, I am slowly returning back to my sickly fair color. Thats rather sad.....I made a promise to myself that I will go for a long tan once the sun is back up and kicking with its radiant bright rays, i will make sure i fulfill this promise i made to myself.

Been making rather long runs in the evening after work, from the usual 2.5km runs i have, i am doing occassional 4.5km - 5km, but well i still feel rather fat, maybe its the psychological effect and the strong words that my mum said about "you will get a big butt if you keep sitting down on your chair after a meal", ermm this words kept circulating in my mind I just can't stand it.

Being doing dips in the office's compacters where we keep the NSmen's docket, as well as leg lifts there to train my abdominal with the usual 30 pushups accomapnied. I made sure i was moving and kicking in the office and not lying and getting myself too comfortable on that fucking chair of mine, which i think is seriousily giving me that you should rest on me rather you should sit on me look, cause my collegue who is fucking fat likes to lie down hard on it leaving the seats posture all wrongly shaped.
Well I think I hurt my chest while doing dips before my usual run today, heard a crack sound and i immediately drop down from the bars, i could feel the immediate pain that has been infliceted by my own stupidity, well still continued to go for my 2.4km jog, saw this guy who was really really fast, he was on the same route as me but soon when i was making my turn to the corner i thought as usual i might be able to catch up with him but i was wrong, at that time he was even faster then me, he was like 200-300meters away from me. This showed how much my stamina i really had......fuck so pai sei, and to think of it, i felt lucky thathe didn't see me cause i was wearing my brother's commando jersey instead of my usual police jersey....if not it would be so ma lu.....

In the morning reached the station my collegue Din, begged me to help him out on the IPPT for the reservist men, cause he was like really short handed and on my side i don't really have much work to be done cause most of the recalls has been already been send out, so i was rather relax. Well there wasn't much men, and due to the fact we couldn't get a safety vehicle to accompany them in their run, we decided to take them to YIO CHU KANG stadium for their 2.4km test run, when we reached the stadium, there was a group of student most probably from PHS which was nearby the stadium only, they had this very ermm i would say STRICT PE teacher, he shouted at them to run and not to stop, and all the student were like grumbling, and the teacher was like practically shouting at them to run......haha some ignore but was later fuck off by the teacher to run, some of them even hurled and uttered vulgarities at the teacher...my collegues and i were like practically looking at them and also laughing at the whole incident.....but we guess that the teacher must be someone who is not a person who is very favoured by his students, cause through out the whole event of the run his students were grumbling uttering vulgarities at him and he was screaming and shouting at them like dogs, i could remember what he said ermm something like: "eh, you all finish already ah! I didn't see you running, you all better finish up the last round, quick go and run, better don't cheat". Hahaha its like no wonder the kids hate him, cause they are being treated like army trainees. Hahaha......

Saw the FED EX(courier service) advertisment on tv again the one where the courier men walked across the stream after a traffic jam occured on a bridge, fuck it was funny when it ended, i guess its done by the same ad agency(BBDO) that did the last FED EX TV commercial. I think this is one those tv commercial that remind me to constanly to push myself to produce works that are cheesy. I guess i have put this FED EX advertisment into my list of all time favourite TV commercials, together with VOLKSwagon the one in india, the ikea ad with the jack russel so cute by lowe and partners and also production team haha my ex company The Shooting Gallery Asia, the adida's commercial on the metal grid by 180 amsterdam and also the pepsi ad which also featured david beckham inside which ended with the surfer trying to grab a pepsi from the soccer players cold box and the lid slam on him and the lid sayed something like for players only.

ermm got to end todays entry, didn't know i would have so much to write, been really lazy for the past few days...ermm well gona take me quite awhile to put in another entry probably after this weekend's real run competition at sentosa. Let's just see if there is anything worth putting up in the entry on sunday, cause if it rains there might be nothing left for me to write.

Now listening to Lighthose - you and me

collide

just reach home from movies, the land of the dead. Well it wasn't anything spectacular about this show, its one of those sort of movies that if you really have nothing to do and you want to just catch a movie, you can go sit in the cinema and put your legs high up on the seats in front of you.

Well read the newspaper, saw the main paper whih wrote that Mr. Nathan will constitue the presidency for the 2nd term. I don't know why my heart sunddenly felt so relieve, for the past 1 week i was so worried cause if there was to be an election, it would be most defiently make me so busy. But well still got to wait for wednesday for the final outcome and confirmation from the election board before any further instructions from the HQ.

Had beef bulogunia at millenia walk, with some kimichi was rather feeling.

After dinner went over to help denka pack all his stuff at his booth at Marina South, quite abit of things that were left hanging around there. Well had to help him back em up, when we went there his cousin's booth which was the beauty express wan has been there down and brought back already, the place seems so empty comapred to last weekend. While i was packing there was this tenants beside us, they had 3 huskies, they bark so cutely they were not at all those fierce dog, i mean given by their sizes the way they bark just wasn't right, i wish i could stroke them. I really miss the time i played with Joyce's 3 big dogs...well wat is the past is the past. But just couldn't resist, they were look so loveable.

Tomorrow is another day at work. So much stuff to handle tomorrow, hope there isn't any hidups for tomorrow.

Yawnz! Woa the time is only 11:44 ermm my shortest entry for this week.
Well gona go do some exercise.

trail of my stigma

yup..what can i say the sickness is coming back to haunt me, like a parasite sticking to the host. It sucks, have been sneezing the whole day non-stop at first it was nothing, just some mild sneezing that wouldn't cause any aftereffects...but i had to think otherwise...cause right after the sneeze mucus started drooling, well that really suck. Till now, I am having that funny feeling running down my throat and the mucus keep irritating my nose, like as if they were alive calling out for help and my nostril hair are the gates that are hindering them from escaping.

NOooo...Gordon you can't fall, cause there are tons of work to be done in the office this coming week. PLEASE DON'T FALL SICK.

Well this week, exactly the best of week i would say, though misfortune wasn't bestowed on this time of the month. But it definetly wasn't a very good month, cause i have 3 friends falling out of a relationship, and one of them happen to be my buddy. Really sad to hear all this things happening. But well, hope they could get on with their lives, and i am pretty sure they would.

The GE and stuff has been a real headache for me and my PO, been working hard for the audit and when we thought the word busy would cease to exsist for our months for this 2 mths, and till yesterdays meeting. My collegues and I were unveiled with another painstaking news, that we have to print tons of recall order for reservist men for the upcoming election purpose, though it might not happen still we got to prepare ourself, its like gallons of crap water pumped into our sewage line and we as the operator of the dept got to clear it. Well it sucks, hope after all this we will get our taste of relaxation. There were plans for our upcoming depts oversea's trip been looking forward to one. Have been too busy at work and classes that the word fun has come to a mini standstill in my life. Wish something or someone would bring me to the light again.....i don't want to look shaggy at this age.

Well tomorrow will be in town to catch the movie Land of the the Dead by Director George A. Romero, think it would mot likely be another of those movies where zombie's roam the street, hope it isn't what i thought it would be...i need some surprises man....hahai want something to trigger my mind again cause been feeling real dead for the past few weeks need some energizer fluid pumped into my brain cells to keep those cells running.

Anyway was a little disappointed that the dinner appointment was cancelled yesterday, caused i finished my work early and i thought i would be able to leave the office early. But anyway got a chance to do a jog in the evening which i think wasn't too bad too...

well Time to end the entry before it gets longer and longer...

happy 40th bday SG

woa i feel like a king once again lying on my mattress, i never felt this good on my mattress. Well today had the most tiring experince of walking on the streets with my waist fully equipped with all the neccessary items a Police officer should have, the revolver, the speed loader, the handcuffs, the PR set etc etc....well was definetly an eye opener for me as i was deployed to do road directing(road block) at robinson road, pretty fun and the best part was i didn't really sweat that much at all, and it was an experince to work with all the regulars from the NPC.

Spend the whole afternoon at the site standing there and directing traffic, got to seee many different types of car, it definetly spur me on to get my class 3. Well i hope i will be on of those guys who would be hogging the roads with m car and awe peeps with the vibrations of my exhaust.....haha well i think i am going overboard.

Well got to see abit of the action that was going on at the padang, manage to also catch a glimpse of the fireworks, which in my opnion was spectecular, but well if at that moment i was with the person whom i love dearly, it would be a great moment...

So Shity my legs are so sore from all the standing at the padang and i am feeling abit tired, maybe i woke up too early from bed today...didn't even get a chance to talk to my bro since he book out yesterday from henderon camp. Well hope to see him this coming weekend and then we can go sun bathing together.

Well got to take a rest already, tml is another tough and long day for me.......gd nite.

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well a very lazy day for me today...i was like practically not doing anything today, maybe for the routine evening jogs. Either then the jog i have been sitting infront of the television and the computer monitor, eating tibits and etc.... well never felt so slack before, its like something gone amiss. Well was suppose to help Denka at his store at the carnival located at Marina South, but well was really worn out by helping him out yesterday. Spend the whole afternoon yesterday helping him move his stuff, from his office to the location. When we reach there, the worse thing was that we had to carry the whole load of stuff from his car to his booth, well it was a real torture all this happen in the bright hot lazy afternoon where the scorching sun was overhead
blooming brightly, and as always i sweat like a pig haha......but well nevertheless we unloaded all the stuff, left it at his cousin's booth and we decided to leave for suntec for a late lunch cause we wasn't very full from the early HAN's lunch, well had beef noodle with clarance, and after lunch walk around suntec. After awhile i was so worn out by the morning's Physical activity, i immediately suggested to the guys that we left for denka's office for a short nap before we commence our work at the carnival, and without hesitation everyone agreed and were very glad that i made such a suggestion and there we were back at the office, got ourself a laptop and a few pillow, which in the end Denka and I nicely tug ourselves to bed and clarance happily enjoyed surfing the net. We got up at 5 and got ourself ready to set up the booth once again, we sped back to the venue and drag our lazy legs out of the car and walk to the booth with the remaider stuff which we took from the office. When we got there the place was still rather dead, but slightly better then the afternoon, where it was really hot. We setup our stuff handed out some leaflets together wih clarance, and at the end of it we went back at 8.30 cause there wasn't really many people at the carnival, which was quite demoralising, well even if there was a big crowdi don't really think denka was able to get any recruiment for his co. comparing to his cousin's co. Beauty express.

But still i woke up this morning having the idea of going down, but when i thought of the extra duty that i was being deployed to do, i just felt so sian and i tld myself that i wanted to have more time to rest before i was deployed for the event, cause it will be a very tiring day where i need to stand for around 3-4hrs under the hot sun, i am not sure about this times deployment cause its a different sector from the last time....so its another whole set of ballgame.

Well everyone was just so busy today, all of a sudden i just felt the loneliness. I wish someone would ask me out for dinner or something but well nothing came nobody called. Well really miss the days even its been after a year the days i would be able to have dinner on sundays at amk for the fried hokkien mee....well those days. I just cant stand having to stay at home too long it really suck.

Well today is another brand new week, and also a day closer to the nation's 40th Birthday. Well got lots of things to do again this week, well work is never too much for me in the office cause there is always sudden hidups and i got to amend them, thats teh irony of this job.
Hahaha....oh well got to live and take ...best part for tomorrow i have no class which means i can go home earlier and i can go swimming with my bro after work if we both are able to bump into each other after work......yea hope so.....been wanting to go for a tanning been abt a month since i did that.....hope i can get a chance to do it tomorrow.

Oh well, just end the entry here....hope when i go back to the office tomorrow i am in for some sort of treats.

miserable

at times when you feel so down, there was no ones there to be by your side to pull you up, is that what you call lonely? Well perhaps it is and at least this is what i percive from my point of view.
Well had a longest talk with Denka last night and it proved to be some bad recollections. Things that were suppose to be burried up with a hatchet was once again being dugged out again. From the conversation I had with Denka, it was clear to me and also to conclude that he felt very confuse, being the third person between a relationship, the girl whom he had been toking to already has that someone whom he knows that is treating her like a princess. Which I guess made Denka very troubled, and all i could advice him was not to hurt the other guy by being that bastard, cause put urself in that poor dudes shoes and you would really understand that pinch.

Well, slowly we digress and denka ask me how i felt when this happen to me. I was like err.....flashbacks just kept flickering in my mind. And at that moment I don't know why the lyrics of the song by James Blunt - You are beautiful just kept jingling in my mind....well i think the lyrics must really meant something that expressed how i felt when the incident happen to me and even now as he reminded me i really felt the pinch, couldn't really sleep yesterday night thinking of the things that happen, i feel like a sissy. But well what has happen has happen, as long the person i lost is being treated nicely its the best thing for me.

Well was suppose to be helping with his setup for tomorrow at the esplanade for his comapny's agent promotion or something, but things just didn't go as smoothly as thought it would. I was held up in the office for some clearning of documentation and this took me quite sometime, and i finally got to see an ba's WRX, well it was certainly modified crazily cause the moment he accelarated the car you could hear thunderous sound coming out of the exhaust rather crazy. But well back to the Denka thingy, it seems to be its quite hard being a boss....ahhahahaha, well he again offered me to work for his company again and i am really thinking very hard whether to join Dennis wee Reality cause it was never my forte to sell houses and definetly notmy dream nor passion to work as an agent. But well i will just think about it and see how things goes as i slowly build up my career. I will definetly not sway away from my dream.

Well tml got to get up at 8.30am to get myself prepared and get my butts down to denka's office by 10am and from there set off to the esplande, well hope its gona be fun. At the least i know i can do some catch up with my buddy Clarance, who will also be there to help out, been a long time since i met up with clarance the bro whom we seldom meet up with, cause due to our own work commitments we are never able to obliged to each others timing, just like for me my tuesday is out of the league alrady cause i am burning it for the extra duty for NDP, which this time round i got the duty of being deployed around the padang, haha at least this time round i am able to get a view of the fireworks haha, and the also a view of the mobile column hahaha. Maybe thats the reward for me, well heard that my promotion is coming real soon, ermm looking forward to getting my SGT's pay haha, pathetic it may seem but its really something that i need it, to sustain my welfare haha......

Well tomorrow is another hard day at work. Hope i will get fun, hope to be able to blog next monday, talking about monday. I've got no class on monday yea....well having this journal just serves its purpose it acts like a reminder for me....wait again i gong gong go to the class again, like the last time went to class only to know that i was being played out and worse thing was i was having a fever. So shitty. But well national day is coming i wish Singapore a Happy 40th birthday, and wish that everyone is healthy and happy.

Oh shit its already 12.08am, fuck i was suppose to tug myself into bed at 2330hrs fuck.......got to go now...........ZzzzZZZzzzzzzzzZzzzZZzzzZzzzzzzzZ

Now listening to James Blunt - You're Beautiful

kuku

another entry, with yet another journal of my life....having this tummy ache at the moment, it comes and it goes...so fickle minded.....causing me so much pain...arghhhhhh....

Its becoming rather boring to get up early in the morning and go to the station for work, so many things needs my attention, how i wish i need not go to work that would be so good. I just can't seem to get myself focus in life, I don't know what is going on with me. I try to do things that i once like but it just dosen't help, i think i have to just focus harder...just had my presentation yesterday, well i would say it went rather smoothly no hidups in between. But well was trembling when it was my turn in the group to present the portion that was assigned to me to present, well while i was presenting i wasn't sure whether was it the effect of the aircon or myself having that stage fright i could feel my speech slurring, anyway was rather glad when everything ended as i concluded the presentation. I thought i was alright cause at the beginning I wan't stressed out at all i took it easily, as i thought it would be just like any normal presentation, but as the first group presented, the stress tension reached its peak for me, and when the next group went up the way they presented was getting better, everyone presented so well maybe because probably they had this experince in the relevant field of profession, and they really knew their stuff, that made feel so lea.

Send some works to Anthon for comments, but he hasn't reply since yesterday's email which didn't reall mention anything about my work, I am pretty worried about it not being able to reach the industries standard. But well, will wait patiently for his reply cause i always believe the good stuff don't come easy, and it think Anthon must be racking his brains about how to comment my work haha....i hope i have doen well in my art direction for this time round as on the last project in his class, i missed out some things that was stated in the brief which i think he deducted marks on my art direction. Hope he can give me some suggestions on how i can improve those points that i missed out in my works, cause if not i guess i would always and never know what my mistakes are in designing an ad, its always better to get a proffessional's help like Anthon who has 10 years of working experince in this line as a Art Dir.

Well back to my office, the auditors finally arrived in the office yesterday at 1300hrs, they were made up of a small group of old dudes, they look like midgets to me cause they are all really very short. But well my mdm was rather panicking cause some stuff were yet to be done, haha... But well there is nothing we can do.....

What was the stupid that happen to me was this morning, i was only informed of my DRT duty yesterday. I totally forgot that i had no keys for the office and the spare key that was always lying on the ledge was no longer there some irresponsible dude in the office took the key without notifying any of us....booo....but well was panicking when i could not find the keys to enter the office as my uniform was kept inside, in my mind i was like "oh what the fuck today's gona get lectured by Senior Staff Sergent Toh again like the other time, but lucky thing i waited in the other office which i knew where they kept their keys after 15mins Kelvin arrived, he told me i could draw my office spare key at the maintenace office, fuck i rush down and lucky thing the officer was there manning the post haha got the keys rush back to office changed and went down together with kelvin without drawing my revolver, handcuff and t-baton, when we reached the charge office the accuse were already being put to the respective vans. I am starting to get sick of this DRT shit, but later i came to realise that i cold claim back whatever morning duty, which i did for today and i left the office at 4.45, thats was rather cool .....Was really glad that Din would be on duty with me at the NDP which is next week haha, at least i got a partner alongside with adrian and Nazri. Hahahaha

Well got to end my entry for this journal here, cause my mac is running out of batt and i think it might snap anytime. Got to go charge it .....

Well leave more dumb entries in here the next time when i have the time................

Now listening to Hu Yan Bing - Waiting for you.

slping is a pleasure

if anyone should deserve a nice ice cold beer, i think it would be me. Why would i want to say that, cause i have been working like a dog the whole week through, sweating profoundsly like a bloody hot dog, if i were to be in frankfurt it would be fine....but in singapore me being a hot dog it sucks.

Anyway, went back to the office to drown myself with so much shit work that my regular counterparts are aren't able to cope with.....which ended up with the two of us clearing up the mess with them, by reinforcing our daily office duty which obviousily they are not aware of. I reached the office at around 1015hrs despite time after time of instruction by my OC and collegue, well right after i stepped into the office the rain started to pour, how i wish i had a cup of coffee on my hands, standing at the window sipping a cup of hot coffee. Well so much work to be done when i reached the office, was instructed to file some documents which made me dozed off while working on it till my collegue vincent woke me up and forcing me to go to the yio chu kang market to buy lunch which i reluctanly agreed to, cause it was pouring cats and dogs outside. In the end took a bus to the yio chu kang market bought lunch for ourselves, john and mdm.

Felt really sleepy after the filling lunch and what was so good was the weather it was so cold, felt so much like sleeping. The night before had a long long discussion on the project and there was so much details to be written in our presentation luckily we had someone who had a degree in marketing to give us the direction we so much needed in formulating the proccess of the presentation, if not we would so much look like a lost child.

Something was rather amiss in the office today, which i now recalled, it was my collegue Krishna muthu the indian fat mama. He was there in the office as well, i didn't expect him to be there cause he is resigning and further more to add to the embarassment he made of himself i didn't know he would be there. Well there he was sitting quietly at his seat, which he ought to be quietly tping his data into his desktop. I was like "FUCK" now then u realise the computer is so important and you are sitting there working on your stuff. Well this fat mama i have so much negative views on him, which i think is one of the worst person i have met so far in my orientation period of the working life, he is so damn lazy. He was a pest in the office which my collegue and I find him to be, he is constantly causing disturbance in the office and maybe i would say terroising us. My collegue and i don't mind him grabbing our neck, twisting our necks making fun of us, cause we know that it was all out of the word "FUN" but at times there is also a need to be serious, and there is always a limit to a person patience. Some times the things that he does just makes me fume up and feel like giving him a punch or a tight slap on his face and ask him to stop all his crap and get back to his own work. He is such a person that when it comes to deadline will he start to work, at many occassions i have worked with him in the office he has been like this, and many of us just felt so sick in helping him. But well i guess he finally realise it but well too late. My mdm refuse to even to talk to him, cause he caused so much trouble in the office and all of us got to help him clean up the mess, he is now like some suspect in the office, there is nothing he can touch, maybe due to the fact that his status of a regular is stripped off as he has officially tendered his letter of resignation. Well, me and my collegue in knowning that he is going off we felt a sigh of relieve cause there won't be anymore any neccessary disturbance by him anymore.

Now i am only looking forward to the 12th of aug to come as soon as possible. The reason being, its my pay day and for this month, i got quite abit of money due to the extra duties i have done and also at the same time it was the fat mama's last day in the office and then he is officially a civillian which means i can give him shit on the road when i see him misbehaving. Just can't wait for that day to come.

Hope nazri put up the SAR form for me to my new OC to get me promoted to SGT soon cause i need the sgt pay which is basically alot more higher then my current cpl's pay..... really hope it comes.........

tick tick tick

well another nite of blogging...well attended class will be having a presentation on monday, but i don't feel the stress i should be having now instead it was the work in the office that affected my composure. Been very very very busy this few days in the office everyone could feel tension arising in the office, with so mch more touch ups to be done before the doomsday. We were practically, working like robots and worse of all I am holding the post in the office which is the most busy, with tons of things to do on my agenda each day and i could not identify anyone on the list that looks less important which i can just overlook.

Everyday when i reach the office is like getting on a battlefield, espcially the moment when i change into my uniform in the office its like i am preparing myself with bullet vest arming myself with rifles, pistol and other stuff.....so stressful..its like you never know when you will be shot down like a shooting duck. Please someone emphatise me please. This weekend I am just gona burn it again, with so much work to be done and cleared before the audit in the office begin on monday, i could see my mdm panicking already over the past few days, cause my lazy good for nothing collegue Krisha Muthu did not bother to do his job properly, when he return back from his mc today there wasn't even a sign of remorse, he really suck....he spend the whole day in the investigator's office do some report on the missing items, i think he really deserves it. I would dare say he is the only person in the office who has that totally BO CHUP attitude, and well that sucks good luck to him after his resignation, hope this thing really teached him a lesson on not to be such a lazy bugger.

Tomorrow is another very very busy day for, with again lots of things to do. Just learn the clever path programme which generates list of my reservist men under our strength, well after using it i think the fucking programmes dosent live up to its name at all, cause all the utilities inside is not clever at all which i meant user friendly, its definetly a stupid programme if you ask for my opnion, cause it really look like shit. But due to the intelligence i have, it took me only awhile to master the programme while my friend tried 3 times but to no avil haha....

just before...

erm decided to write an entry just before i put myself to bed, on yet another early slumber....
it just feel kinda of wierd, like i've not live the day to its fullest....well that feeling is rather hard to explain, i think many of my mates would behaving that same feeling that fullfilment of having to end a day in the wee hours of the morning.
Well, today had the same reminescene feeling while i was on the way to the academy from the station, i passed the road that i was once so familiar with in that 174 bus, it was like relieving that moment which was once so dear to me. As the rain pitter pattered on the wind screen of the police car, i had the strangest feeling like a sting in the heart which was so unbearable, her image just ceased on my frontside, there wasn't anything in my mind that i could shag it off. On my msn this evening, there was her name in the list again, but i didn't dare to msg her again fearing that my msn might just shut off again and she thinks that i am some pyscho trying to stalk her, as much as i wish to know how is she getting on in life i won't want to afford antagonising any stupidity act.

Tomorrow is another day at work, with more task being assigned to me, i am very sure everyone hates work and i am definetly one of them who would raise my hands with a hesitation if anyone were to ask hat dumb question. I work like an ant in the office, handling basically everything from data entry to fitness intructing. Sometimes i just felt like bursting out and jump down from the top of the building, but it just proof to be too painful for me to jump down and die ....... i must think of a foolproof method that will save me from enduring all the pains before i go ......something with dignity..erm i sound like as if i am feeling very depress fuck.

My module in class is coming to and end, well so it means got to start revising over the notes... i hope that my presentation will be fine, cause i think from what my friend phyllis has done on the research part its good enough to present to the class. But well that leaves with the presentation part, though the brief theory facts are been properly research i guess we got to now crack our brains to see who to present it, presently i have the highest chance of getting voted for the presenters post, cause i am the only guy in the team arghhh.

Its a confirm that i will be deployed for national day duty, well to me i felt that it was rather ok, cause well i am single and there is not much activity that would most likely be popping out on that day for me, so i guess i have nothing to complain about and well, i got a day off after that event so hurray. The best part is, that fat indian in my office Krishna is quitting the force so that means me and Din won't be terrorize by him any more, he is such a pest. Imagine having been hated by a chinese and malay that smells how stinky and suck he is......well anyway just heard from mdm that he is going to grill and screw him big time when he comes back from his MC which he sprain his leg on sunday, well good luck to him and his big fat black arse(well i don't have an issue with races but he that bastard is really a pain in the arse).

Well think i have nothing more to say in the post anymore, gotta go to bed now, i think i will be chaning my blogging to the one in friendster. Cause its more convenient, and that means no more deep secrets... so i guess that helps abit to stop me from thinking more....

some thoughts

Has anyone got this feeling of having to wake up everyday and reliving that same feeling or missing that same someone. Its really something really terrible, espcialy when you thought that you've gotten over everything but that same hurt just comes back and haunt you. Its as if its not had enough you just yet and its trying to devour whatever is left of you.

I was surfing on msn that nite and there she was as well, for the along time had i not seen her on msn. I know I shouldn't have msged her, but still i don't what made me type a whole chunk of words and click on the SEND button, i know i shouldn't have,but but......i just can't help it. I am realy not sure what came over me, but as soon as i send the msg my msn got disconnected and i wasn't able to return back......i thought of msging her back to tell her sorry right after the incident, but i thought she might not even care....but little did i know when i on my handphone on friday i saw her msg, and i think she was rather annoyed that i actually msged her and log off, well i really didn't mean to log off without saying anything nor did i had the intention to ry and do anything funny......maybe i shouldn't even have tried sending a msg, gordon why are you an idiot isn't the current way things good, why do i have to screw things up Fark. Well what is done is done and there is nothing i can do, i just think that i am realy stupid to have actually done such a thing, all i wanted was to just ask how she is and everything got so complicated, i am realy piss with myself as well. Tried replying her msg and explain what happen to my msn but to no avil like all other msgs that i have send to her in the past there wasn't any reply, well maybe i am another person who has walk into her life and images of me diminish as time wears off......

I don't even know whether have i let her off my mind already, i know its been quite sometime but still i find it very hard to let go. Though its hard to let go of things but i know if she is happy i would be for her as well, if she is going through any tough times, i could still lend her my shoulders and ears and cheer her up in my not so funny jokes.
But i don't that chance would ever come, as many of times i think maybe my name was even taken off from her msn.
I don't blame her, cause its understandable.

Well enough of thought for this entry. Well got to go do some reflection on what i have did.

i alone cant change

well was just being told by my Sgt that we will be recieving the the commander's commendation for arresting those ah bengs, while it wasn't our duty at that point of time, but practicing the PROACTIVENESS we should have as police officrs we did.
Well it was really nothing that i would be proud of, cause its just another case i belive my NPCO's have handled such cases. Well it would most likely not be remembered after a few months later, like many things in life that would be forgotten the essence is time.....

Been like super busy again in the office with all the internal audit coming in, due to the external auditors coming in this coming August hate it, so it means more things to be updated and more things for me to handle, how i wish i could ORD tomorrow like my senior I am just waiting for my big day to come haha....haven been doing my afterwork jog for 5 days because of some activities and night classes i have to attend that held me back, but finally got a chance yesterday and today to do it though i reach home late..oh well its better then giving it a miss.

Almost had to do OT again today, well i have enough EDO to ask for 2 days unofficial leave from my dept, and its hard to use up that free hours. But well i think i will keep it for my vacation use..keke ermm got to also save up now, gona get myself a tattoo soon, well it is one hell decision i have beenmade, been thinking of it for the past few months, many may ask me why would i want to get a tattoo, why would i be so stupid to pay someone to inflict pain on myself.
Well my anlogy to it would be, why run till you feel like dying and the feel that pain during the run and after it "well to me its the feeling that I am pretty much aware that I am still alive and spinning". It goes to the same as to why i want a tattoo, to constantly remind myself that i am still alive....

Well tomorrow mass IPPT(Individual Pysical Fitness Test), together with the Training Dept, my collegue who is going to bring some guys for shooting constanly reminded me to not to embrass ourselves as Fitness Instructor for the PNSmen Dept, so as part of Fitness Instructor in my Dept, I hope i wouldn't mess things up. But i can't help but to say sorry to those reservist men tomorrow, as i know many of them won't be able to make it and there might be many who would fail, cause marking of stations will be more stringent due to the fact that we got to show the training guys, that we are not people who are slackers.

Read my old entries, i think i have lots and lots of broken sentence structures and i think its really bad. Ermm i won't blame myself for not being myself while i was typing in the entries, though i was feeling rather tired after a long days work...ahahahaha.

Erm, feel like clubbing lei haven been doing that for quite sometime already. I think i will find sometime and get some of em out for clubbing, haha. Denka told me he saw Joyce there on wednesday. Well wonder how is she now. I am thinking of msging her, but the thought that tells me she would not reply and maybe she just wants to keep a distance away from me, just held me back from pressing down her HP no. and sending the msg to see if she is doing well..........

Well tomorrow is another day and work really sucks. Arghhhh, and my life is spinning and there is nothing that i can change argghhhhhhh....why?


Now listening to Lifehouse - Spin

dun know where to start...

ermm...where shld i start, i really don't know!

Well just came back from night class, and as ever i feel so lethargic....... Maybe doing night class wasn't a very smart choice after all. Hahaha. But still I still do benfit alot from it. Its always a hard time to get drag myself to the train that is south bound, I am like standing at a crossroad when I am at Yio chu kang mrt stations platform cause on one side the train is going south bound (to town) and on the other its going down north and back home...well its always a hard decision....

Well friday watched Sin City, hell it wasn't a very nice movie. Maybe its because i haven read its novel, in the whole movie me and Denka was like figuting through out the show, I can't see what steven and his friend was doing.....but it was rather a boring show even the steamy portion of the show just proofs that it has no effect to wake me up after many occasions that i almost fell asleep in the show. Well before that steven's friend was pretty worried that she couldn't enter the cinema due to it being rated as r21, but well we look mature enough, we manage to sneak her in to the cinema for the show.....

Met up with steven ian for a short shopping trip, we went to sidewalk 10 and everyone of us bought a tee haha, the tees there were so irresistable the graphics were like too good to resist haha.......then walk on and decided to drop by FRGL(FRAGILE) to get some shorts, cause the one i had was really koyak(spoiled) had to get a new pair got mine at FRGL for $34.90 rather good buy...i hope that it will last ya, cause i heard that their stuff don't really last long so i was hopping that it would last me for at least a few mths before the wear and tear thingy starts. But well after that met up with denka and he drove us down to ikea to meet up with ganwei who went to amk to study for his exams. Ian and Ganwei each bought some things but as always ganwei bought the most things haha, cause he is still at the point of revamping his room so as expected, shop for around an hr plus then me denka and steven went to the BMW showroom to look at BMW(Denka's Fav) hahas through the whole way steven and i were like chanting "denka six series" "denka six series" over and over again, we tease him and wanted him to get the bmw's six series convertable which he claim to be price at 200k, haha ........

After ganwei pay up his stuff we waited for him at the delifrance at the opp of ikea, where denka was starving and in the end he ordered a potato deli and gobble it down like as if he hasn't eaten for days... at the same time we discussed on where to eat alot of unconstructive ideas came like marina south for steam boat buffet and maxwell market and in the end we ended up at a coffee shop at bugis, all eating fishball noodles...hahaha so stupid, after the dinner we walked around bugis junction where ganwei got some cosmetic for himself and finally we ended our day, as Ian has got to book back in to camp at 2359hrs , i think he really felt sian as i can feel it for him cause i too being through what he has been through...and that feeling really really suck......

Well feeling tired yet again...well got to go to bed now.....YaWnZ! Yet another entry with the same old happenings that occur to me over and over again its just a vicious cycle for me to live this boring life over and over again..........wish something exciting would happen to me fast sometime, hope it would be fun and exciting...

Well today my new OC(officer in charge) finally came, got to wake up early tomorrow and reach office early have been late for the past few mths in this new station. Got to leave a good impression for him hahaha, and so suay today a very colorful bird died on my mdm's window that areas ledge, it was damn scary the bird was rather rare looking and i think it bang itself on the window...so sad. Well got to go prepare my nest, for me to cuddle myself in.

Now listening to Howie Day - A Perfect Time Of Day

time past

well its almost a year stint in the police force already....rather fast i think. Being so busy lately, with so much stuff its like working with so many things at the same time. Its studies and NS and some external project, well its keeping me busy enough and not to think about other stuff.....well I am not sure if thats good or is that bad. Well i realy don't know.

Went to SGH yest for my AED test, to learn how to use that machine. Well i was a really stupid machine, its not about learning how to use it, but the procedures before you administer the machine on the patient who fainted, its a rather stupid thing, wel before that we got to be recertify for our basic cardiac rescue(cpr) again, its rather stupid, now i am holding to two different cert for two different hospital, one was the raffles medical group and the other SGH grp of hospital, now i am more then qualified to save anyone.....keke anyone needs a medic......? hahahaha


Been rather busy in the station as well, many things to handle. Don't know why but maybe i just don't know how to manage my job scoope properly..hehe. Well don't want to think so much, have so many things to do.

Well got a pair of new track shoes from Ascis, pretty happy hahaha.....i mean its something i have been wanting to get as my old track shoes are peeling off so its about time i changed it keke.......Well going to watch a midnight show with my dudes later, guess it would be SIN CITY, after recommendation by planning sides STAFF SGT Rizam, who told there many hot scenes haha....but of cos i am not going for the hot scenes(like real)haha....


Well Sunday, most prob will join the guys for a run at sentosa finally after much persuastion from my collegues and the running team. And anyway denka wans to meet me there, i think i will jsut go for this time round to see where i stand in the team. hahahaha

interesting day

phew....had an interesting day today.
I've never expect myself to be acting like a police officer, its like some sort or reminscene i had in my dreams cause in my line of work i never think that i will experince what the frontline officers are facing everyday.

My collegues and i were out on our way back to the station, as he wants to put me down at the station cause i was out of the station for quite sometime, due to him forcing me accomapny him as he needs to drive some NSF boys to the toa payoh range(security command headquarter) for their ORD shoot, after the shoot we wet to circuit road to get some cheap buns haha...which my collegue insist it was very good and i had to try it, so as usual being the okok me just said "OK".......then sunddenly my phone rang, it was my partner Din who called telling us that he was done already at the police academy, so therefore we went to the academy to pick them up first and drop me off together with them.
Just as we are about to reach our station just the road outside anderson junior collegue ang mo kio ave 6, we saw a group of guys with a mix of chinese, malay and chinese congregating there.

Therefore my collegue being the more observant wan straight away ordered to drive into the estates carpark, once we reach there we sprang out of our patrol car, together with the reservist men who was with us all in 5 of us jumped into action. The group of chinese guys and a girl rush off upon seeing us, and hop into two seperate taxis. Immediatly two of my collegues, jumped infront of the car and stopped the taxis, made all the 8 of them step out of the car, we took their ICs brought them to a nearby blks void deck, from there my friend interrogated the group. Soon after members of the public slowly gathered to see what the commotion was all about.....it was only later the the npco's came all in there were 5men in their team F4P3D , together we introgated the kids, they were all just 15,16 and the youngest was a 13 years old boy, and well he was the main cause for all the nuisance. We asked the boy why he wanted to beat up the victim, then we later know that the malay boy in sch often pick on him and that caused the resenment and later resulted in VCH case and subsequently rioting which was a more serious case.........soon after an Senior station inspector and a station inspector came down, that was the crazy shit both of them are damn fierce they really can make you break down, every time they open their mouth you won't see him talking nicely its all shouts adminster towards his conversation between him and the grp of clowns, i can see from some of the boys that they are shaking, as the way he spoke was really scary.........soon after he ordered some of the boys to take off their clothes, and expected they had tattoos on their body, one of them even had a tiger and dragon tattooed on his chest, some of them on their arms and the only girl had tattoos on her ankle.

Well just before everything ended the commander of ang mo kio police division came down, we were all like "what the fuck" its only a small case and he is down inspecting and looking around. The CO has this very broad face that made him look very stout looking, intimadting indeed. Well the SI let the girl go as she did not participate in the event, but the SI gave her a thrashing before she left, but my this horny collegue just before she left had to give her some soft words haha, like ask her not to mix with them again and do such thing again ....haha my another friend who was beside me were laughing away as we had xpected him to do that....hahaha.

Hahaha, well i really feel sorry for their parents and them.........they are still young and they should not be so rash with things, there is always a way to solve the problems. But well a very interesting day indeed, and also an experince that i will treasure, cause it dosen't happen to me that often. : )

so lethargic

Well just reach home. *YaWnZ* so tiring, man after such a long day. It was my first duty and defiently an experince gain as a police officer, now at least when people ask me I am able to proudly say that carried a firearm when I was in NS. Hahahaha...

Today was indeed a very long and tiring day, we were all dress in full uniform, reporting in to the station at 1015hrs. But still there were people who were late, we got our briefing and finished up around 1100hrs went to draw our arms and the required things for duty. At around 1155hrs we set off to KRETA AYER NPP for my grp there were around 36 men we were incharge of north bridge road, raffles UOB center and MRT and clarke quay MRT respectively, well i was put in section3c with an Insp by the name Susan, our job was to stand guard at the clarke quay mrt station and guiding those small kids to the NE SHOW, but the kids were really orderly we had little trouble ushering them to the designated routes that leads them to the NE SHOW, we were all guessing why the mrt station, shouldn't they be coming in some private charted bus, then we came to realise that actually the book the mrt just to ferry them to and fro from a designated place to clarke quay.

Well stand there like a kuku for almost 1 day today and now i am really feeling the toil already, its really very tiring having to stand in the hot sun for the whole day. It really suck. But well its and experince i actually gain.


Now listening to Howie day - Collide

there is no where in the world that i want to be

Well my bro finally enlisted for the army(commando) but i was not able to see him off, due to work commitment in the station. I personally think he is someone who would achieve far greater then me as a person. Before enlistment he was so worried that he might no be able to cope with the things inside, but what i think he is just over worrying. He has been doing his runs, as a fitness instructor myself, I think he is physically very fit already, but of coause i can understand his anxiety, as I once had to go through the same feeling, not knowing what will it be like in camp and how can i cope with the life inside. But I am sure he will adapt well inside. I am so proud to have such a brother, who is able to take hardship and endure, well at times I wish I had half of his intelligence as well as his dillgency, but things in life wouldn't happen the way i want it to be, thats the irony of life.

I would defiently miss the nights not being able to chat with him, and also see him sitting infront of the tv late at night watching TV. Well, i sincerely hope that god will watch over my brother for the next 2years of his life as a commando. I would love to see him graduate from NUS, which he has secure a place, before the army. But before the army, he was also troubled by which University to go to, cause both NUS and NTU offered him a place, due to peer pressure haha I would say. Well so proud of him, and i know my mum and dad is also very proud of him for achieving this much, he really made my family proud, unlike me who is just still hanging around hai..........................

Well was having meeting in the station with my mdm today, was talking about the retreat for all the head of dept. She was asking if we would want her to note down any thing for her to go and bring up infront of the commander during her retreat, but i am not sure why did we digress so much from our main topic, that we went to talk about the NSF officer who shot himself with the pistol, cause our dept is incharge of both the NSF as well as the NSmen so we got to handle the case. We were speculating if it was foul play, cause 4 other bullets were not in the pistol's chamber. Just before this, my friend was still playing with his ID card, well really felt something in my heart, the indian oy was like 1 year older then me, I think its really stupid to end his life just like this, its just not worth it. At the same time it just reminds me of how fragile life really is!
In my line of duty, we handle life round so often. Everytime when i load my revolver with the ammunitions for duty i just have that worried feeling, my hands still shake tediousily, maybe i was just not meant for this shit. Hahahahaha.......

Well so much to say, tml i am going for my duty for the National day parade show, hai got to draw my arms tomorrow and also patrol around north bridge road, from peninsula to funan center.....so saddening........


Now listening to YELLOWCARD - Only one

taken off

Well so tired, have so many things to schedule and so many things left undone.

Been so tired, sleeping late waking up early, i feel like i have become a whore to the society, its either i wake up and do the same stuff again or there is nothing new. Maybe i've yet to taste anything sweet at the moment or should i say i will ever get to taste anything sweet. Ermm craving for a bar of chocolate at the moment haha, don't know where i picked this up from whenever i feel tense or stress a chocolate just helps.

Well just finish a job, been having lots of shit with the client cause i took over the project ffrom another designer which she really left piles of shit for that woman to pickup, and on my part i was the garbage man who picked up the debries and i mean really bits and pieces of it changing specifcially to what that client wanted, so headache. But well i have finish the shit, and what i love most is that IOC is finally over, that means no need to wake up early in the morning and rush to the station to sign the attendance of the men. Hahaha

Ermm having my first duty prowling the streets this sat for the national parade rehersal show. I am put at northbridge road to patrol that area which is basically peninsula plaza to funan center there, ermm would be exciting but at the same time sad cause my weekend is burned arghh..........but well what to do hope to see some of my buddies there cause i heard airport is sending 50 men down so i hope in the 50 some of them are my dudes back in PA.

Well watch a TV Serial on channel 55 of the cable vision, well really felt that it was meaningful. The words that guy told the other men was really true, its not about how much material stuff you can give to a person and showing how much you care about the person by constanly calling her. But by using your heart to feel it and touch the person that you love, by putting in your heart and soul to understand and care for your love one, don't wait till the person that you care for has left and you start crying, its really pointless. Thats when i really felt like i was an idiot to only realise this at this point of time. I wish time could move backwards, then maybe i will be able to ammend whatever i have lost.

Ermm feeling abit sick at the throat again, think i am going to get a flu or something already man it sucks. I hate it.

Well being the 1 of the 2 fitness instructor in the reservist office, i was put to the task by my officers to be the pacer for DSP Han, Commander of Ang Mo kio South NEIGHBOUR HOOD POLICE STATION, well had the honour of doing it, he was defiently a very nice fella and at his age of 46 he still could run 2.4km and not stopping it was damn good this shows that physically he is very fit, to be able to endure the run.
Running is always the most diffcult part of everyone, they say its tiring. But to me i think its more about what the mind tells you that makes you tired, just learn to endure and no matter at what age you will still be able to run. Its a healthy lifestyle.

Well going to bed now, so much so looking forward to the duty on sat, but the sick part is that i am got to wake up early tomorrow, that sucks.
Ermm meeting denka tml for midnight movies again, hahahaha..............yea got to realax i have toooo..............hahahahahaha

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WHAT IS THE MOST PAINFUL THING IN LIFE?